My friend Ethan, a photographer, invited me along while he shot nude photos of a married woman who messaged him through his website. She told him she recently lost some weight and got a boob job. She wanted to surprise her husband with some sexy photos. Ethan knew an abandoned barn in the middle of nowhere. He sent her directions. We met her there on a weekday morning, soon after her husband left for work. She took off her clothes without ceremony, like one would do at a doctor's office.
"Behave uninhibitedly," Ethan said, his eye glued to the viewfinder.
"Like this?" She threw back her hair.
The camera clicked several times. "Yes."
She climbed a ladder and swung from the rafters. She crawled seductively in the dirt. I was ostensibly Ethan's "assistant," but there was nothing for me to do but stand behind him and enjoy the show. She led us out of the barn and into a field, where she squatted on her heels for a few shots and then crouched onto her hands and knees. In this moment, a glint of sunlight revealed a glorious string of sticky moisture that stretched, nearly sixty centimeters, between the woman's ankle and her pussy.
I nudged Ethan's arm. "Elle veut รชtre baisรฉe."
Later, we went to a bar, where Ethan and I took turns fucking her in the toilet. I have since forgotten her name. I never learned her husband's reaction to the photos.
During the many times I have since masturbated to this memory, what always gets me off is the "revealing" of her conspicuous arousal. Up to that point, I bought into the charade that the photoshoot's purpose was to surprise her husband. She may have believed that, too--or rather, her consciousness denied and attempted to suppress her unconscious desires. An existentialist would call this "bad faith." The woman pretended her body, writhing "uninhibitedly" under the gaze of two strangers, was a simple prop for the benefit of the photos she said she wanted for her husband, denying her choice to put herself in a position to get fucked by two strangers. But goaded on by the camera and our encouragement, her body betrayed her true desire.