This went on and on. I wish I could tell you that I climaxed and climaxed over and over again. I would be lying to you if I said that. Being a man I know it is hard for you to understand, (the woman will) Let me see if I can explain it in a way you guys can understand my feelings. When I first started doing all these filthy nasty things with these men, well, it was exciting; it was a turn on. My body loved it as the men stretched my openings, and pumped their sperm inside. I did climax, and climax and climax so very easy but I learned that I had to pace myself. My body could and can only take so much of this kind of pleasure. Like I said I would climax over and over again, however after a while the feeling would die or fade away. I learned to think of other things to keep my mind busy. I learned I could prolong the wonderful feeling of a climax if I kept my mind working on something else. I could stop a mind-boggling climax by not thinking of the wonderful feeling I would be getting in my vagina and anus. I would think of things that I had to do, like cooking or something else.
The only time it was hard to concentrate was when I am sucking one of guy’s cocks while I being screwed in my butt and one in my vagina at the same time. (When all three holes are filled I am in pure Heaven, I just can’t think of anything ever in my life before this, had ever given me this kind of wonderful great feeling. I know let me try explaining it this way. Since I have never used drugs I may be way off, however, from everything I have read and heard, this may be a good comparison. It is like drugs. The first time you use it, they work quickly, then after time it takes more and more to get the desired results. Will sex is the same I am afraid for me.
I know I am not making any sense right now. I wish I were like you men, it feels good, you climax, and you want to do it again. (Once you get hard again) Yes, my body experiences pleasure, but so does my mind, it also feels pleasure. Words escape me on how to convey those feeling to you. Let me say, that the feelings that I get, I love. I mean it is not all physical, between the sex, the filthiest, and the nastiest. Well, that gives me a pleasure that starts in my brain, and flows (glows) threw my body. That is what I am referring to when I tell you that what I do with these guys (and to myself) gives me pleasure.
You see, that is what I was talking about before, I know that when I get home to Matt, that I am not sure I can turn this sick desire turned off. I am hoping I can, what I am afraid of is, maybe I have become addicted to this kind of thing. Maybe I will need a "fix" so to speak. Then what do I do? I can’t help but think I will never feel this sexually satisfied with Matt, I don’t know if I could ever really enjoy just one man. How can one man make me climax the way I do now? Talk about mind bending. Right now I want to soak in every bit of pleasure that I am feel. I want to store it; I need to store it. I want to remember every stroke of every cock in my cunt, in my ass, and in my mouth.
I have no idea how long I was on the mattress in the day room. But I had to go to the bathroom. I had to go bad. I told the boys and they helped me off the table. The men’s bathroom was closer, so I went in there. Bill, Pete, Greg and Tom guided me in. There I was again, sitting on a stool sucking one man after another. This time they took turns masturbating me and taking turns with my dildo. All of this I did expect, I expected a full night of non-stop sex. I just expected to have some time alone, boy was I wrong. Now over the last 6 months, I did have marathon sex with some times up to 12-15 men a night at least 1-2 times a week. But tonight every man wanted to get his last lick in. (so to speak) I guess I should have said, every man wanted to get his DICK in (more than twice) By 4 am I fell asleep while Jason was on me. I was slippery as ever from all the sperm. Most of the guys went to bed between 1-3, however Jason, Peter, John, and Henry where die hard sex fiends.
I woke up next to Jimmy. I had boxes of cereals out and the guys made the coffee; I woke up slowly and found my body sore as could be. My legs, arms and neck hurt, for the first time since I had arrived here I woke up not wanting sex, and did not have anyone waiting to have sex with me. Bud came in and reminded me that it would not be long, He also let me know he wanted his last fuck. I asked him "When you say you wanted one last fuck, do you mean you want me to fuck you, or get some guys to fuck you, or are you wanting to stick your puny dick in me one last time?" He hung his head and said "I would like to fuck you" I smiled and said "To bad pussy boy, I’ll get a couple guys to fuck you, but you don’t get any of this pussy" He looked at me, turned and walked away.
When the plane got there I had all kinds of help. Every one wanted to know where I was going, so they could look me up when they got back. I felt it best to not tell them the truth. I told everyone I was going to Charleston South Carolina. I just feel that it all had to end here. It was cold, but clear as could be. As we flew out, I could see a rather large town just down the road from our camp. I got pissed for not leaving the compound. I was told that the town was a small village. (Just another lie Bud told me) I smiled at my self because I knew that right about now was lunch, and Bud had to make it. On top of that Pete was starting the videotape that I gave him to show. He along with all the other men thought it was a good by thing. What they will be seeing is 6 hours of seeing bud getting into his hooded outfit and man after man fucking him or of him sucking them. Oh how I wish I could see how they react seeing that. I had everyone convinced it was one of the Eskimo workers.
I sat there dressed in real clothing, and for the first time in 6 months, I did not have stockings and garter on. I still was with out panties because I just did not have any period. You would never guess it, but I missed the stockings and garter. I had decided that when I landed in Seattle my first purchase would be three or four pair of stocking and a couple garters. As for the panties, I just have not made up my mind yet. We landed; I had a 24-hour lay over before my flight to LA. I had to talk with the woman that was going to go up there. I knew from my own experience where she was staying at, because I had to stay at Best Western at the company’s expense before my flight out in the morning. So I grabbed a cab and went into town for the first Bank that I could find. Once I deposited my money and left the bank. I had just enough time to do some shopping then to the Best Western. My inner thighs had crusted sperm on my inner thighs under my pants. Then the hunger pains started. No not hunger for food, but the hunger for sex. I knew inside of me that this would happen, I decided I would just put it out of my mind…………… Yea, Right!……….