Day 6:
I can feel my head pounding before I open my eyes. My mouth is dry from all the alcohol I drank last night. Or from the cum I swallowed.
I moan groggily and sit up. I am in the bed alone trying to figure out how to act this morning. From all the late night shenanigans between Peter, Anthony and I, I don't know how to face either of them. We didn't talk after our blow job threesome, we just slowly got up and went to our respective rooms. Pete and I didn't talk either. He kissed me a few times and then closed his eyes and went to sleep, like it was a normal night.
But now I just feel so...awkward. Did all of that really happen last night?
I get up and put on some comfortable yoga pants and a tank top with no bra. Fuck it now, might as well be comfortable. I start to go downstairs and I hear them talking so I pause halfway and sit down to listen.
Anthony is saying, "....won't change anything about how much she loves you. Because she really does."
Peter says, "But maybe I've changed now. Now that I've opened that door that I never thought would be open. I've always been curious but always feared exploring that part of me."
"Is it just curiosity?" Anthony asks.
"I don't know. Listen, Ant, I love her. I love everything about her, including her body. Our sex is amazing and I know nothing will compare to it. I don't want to stop making love to Jordanne, ever. But maybe she will want to stop making love to me."
"Then you are underestimating our Jordanne," Ant tells him. "She has always accepted me even when I didn't know what I wanted. As long as you are honest with her about what your needs are."
"I don't know what my needs are, that's the thing. And I'm not just going to start exploring with randos to figure out what I want or what I need," Peter says.
Ant takes a moment and says, "It doesn't have to be a random person. It could be someone you know or get to know."
"Someone like you?" I hear Peter say. They are quiet and I am assuming they are looking at each other.
Then Anthony says, "Only if Jordanne agrees to it. And that can only happen if you are honest with her."
I stand up to make my way back upstairs but of course the stairs creak under me. All is quiet; They know I'm here. So I head downstairs instead. They are sitting on the couch looking at me. I don't know what my facial expression is but I'm trying to stay neutral.
"Hi," I say simply to both of them.
"Hi," They say simultaneously.
Anthony clears his throat and says, "I'm going to...go make breakfast or something." He stands up and looks at me. "Are you ok Jordanne?"
"Yeah Ant, I'm ok." I say. He walks over and gives me a hug, and it's not awkward, it's just Ant. Then he leaves the living room area and busies himself on the other side of the room in the kitchen. I sit next to Peter and at first we don't say anything.
I start. "So, are you...bisexual?"
"I don't know." Pete says without looking at me. "I think I'm just curious about what it feels like to be with a man. But it doesn't take away from how much I love and want to be with you. I love you Jordanne." I take his hand and he looks at me finally.
I ask, "But, maybe...you have a crush on my best friend?"
He hesitates, then says, "Maybe I kind of do."
I nod and don't say anything else. He shifts his body to face me and says, "And maybe...you kind of have a crush on your best friend too?"
My mouth opens slightly, then I look down at our entwined fingers. "I don't know if it's that I have a crush on him. More like, curious about him? I don't know. I love Anthony, yes. But it's you that I'm in love with and want to have a future with."
"I want that too, Jordanne. Trust me when I say you're the love of my life."
"And it's the same for me." I say. And then I'm honest. "But Anthony's dick is so...big and...."
"Black?" He finishes for me with his eyebrow raised.
"Oh my god is that terrible for me to say?" I look at him. "It like, hypnotizes me. I know I sound crazy."
Peter laughs, "No, it's kind of mesmerizing so I get it. A big black cock right in front of us for the taking." Now we're both laughing as we're plotting on Anthony's dick. He reaches over and hugs me.
I say, "Peter I need you to know that you satisfy me fully, sexually. This isn't about that."
Pete says, "And I need you to know you do the same for me. I love your body, your tight wet pussy is what I think about when I'm flying in the air, just waiting to get back inside of it."
I smile widely. "Ok so we're in agreement. What we're doing here, for the next couple of days is...experimenting?"I ask him.
He nods and says, "I won't do anything without your permission."