The months following my surrender to Kalu Mandinka were the most wonderful and exciting of my life! Kal and I were not an exclusive couple and I found myself part of his 'harem', as feared. But in the end I was surprisingly okay with it! I accepted it as only natural that a man with such potent sexual power maintain a healthy stable of women. In fact, I even developed an understanding friendship with Larissa, one of his other favorites. It provided me a satisfying thrill imagining her and other selective, beautiful girls worshipping the man I adored, and being psychologically inseminated as I had been.
Regardless, I hoped with all of my heart that my relationship with Kal would continue to grow. And it did! We grew closer and closer, developing a wonderfully fulfilling relationship.
My roommate, Emilie, on the other hand, was having problems. She had been seeing a guy named Hunter on and off for some time, lately more on than off, but she was unhappy. I could sense her frustration until one evening, right after an argument over the phone, she laid it bare. "I am through with him! What a loser!" she cried, flipping her iPhone the bird as she hung up.
"What's the matter?" I asked anxiously.
"Hunter and some of his friends cut afternoon classes to play golf," she replied in a short tone of voice. "Now he is shit-faced drunk and isn't coming over! We haven't fooled around in over a week. And I'm so horny! I'm not ugly, am I?"
I responded with empathy: "Uh, no. You're beautiful!"
She came up and gave me a hug with a smile, which quickly faded. "So why doesn't he want to be with me?" she asked. "He's so nice. Smart, ambitious, and good-looking, but he acts like a middle-aged man sometimes. I just don't get it."
I shrugged my shoulders in response: "I don't know. I really like Hunter - he has a great sense of humor and all - but maybe you two aren't right for each other."
"You are so lucky!" she went on. "I'm jealous...it must be wonderful to have somebody like Kal who is so passionate! You two are magic together, and it seems he would rather make love to a woman than anything else in the world."
I giggled at her comment.
"What's so funny?" she asked with a confused look on her face.
"Just the term 'make love'," I responded. "It sounds so old-fashioned."
"Then what do you guys say?" she asked. "Fuck? Screw? They sound so crass and unemotional!"
After a few seconds I answered: "I guess I haven't really thought about it. We don't say much. Almost always Kal and I communicate our needs and desires non-verbally. We just know what we need or want and it happens. I know exactly what he wants and where he wants me without him saying a word - he has a power over me. But it's very emotional - the feelings are so intense. It's more than just sex, or fun, or any of the things we normally think of when fooling around with a guy. When Kal and I are together, the base purpose of it all - reproduction - is always on my mind. From our first time I have fantasized about Kal impregnating me. It's an incredible turn-on! And though I don't want that at this point in my life, if it happened I know I would be thrilled! So in the end, when we are together, we are mating. That's the best way to describe it."
"Mating? That's weird!" Emmi cried out with a laugh. "Like it's the Nature Channel or something!"
"Weird, but true," I assured her.
Emmi's smile morphed into a look of intrigue: "What is it that makes you feel like that? Is it his size? You told me he's very big."
"It isn't just his size, though his physicality definitely plays a role," I explained. "It's everything! The way he sounds and smells. And of course the way he looks: his handsome face, and that hot, dark body. It feels so natural and inevitable to surrender yourself to such a masculine man. Deep down you just know it's your biology - to select someone like him is what nature intended."
"That idea is hot!" Emmi observed. "That it is something beyond your control. I think I kind of get it."
"Yes it is hot!" I agreed. "It's a strange and powerful thing - we are animals after all. Kal is so intense, and on the physical side he is awe-inspiring. Everything about him is so strong and defined."
"I know...I have always loved his hands. I have noticed the same with other black men, but especially with Kal. His hands are beautiful! I never thought I would describe a man's hands as 'beautiful', but his are. So strong and dark and defined. Sculpted."
"Uh huh," I agreed. "They feel and look so good on your own hands and body."
"I know," Emmi agreed.
"How do you know?" I asked, surprised.
She quickly responded: "Well, I have danced with Kal and other black guys at clubs when we all go out. And remember when Kal first introduced himself to us and shook our hands? He didn't do the 'Oh, you're hand is so dainty I'll barely touch it routine' like so many guys do. He took it gently and politely, but so firmly! It felt so nice and assuring, and his hand looked so hot wrapped around mine," Emmi explained.
"Hot???" I asked, shocked. I agreed 100%, but it was strange hearing Emmi express these thoughts about Kal.
"Don't take it the wrong way! But yes...different and sexy. Hot!" she clarified.
That was an eye-opener and I began to glean Emilie's true feelings. I felt a jolt of adrenaline shoot through me, even a twinge of suspicion and jealousy. But more so, hearing her say these things intrigued and aroused me. I fished for additional information: "So, you have basically admitted that you find Kal attractive and sexy..."
"Well it's never been a secret...we agreed from the very beginning that he is very handsome. I've said a couple million times since school started that he's hot! But don't twist it, like I'm stalking him," she insisted with a cheeky grin.
Her playfulness made me smile in return. I got ahold of myself, quickly responding in a reassuring tone: "Emmi, it's okay! I'm not saying there is anything wrong. I just think it's funny since you always said black men are intimidating. To me the intimidating part has always been appealing. I guess maybe you agree but have been afraid to admit it?" She casually shrugged her shoulders and I took that as agreement.