My name is Sharon Joseph. I'm a six-foot-tall, dark-skinned, big-bottomed and very voluptuous young Black woman living in the city of Ottawa, Ontario. I'm a third-year student at Carleton University, majoring in the field of Business Administration. Lately, I feel like I'm going nuts. Living a double life is starting to catch up to me. I'm gay, but my friends and family don't know. When you're from the Caribbean, conservative usually doesn't even begin to describe your family dynamics. Certain things some cultures simply don't discuss, and it's killing me inside. Welcome to my life.
I live in the quietly affluent suburb of Orleans, near Ottawa. There are quite a few well-to-do immigrant families living here. Many Africans, Asians and a few Hispanics along with some multiracial people from the Caribbean. In this place, I've always been a weirdo. I prefer the huge, racially diverse cities of Toronto and Vancouver to Ottawa and its suburbs. I'm odd in that I crave excitement and like to push boundaries. The rest of my family is basically mundane, and thus perfect in their own eyes. My father, Leonard Joseph, is a Sergeant with the Royal Canadian Mounted Police. My mother Nancy Joseph is a Professor of Ethics at the University of Ottawa School of Law. My elder brother Robert is a Detective with the Ontario Police Service. My other brother Anderson is an Advertising Executive with the Rogers Corporation. They're all so normal it's not even funny.
We're Adventists, and attend weekly mass at an Afro-Caribbean Church in Eastern Ottawa. My folks have no idea about who or what I really am. And for the most part I was okay with it. Lately I've been suffocating. It's not easy being me. Basically, the only thing I ever wanted in this life is to have my own way. Live my own life, by my rules. I wanted to be out there, doing my own thing. I spent too long living for others. I repressed my lesbian desires out of shame and fear for far too long. I feel like I'm ready to come out, and not just about being gay. I want to come clean about everything.
I'm not only queer but I'm also into BDSM. I like wearing black leather outfits, and engaging in games of sexual dominance and submission with willing partners. As I explored my sexuality in the world of BDSM, I found myself quite fond of the controversial practice of Race Play. What is Race Play? It's when men and women ( or women and women ) incorporate elements of race within certain sexual, games. A lot of couples, whether heterosexual, gay or lesbian, are into it. They just don't like to discuss it in public. I'm into Race Play. It shocked me at first but also opened my eyes to a whole new world. I've played both dominant and submissive in the world of BDSM. Yet I knew nothing about true dominance and true submission until I engaged in Race Play.
My first experience was playing the role of the Dominant Black Goddess for this couple, Alan and Michelle O'Keefe. Alan is a short, stocky white guy with bright red hair and a moustache. He's in his late thirties. Works as a repairman at the local airport. His wife Michelle, a short, chubby, blonde-haired and green-eyed woman, is a schoolteacher. They're both submissive and have a thing for dominant Black women. I played the role of the Dominant Black Goddess while they played the role of my White Slaves. The idea of a Black woman owning a pair of White Slaves appealed to me on many levels. Just thinking about it is enough to get this Black lesbian's vagina completely and utterly wet. White people have wielded too much power for centuries. It's time for a change of the guard. Don't you think so?
In the twenty-first century, people of African descent have made great strides. African nations are independent and self-governed for the most part. We're slowly washing the negative after taste of European colonialism from our mouths. In the United States of America, we have a Black President, along with Black Governors, Black Senators and Black Congressmen. We even have a Black billionaire. Blacks, Native Americans, Hispanics and Asians will outnumber Whites in the United States of America in about twenty years. Yeah, people of color have come a long way in North America. I wanted very much to dominate Alan and Michelle. Make these white people feel the wrath of this Black Goddess. I wanted to dominate them both at the same time. I am not interested in men sexually but I will gladly sodomize one with my strap-on dildo. It doesn't make me any less of a lesbian. The way I see it, it's an expression of woman power.
