I am thinking back to the early stages of my relationship with the woman who was to become my wife, recalling the intense feelings - the physical ache that accompanied the desire to be near her - to smell her perfume, to touch her soft skin, to feel her lips caress mine, to feel the warmth of her body pressed against me.
It was like being a teenager all over again, and along with the intense desire, there was also the sense of anxiousness, feeling my way through conversations as we got to know one another better, wanting to say the right things, wondering what topics would be welcome and safe, wondering what might be off limits, wondering where things were headed, wondering if this friendship which had so quickly escalated to a relationship filled with passion would just as quickly die or if it had the potential to last.
I remember crawling between the cool sheets the first time that she invited me into her bed. It was winter, and her apartment was not very warm. We clung to each other, sharing out body heat, for the first few moments until the sheets were warm, touching each other more gently with each passing moment, exploring one another's bodies.
Before long, she coaxed me on top of her and reached down to guide my cock between her legs. I was amazed at how aroused she had become in so short a time; she was ready. Her hips moved against me as she took me inside: her hands alighted on my ass, pulling me closer, encouraging me to thrust deeper, and a quiet moan escaped past her lips. It was beautiful, and intense, and erotic. It was my dream to find a woman who truly enjoyed sex, a woman who embraced the female ability to enjoy an extended climax, and it dawned on me that perhaps I had found just that woman in Jane.
As wonderful as those moments were, the significance of the evening had yet to reveal itself. It was after we had caught our breath and pulled the covers back over our naked bodies that she began to talk. She thanked me for joining her that evening; she thanked me for my friendship, and then she said "I want you to feel so comfortable in this relationship that you will tell me anything that crosses your mind, anything that you want to do." And in that instant, the questions and anxiety melted away. She was telling me that nothing was off limits. She was encouraging me to share my fantasies with her. She was telling me how much she valued communication and how she wanted to help to bring my fantasies alive.