Part Six - "This Is Penance"
December 11
th
, 2020
Fiona and Ash enjoyed dinner with the rest of the girls, but it felt
insanely
odd doing it without Andy around. In fact, for Fiona it had been the first dinner since she had arrived in New Eden without Andy at it, and that definitely changed the energy. All the women seemed a little nervous, even though they understood what was happening to Andy. Still, it was a very different between knowing and being comfortable with his absence.
And
nobody
was especially comfortable.
"You get your friend settled in, Em?" Ash asked the blonde brit, although Fiona could sense that the redhead almost wanted to get into it with the movie star.
"She's still unconscious, Ash," Em replied, trying to dodge the fight it looked like she was sensing approaching. "But I'm sure once she's awake, she'll be in a fine state and right as rain once more."
Fiona had seen Niko pull Ash aside right as they'd gotten to dinner, and the two had had a brief conversation, one that had seemed a little bit heated, although Aisling hadn't seemed annoyed at Niko so much as annoyed at someone else sitting around the dinner table, but it hadn't been until this moment that Fi had figured out exactly where that anger was pointed.
She almost felt sorry for Emily, because the tiny Brit had no idea what she was in for.
"Did you think maybe you wanted to tell us all about the fact that we aren't supposed to talk about her late fiancΓ© with her, Em?" Ash said, a frown on her face. "You kept that from Andy until it was basically too late for him to back out, and you kept it from the rest of us even longer, so we didn't have a chance to talk about this in advance."
Sarah, Em's closest confidant in the world, turned to look at Em, a look of surprise on her face, maybe one tinged with a streak of hurt. At that point, Fi realized Emily hadn't even told Sarah, and the taller woman looked wounded over it. "What's she talking about, baby?"
"I heard from Niko that Mali's hoping that her regeneration is going to
erase some of her memories
," Ash said, more than a little annoyed. "And that we're supposed to avoid talking to her about her previous partner in any way, in case it might trigger a mental schism inside of her brain, if the things we ask try and trigger her thinking about memories about him, things her mind doesn't have access to anymore."
"Jesus, Em!" Sarah said. "What are you thinking?"
"Look!" Emily said, suddenly on the defensive. "I knew there would be some risks involved, not just for her, but for all of us, but I had to make the call about whether it was the sort of thing we could handle, because she asked me not to tell anyone in advance. She was terrified we would've turned her away in concern, no matter how ridiculous I told her that was. I
implored
her to be honest and open with the family, but my God, ladies, this woman was
hurting
. The only man she'd ever loved, ever been
intimate
with, he was gone, and she so desperately wanted to join him! She was talking suicide! We've been there, if not there, somewhere close to it! We understand what it's like to have something so profoundly important taken away from us, just on the cusp of achieving our dreams. It was a gamble, and I knew that, and I still took it regardless, and if that's going to make the rest of you cross with me, then I am sorry that my decision hurt you, but I was not about to abandon a friend in need simply because of a difficult choice that we would've deliberated too long in the making."
"We'll never know how long we would've have taken talking about it," Niko said, clearly none too pleased with Emily either. "Because you didn't come to us with it. You simply unilaterally decided
for
us. I
know
Andy's going to be pissed about it when he wakes up, because he was pissed about it before he fell into the regenerative state. And you know what? He
should
be pissed off. Because
I'm
pissed off!
I
didn't get a say in someone I'm going to have to deal with on a regular basis, someone who might turn out to be unstable or even dangerous. We're a goddamn
team
Emily, and if you can't respect that, you should just fuck
right
off!"
With that, Niko grabbed her plate, stood up from the dinner table and stormed off. Fi was about to stand up to go check on her when she felt Ash's hand on her thigh, imploring her to stay seated, as if pointing out to her
this
was where the action was going to be.
There had been conflicts within the group of women before, but Niko had seemed
livid
, and her anger had been almost palpable. And Fiona started to look around the table, to see if that opinion was reflected on other faces and found that most of the women present for dinner were none too pleased with Emily, including Sarah, who looked more genuinely hurt than angry.
"I take it the rest of you share that sentiment?" Emily said, looking more fragile than Fiona had ever seen her. "Perhaps I should eat alone for the foreseeable future, then, until I find some recourse to repair the damage that I have done."
She began to stand up, but Ash stood up first. "Emily Stevens, sit the fuck
down
," Ash said, her Irish accent dialing up to match the authoritative tone she was taking. Em looked startled but took her seat again immediately. There was something about the way Aisling spoke that took total control of the situation right from the get-go. "I see you about to run away from your problems, and you're going to learn we don't
do
that in Team Rook. I know we're used to having to look out for ourselves first and foremost, as if we're the only person that matters in this world, but we don't
live
that way anymore. This is
a family
. This is
our
family, and every one of you crazy bitches is part of it. We work on problems
together
. We run headfirst
into
danger
together
. And that means we need to know what it is we're up against, and we shouldn't keep secrets from one another. I am willing to put my ass on the line for any of you, but we cannot be a bunch of gossip girls, keeping our friends, partners, wives and fellow sex fiends in the dark when shit that's going to affect us will come to light in the end. You know what? Yeah, you fucked up, Em. You did. You're gonna have to work on that, and there's gonna be some bridges between you and members of this family that probably need rebuilding. You're going to need to apologize to most of us, and you're going to have to demonstrate that you understand
how
you fucked up, why it was a fuck up and convince us you're not going to do it again. But it's not the end of the fucking world, alright? And I won't have you making some kind of grandiose production about it to try and elicit sympathy because you thought you were doing the right thing. You were doing a
dumb and selfish thing
, one that didn't take in account the feelings of both the man you're looking to marry, nor the women you're going to share him with. Learn from it. Repair the damage done. Do better next time. Questions?" Ash looked around the table, and nobody seemed to want to add anything to it. Most of the women respected Ash's points, although a few of them seemed a little shocked at how direct and straightforward she'd been about it. "Alright then. Class dismissed."
As Ash sat back down, Fiona immediately noticed that Emily had turned to Sarah, and begun her apology tour in earnest, with the tiny Brit talking quite intently to her long-term partner in very hushed tones, and while Sarah certainly didn't look happy, she was at least listening, which might've been more than she would've initially gotten without Aisling's little speech. Ash had set the terms of how offended everyone was allowed to be and reminded them that they all had to get over this shit for their wedding next month. Fi leaned in and whispered to Ash, "Quite a bit of damage control you did there, Ash."
Ash politely shrugged it off. "You can go at things head on and solve them quickly and efficiently, or you can let them fester and it'll come back and bite you in the ass later. Something I learned
very
early on in this little experiment we're living in is that, like it or not, we're all beautiful women, and beautiful women often have a tendency for men to try and solve problems for them. But when our problems are