Both girls were smiling and giggling as they regained their composure. They grabbed some cleaning supplies and wiped down parts of the counter just as the coffee maker beeped, signaling it had also just finished.
"Can I ask you a question?" Lauren said over her shoulder as she tossed the wipes into the trash.
"Of course. You can ask me anything." Samantha returned.
"Does Jude know... about..." Lauren paused and then gestured between the two of them. "This?"
There was a long pause as Samantha scrambled to remember how she'd rationalized not telling Jude right away. The first few excuses that ran through her mind were answers like, 'he'd be ok with it' and 'it just happened so quickly, she hadn't had time'. However, after those excuses flashed through her mind, Samantha began to wonder if there were deeper reasons that may have prevented her from telling Jude. Samantha wondered if deep down she'd started to fear what taking such an active role sexually might say about her identity. Even that realization felt petty in her mind. Samantha knew that when Jude found out, she might have to admit he was right that finding herself sexually would make sex more fun for her.
Samantha replayed some of their old arguments where Jude tried to convince her that if she took a more active role in understanding what she wanted sexually, she might become more active in the bedroom. Samantha recalled Jude saying everyone has some kinky desires, but not everyone is ok with understanding, embracing, or even being able to access those parts of themselves. Having experienced something she enjoyed for her own sake had shifted Samantha's perspective more than she wanted to admit.
As these thoughts raced through her mind, Samantha simply said, "Not completely... We've teased about something like this before. I will when the moment is right." Samantha hoped that would be enough to buy her time to formulate her next steps with Jude.
Just before leaving the room, Samantha paused in the doorway, looked back at Lauren, and said, "Also, remember our agreement, you're still not allowed to orgasm unless I give you permission." Without listening for a reply, Samantha left the room twirling the purple vibrator in her hand.
Over the next few days, there was a brief lull in the sexual action around the house, which gave Samantha time to think through how to bring up Lauren to Jude. The previous week's wild adventures had escalated so unexpectedly that Samantha wanted to slow down a little and see how Jude responded to what's been happening.
A week after Samantha and Lauren's kitchen adventure, Samantha found herself lying in bed, curled up with Jude, and felt like this might be the moment to explore the topic of Lauren.
"Hey Jude..." Samantha said, breaking the prolonged silence.
"Yes. What's up?" He replied softly.
"I was just thinking about everything surrounding Lauren's panties over the past few weeks. I wanted to see where your head's at." Samantha said casually.
"Did you have something specific in mind?" He asked, questioning where Samantha was going with the topic.
"I mean..." Samantha paused, not entirely sure which ideas to bring first. "Like messing with her underwear, or me rubbing you off while you looked at her on the sofa. You know, cumming in her panties." There was a long pause as Jude formulated his reply.
"If I'm honest, it's been a really fun change from our typical sexual routine." He said, hoping that was a positive and safe response. "Just so you know, the most exciting part has been seeing you generally more sexually interested these past few weeks." He paused, waiting to see how that landed with Samantha. He strove to be honest about the aspects he was enjoying without coming across as critical of her lower sex drive, especially in the more recent years. "But if that makes you uncomfortable, the way we've involved her, we can be more careful. I also don't know how Lauren would feel about us snooping around her things."
There was a long, silent pause as Samantha rolled his comments around in her mind.
"I don't have a problem with it at all," Samantha replied, still deciding on how to bring up her own desires and activities. "It all just kind of started happening. I realized we never officially talked through it, including what it means for us or me."
"I hope you're not threatened by Lauren," Jude said as he wrapped his arms around Samantha. "You know I love you more than anyone in this world. As attractive as Lauren is, I would never want to trade you for anyone else. I care about Lauren too and eventually want someone special for her, and that's not likely going to be us."
"I know that..." Samantha said quietly, as her heart had begun to pick up pace in response to Jude being so open. "I just didn't realize how her energy would affect me." She paused momentarily while Jude waited patiently for her to continue. "I don't know how well I can explain it. I've been finding myself turned on by the dynamic she's brought into our lives. At first, I thought it was just having the extra help freeing up my focus, but then playing and teasing got me excited in ways I never knew I wanted."
There was another long pause. Samantha hoped desperately that Jude wouldn't get upset or judge her, attempting to explain how she felt. She also didn't want Jude to feel like any of this was a failure on his part.
"Go on, I'm listening," Jude said encouragingly as he gave her a gentle squeeze.
Turning to face Jude, Samantha slid in close and nuzzled her head into his neck.