Hi!
It's Emma.
If I thought I was embarrassed before, I don't even know what I was thinking, because I am now painfully aware what real embarrassment is. He has truly destroyed me this time. I can't go back from this...
What have I done?!
After everything that's been happening with Luke and I, and with Louisa, I was sure my relationship with him was over. Not wanting to be faced with that everyday in the flat, I decided to take it upon myself to move out, and give them the space to be a couple on their own. I thought that was very big and mature of me!
I obviously didn't have anywhere else to go, so I slinked back to live at home with my tail between my legs. Mom lives on her own since Dad passed, so, I thought I would be doing her a favour of giving her some company, and do chores for her, and nice stuff like that.
It wasn't long though until this mad episode with Luke caught up with me, and he came in with his charm and smiles, making me look like a fool. You see, I told Mom I was no longer with him, and he comes in saying I'm not in the best frame of mind, and I'm imagining it, and that he still wants me home; in our shitty little flat.
Mom ate it all up. She believed this wanker over her own daughter, which made me feel so genuinely upset and disheartened. I just went to my room for a bit to unpack my things, and cool off. I was not looking for a fight. I just wanted everything to be over, so I can move on with my life.
When I came out of my room, Luke was still there, chatting with Mom on the settee, sipping wine, and having a right old natter about me. I watched from the side, and listened. They didn't notice me, but I heard Luke complimenting Mom, and making a move on her. She was shy about it, but she didn't object, and she didn't refuse. I was appalled!
Still oblivious to my presence, Luke ushered Mom to her bedroom upstairs, and I followed, against my better judgment. I wanted to do or say something to interrupt and stop this, but I couldn't think of the right way to do it. They're consenting adults after all, and if this is what they want, we're having our troubles, but, it's still fucking weird. We're technically still engaged, right?!
As I peeked around the doorframe of Mom's room, I saw much more of her than I wanted, but I didn't shy away or turn back, and watched as my fiance went down on her as she lay back, going along with this. She rose up to take her blouse off, now naked as they've been shedding her clothes all through the house, and she noticed me silhouetted in the door, and recoiled, "Oh, Emma! Have some decency, would you?"
Luke leered at me, making my blood run cold and hot all at once, scared and aroused by him. He sat up with Mom, and turned her head to his, indulging in a kiss, and while they did, his fingers crept down to tease her below, in plain view of me looking on.
I let my feelings get the better of me. With what I've been through recently, I didn't think anything of what I did, as I found myself at the foot of the bed where they sat, replacing Luke's fingers with mine. My heart was beating so fast and irregularly that it was like a jackhammer, and I almost sicked-up. My head felt faint, and I almost lost balance.
