Part Six - "This Is Penance"
December 11
th
, 2020
Fiona and Ash enjoyed dinner with the rest of the girls, but it felt
insanely
odd doing it without Andy around. In fact, for Fiona it had been the first dinner since she had arrived in New Eden without Andy at it, and that definitely changed the energy. All the women seemed a little nervous, even though they understood what was happening to Andy. Still, it was a very different between knowing and being comfortable with his absence.
And
nobody
was especially comfortable.
"You get your friend settled in, Em?" Ash asked the blonde brit, although Fiona could sense that the redhead almost wanted to get into it with the movie star.
"She's still unconscious, Ash," Em replied, trying to dodge the fight it looked like she was sensing approaching. "But I'm sure once she's awake, she'll be in a fine state and right as rain once more."
Fiona had seen Niko pull Ash aside right as they'd gotten to dinner, and the two had had a brief conversation, one that had seemed a little bit heated, although Aisling hadn't seemed annoyed at Niko so much as annoyed at someone else sitting around the dinner table, but it hadn't been until this moment that Fi had figured out exactly where that anger was pointed.
She almost felt sorry for Emily, because the tiny Brit had no idea what she was in for.
"Did you think maybe you wanted to tell us all about the fact that we aren't supposed to talk about her late fiancΓ© with her, Em?" Ash said, a frown on her face. "You kept that from Andy until it was basically too late for him to back out, and you kept it from the rest of us even longer, so we didn't have a chance to talk about this in advance."
Sarah, Em's closest confidant in the world, turned to look at Em, a look of surprise on her face, maybe one tinged with a streak of hurt. At that point, Fi realized Emily hadn't even told Sarah, and the taller woman looked wounded over it. "What's she talking about, baby?"
"I heard from Niko that Mali's hoping that her regeneration is going to
erase some of her memories
," Ash said, more than a little annoyed. "And that we're supposed to avoid talking to her about her previous partner in any way, in case it might trigger a mental schism inside of her brain, if the things we ask try and trigger her thinking about memories about him, things her mind doesn't have access to anymore."
"Jesus, Em!" Sarah said. "What are you thinking?"
"Look!" Emily said, suddenly on the defensive. "I knew there would be some risks involved, not just for her, but for all of us, but I had to make the call about whether it was the sort of thing we could handle, because she asked me not to tell anyone in advance. She was terrified we would've turned her away in concern, no matter how ridiculous I told her that was. I
implored
her to be honest and open with the family, but my God, ladies, this woman was
hurting
. The only man she'd ever loved, ever been
intimate
with, he was gone, and she so desperately wanted to join him! She was talking suicide! We've been there, if not there, somewhere close to it! We understand what it's like to have something so profoundly important taken away from us, just on the cusp of achieving our dreams. It was a gamble, and I knew that, and I still took it regardless, and if that's going to make the rest of you cross with me, then I am sorry that my decision hurt you, but I was not about to abandon a friend in need simply because of a difficult choice that we would've deliberated too long in the making."
"We'll never know how long we would've have taken talking about it," Niko said, clearly none too pleased with Emily either. "Because you didn't come to us with it. You simply unilaterally decided
for
us. I
know
Andy's going to be pissed about it when he wakes up, because he was pissed about it before he fell into the regenerative state. And you know what? He
should
be pissed off. Because
I'm
pissed off!
I
didn't get a say in someone I'm going to have to deal with on a regular basis, someone who might turn out to be unstable or even dangerous. We're a goddamn
team
Emily, and if you can't respect that, you should just fuck
right
off!"
With that, Niko grabbed her plate, stood up from the dinner table and stormed off. Fi was about to stand up to go check on her when she felt Ash's hand on her thigh, imploring her to stay seated, as if pointing out to her
this
was where the action was going to be.
There had been conflicts within the group of women before, but Niko had seemed
livid
, and her anger had been almost palpable. And Fiona started to look around the table, to see if that opinion was reflected on other faces and found that most of the women present for dinner were none too pleased with Emily, including Sarah, who looked more genuinely hurt than angry.
"I take it the rest of you share that sentiment?" Emily said, looking more fragile than Fiona had ever seen her. "Perhaps I should eat alone for the foreseeable future, then, until I find some recourse to repair the damage that I have done."