My first gang bang is memorable not only for the experience itself but because I didn't plan it, or want it, at first...I've made peace with it now but at the time, back when I was a much more innocent 18 year old with only the tiniest idea I might have a kinky side, I might have told you a different story.
I was still in school back then, and my first proper boyfriend was a few years older, a student at the local university. I liked him, he was sweet and respectful and although he wasn't the first man I'd slept with, he was the first to make it good and I enjoyed letting him gently take control and fuck me. I was still a good little girl in those days, although I'd started realising maybe I wanted to do some things good girls shouldn't and wouldn't. I hadn't acted on my vague thoughts, just led where my partner followed.
That day my boyfriend met me after school and took me to a friend's house, a typical grotty, student, shared house, which wasn't cleaned as often as it should be, where a group of his mates and some girls were hanging out, drinking beer (which I hate but at that time drank anyway because that's what everyone did) and shooting the shit. I was the only one still in school uniform and I felt small and uncomfortable, out of place amongst the loud group...that might have led me to drink a bit more than I should have...
I was at the room spinning, can't quite coordinate my movements stage of drunk, passed tipsy but still aware of what was happening, when I realised there were only four guys left in the room and one of them, my boyfriend, was slumped over the coffee table obviously drunk and passed out. When I poked him he groaned but it was going to be a while till he was back with it. It was that moment I also realised I was surrounded by the three other guys who had moved closer to where I sat on the floor. I felt a bit like prey, shy at being the centre of attention, recoiling at their over friendly banter, the sly fingers touching and stroking me, their knowing smiles...I went along with it though, it's not like I knew then how to gracefully get myself out of uncomfortable situations, or had the confidence to just get up and leave like I would now.
One of them suggested a game, something dumb like spin the bottle I think, and a hand grabbed mine to guide it to an empty bottle sending it spinning, it landed on one of the three men and he grinned at me, moving forward on his knees, leaning into my space, clearly planning to kiss me.
I didn't want to kiss him, I was a good girl and my boyfriend was right there, but I didn't know how to object and as his face came close, I felt his lips brush mine, a hand softly petting my arm. I let him kiss me for a few seconds till he pulled away. The young man sitting next to me whispered something about how sweet and hot I looked and I blushed, feeling his hand stroking my arm, moving lightly over my shoulders, twisting and tangling in my hair as he pulled me closer...the bottle spun again and somehow landed on me again and the man beside me kissed me...deeper this time, tongue pushing against my lips till they opened and he slid in, brushing gently against mine. I felt a hand brush my breast, reaching round my back to pull me toward him and deepen the kiss, his other hand sliding along one leg, dipping under my pleated, uniform skirt, caressing soft, bare thigh above the top of my mid-thigh socks. I jerked at that, trying to pull backwards, to get away and other hands were suddenly holding my ankles as I tried to scramble back, my rapid movement making my uniform skirt ride up further.
Hands held me down then, stopping me from moving before the lucky winner was in front of my face again, gripping the back of my head, boxing me in, giving me no choice. I felt his tongue slobber over my lips, tracing where they met as I tried to turn my face away but he forced my mouth open, invading my mouth with his tongue again. I panicked and froze, probably not the right reaction, and he kissed me hard even as I felt someone move behind me, gripping my arms, holding me steady. The man kissing me pulled back "You taste like a sweet, slutty girl" he whispered, before his lips went to my neck and he started to lick and suck.
My neck has always been my biggest downfall, even in non-sexual situations someone touching my neck makes me shiver, and the feel of his lips licking my neck, leaving trails of cooling saliva, sent shivers though me...I couldn't help but gasp and stiffen. I was like an animal freezing, not sure if fight or flight was the right response, shuddering as lips and tongue played on my throat, a tiny moan escaping me as I unconsciously tilted my head to give him better access. I know he liked my reaction because he chuckled and sucked harder, hands reaching to feel my breasts through my shirt as I came to my senses and started to struggle in earnest, desperate to get away before it went too far.
But my drunken struggles against three determined men were not effective and only served to have me end up leaning back against the man behind me, his lips now bumping and sucking at my neck, his hands holding my arms above my head making my back arch, pushing my big, pillowy tits into the grasp of the man who was now kneeling beside me. My legs were held apart by the third man who knelt between my knees, hands stroking up my thighs as I tried to buck and kick them off me.
Somehow in all this my shirt buttons had come undone, although my school tie still held the shirt closed at the neck and my tits were heaving as I drunkenly bucked, trying to escape, dangerously close to falling out of my bra cups. I wasn't as big then as I am now but at 18 my breasts were generous F cups, more than a handful for the man who'd unbuttoned my shirt and was pawing at my skin, pulling my tits out, pushing my bra down commenting on how big my tits were, how hard my nipples, how much of a slut I must be...