There had been something between Jane and I on numerous occasions over the years. But never by both of us at the same time. And in the event one's feelings became known to the other, we were doomed to share in a discouraging bout of real talk before an indefinite hiatus of friendship. And then, we'd always come back to each other, in some brave reclamation that would slowly devolve into our same tragic pattern.
This is all to say, it was hard to be friends with Jane because I'm only human. She was just so beautiful, and she knew it. And though her pursuits of male companionship tended to fail rivalling me, I couldn't blame her for trying. After all why, when she was inclined towards me, did I always deny her? I don't know for certain. Maybe I didn't believe she was serious. I'd always make some excuse about the importance of the friendship.
If experience matured us at all, it eventually brought us to spare each other the details of our respective extracurriculars. That's why I hadn't told Jane about Rachel, the clerk from the stationary store, who I'd been having incredible sex with. Not to mention Rachel's friend Annie, who'd once been a third party for us, not to mention a finishing canvas for me. Jane, surely, would not have wanted to hear about it, and I would have been happy to keep those worlds separate. But I didn't, and I think I'd struggle to find sympathy from anyone. Let me explain...
It began with Jessie and Craig, a married couple who were friends of Rachel's. Jane and I were eating in a pub and, strangely, she recognized them before I did.
"Oh, my god," she whispered. "Do you see that couple over there? Look quick."
"Yeah!" I said, not letting on that I knew them.
"Don't stare!"
"What about them?"
"Okay," Jane blushed and lowered her chin near the table as if to be readying secrets of national security. "I can't tell you how I know this, but they're... famous."
I was befuddled. "Them? Famous how?"
"They're... a cam couple," Jane said.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean they cam. They have sex on camera and people pay to watch them. They're... pretty big."
"What? How do you know?"
"I said I can't tell you how I know!"
I cocked an eyebrow and grinned at her. "I suppose I can guess."
"Screw you. What. Like you never watch porn?"
"No, sure. I just never imagined you were the pay-for-porn type."
"I'm not usually," said Jane, shrugging off the initial embarrassment and choosing to own it. "But I saw them on Reddit and they're both so fucking hot that I had to make an exception."
She wasn't wrong. Jessie and Craig were hot in a sort of distant, unattainable way. He was jacked and she was elegant and curvy.
Anybody would have loved to watch them fuck, and I immediately made a plan to do so at my earliest opportunity. But first came the clashing of worlds. Jessie, on her way back from the bathroom, spotted m, in spite of my best effort to evade eye contact, and she came over to say hi. I was friendly but didn't give much toward a conversation. I introduced Jane, who was wide-eyed and emphatic but didn't call me out for lying - not until Jessie had gone.
"What the--? You know them!"
"I'm sorry, yeah."
"Why didn't you say anything?"
I considered how I might explain myself without divulging the Rachel of it all, but under pressure, there seemed no logical way. So I told Jane about how I'd been hooking up with this girl from the local stationary shop, and that it wasn't serious but admittedly a lot of fun, and I copped to having met some of her friends, but I left Annie out of it. Jane, to her credit, was cool about everything. She said she was happy for me and that I shouldn't have felt like all my dating had to be top secret. I figured that was the end of it.
Jane said she had to get back to work, so we settled up and parted ways. She worked as a personal assistant to this millionaire property lawyer and it kept her pretty busy. Most of what I knew was superficial, like her general stress levels and whether or not she was available to hang out. Her boss was secretive, and I understood that Jane was likely contracted to a certain discretion. So it was highly unusual when she called me a few nights later and invited me up to the big house.
"He's in Europe all weekend, and I'm mostly off the clock," she explained. "I have full access though. There's a room for you. We can swim in the pool if you want."
I agreed, and not with hesitation, although I'm sure my surprise was detectable. I packed an overnight bag and swim trunks and took an Uber to the given address. The house was hidden behind trees and a massive panel gate. I rang the office from a keypad and Jane answered and then buzzed me in. I emerged into the private driveway and approached the gorgeous mid-century dwelling. It was made of white concrete, with large tinted windows and a rugged mahogany door.
I hadn't seen Jane since that day at the pub, but I had thought about her unusually often. Jessie and Craig were to blame. I'd gone home after lunch and set to tracking down their raunchy online presence. It wasn't easy actually, but once I found them, I found all of them. Hundreds of videos, (many of them free to access) amounting to millions of views. They were all full-on hardcore amateur porn. But their production value was high. Skillful lighting, multiple angles. They fucked in their bed, on their couch, their table, their back deck, in their shower. They used toys, and performed standing sixty-nines, and various other acrobatics. They often fucked roughly, and there was cum-play. He fucked her in the ass, and though I didn't pursue these in particular, it was evident she did the same back to him. There was even a series of threesome videos, co-starring a petite redhead who wore a lingerie mask to protect her anonymity. Jessie seemed to love fondling the girl as much as Craig did. And of course it was surreal to watch such videos of people I knew in the real world, but the most disruptive aspect of it all was Jane. I wasn't getting off to Jessie and Craig. I was getting off to Jane getting off to Jessie and Craig. The thought of her touching herself to these clips was firmly repositioning her in my desire's eye-line. Like it or not.
She answered the door before I could even knock. She was in sunglasses and a flowing summer dress. The light carrying through from the back patio rode her figure and her motion traced her body upon the fabric. Jane's long brown hair was down, and though she was technically at her workplace, her look of relaxation made her positively radiant. The house interior was extravagant and timeless, with spotless marble floors and esoteric art lining the main hall. It was mostly open concept and the infinity pool was visible out the back. That's where Jane led me, and along the way, she declared, "I have a little surprise."
All was revealed when we reached the pool and I saw Rachel, sprawled on a lounger. "Hi, stranger," she said.