Standard Disclaimer: All characters are at least 18 years old, and all events are fiction.
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Kayley sat outside Mr. Radley's house in her car and cried. Not the big, whooping sobs of heartbreak, but quieter, smaller tears of frustration. Her teeth ground together, nervous, whistley breaths darting in and out of her nostrils. The steering wheel felt like it might shatter in her tight grip.
She sat like this for a long while, as the sun set and the neighborhood lights flickered on. Families walked by with children and dogs, none even glancing at the ruddy-faced high school girl hunched over in her car. It still felt as though each and every person was staring at her, taking in her scandalously low-cut tank top and the pushup bra beneath, the tangle of her hair and smudged eye makeup, their judgment finding her wanting in every way that mattered.
After a time, Kayley became tired of wallowing in self-pity. Her butt hurt from sitting in the same position for too long. What did hiding out in her car accomplish? It wouldn't lessen the hurricane of emotions whipping through her.
It wouldn't fix her disastrous date with Travis.
It wouldn't answer the question of how Mr. Radley would feel about her showing up an entire 24 hours earlier than they'd arranged.
Taking a deep breath, she popped open the glove compartment for tissues, dabbed at her face and eyes until most of the running makeup was cleaned away. It still left her with a bit of raccoon-eyes, but the effect, when coupled with her tank top, was the kind of slutty she knew her teacher enjoyed.
Kayley didn't know if she was going to fuck him tonight. She didn't know much of anything at the moment, least of all what was happening with either of the people she was sleeping with. She needed clarity. She needed someone to talk to. It wasn't as if she could go to her friends, or God forbid, her parents. Travis certainly wasn't an option. So that left Mr. Radley, architect of all of her turmoil.
After one last glance in the mirror, she got out of the car. His house was a modest rambler, siding painted blue, bright clumps of flowers in planter boxes under curtained windows. A tidy gravel walkway led to a white door. Taking a deep breath (that did nothing at all to calm her down), Kayley went up and was just raising her hand to knock when it flew open.
Mr. Radley stood there, light jacket on and keys in his hand. His dark eyes went wide at the sight of her, hand still held dumbly in the air. She flushed and dropped it to her side.
"Um, hey Kayley. I wasn't expecting you. Wh-what's up?" he looked her up and down, clearly pausing on her cleavage, before continuing, "I thought you had a date tonight."
It wasn't the reminder of her horrible night that made Kayley burst into tears again; no, it was the mild, almost concerned tone in his voice.
Some part of him cares, she thought, scrubbing at her eyes. She felt his hand on her upper arm, gentle yet insistent.
"Hey, it's okay. C'mon in, Kayley. Okay?" He guided her inside, sat her down on a firm couch. A television played loud commercials; he muted it before sitting beside her. "What's wrong?"
"I'm sorry," she sniffled, "I didn't know who else I could talk to, and you gave me your address, and I just thought... I just thought..."
Kayley dissolved into tears again. Mr. Radley handed her some tissues and waited silently while she composed herself. As she calmed, Kayley took in her teacher's living room. The coffee table before her was clear but for some coasters and two bottles of beer. A large flatscreen took up the wall across from the couch, the shelving beneath it full of stereo equipment. Bookshelves took up another entire wall, filled with a clutter of mismatched hard- and paperback books. Through a doorway, she glimpsed what had to be a kitchen. With the television muted, she could hear a rushing hum.
"Take your time, Kayley," Mr. Radley said. He rubbed her back with one hand; she leaned into the gentle touch, found his shoulder with the side of her head. They sat like that for a moment, Kayley breathing in his scent, feeling the heat of his body through the thin fabric of her tank top.
At last, she was ready. Taking a deep breath, Kayley said, "Sorry, again. I just had- just had a terrible date with Travis, and between that, and us, and everything, I needed to talk. Tonight. Can we talk? I'm sorry."
She was babbling, Kayley realized. Disentangling herself, she scooted a couple of inches away from her teacher. He let her go, and smiled gently. This was a side of him she'd never witnessed before. She didn't know how to feel about it.
"Of course we can talk. I just have company, so we might get interrupted," he said.
Company? Did Mr. Radley have a girlfriend? That was a complication she didn't need. Catching the expression on her face, he laughed.
"Mr. Elston is here. We're going to watch tonight's UFC match. You're welcome to stay."
Mr. Elston, her P.E. teacher. Of course. Kayley knew they were friends.
"Where is he?"
"Taking a shower," he rolled his eyes, "John decided to jog over here."
Oh. That explained the rushing noise. Water in the pipes. A shower sounded good right now. She'd come straight here from Travis's, no time to really clean up.
"Okay, well-" Kayley said, stopped. She felt so embarrassed. Coming to her teacher because of a shitty date. No, she caught herself before the pity spiral could begin again. Not just a shitty date. Worse. And why was she embarrassed to talk to the man who'd cum inside her? Kayley cleared her throat, continued, "My date with Travis didn't go so well. After- after everything that's happened this week, I guess I just needed him to be someone I'm not sure he can be."
"What happened?" Mr. Radley asked.
"Well, I- I wore this," she gestured at her top, "cuz I wanted to see if he'd like it too. I wanted him to like it."
"And did he?"
"N-no! He said I looked slutty, and that he didn't want other guys looking at me. He made me put a sweatshirt on before we went anywhere." Tears threatened once more. Kayley had been so humiliated. It was almost like Travis hated the existence of her breasts.
"That's shitty. I'm sorry, Kayley." Mr. Radley took her hand and squeezed reassuringly. His sympathetic expression helped her continue.
"We went to the movies. Sat all the way in the back and everything, no one else in the row," as she spoke, Kayley felt her embarrassment shift, grow hotter. She was getting angry, "and I- I just wanted him to want me. So I tried jerking him off, but he pushed me away, said we shouldn't do that in public. I should have left then. But no, I just had to see it through.
"We went back to his place- his parents are out of town- and y'know, finally he wants to get busy, and I'm just thinking maybe if I let him fuck me without a condom I'll get to finish for once. And of course he's into it, and of course he cums pretty much instantly. And what do I get? A 'sorry babe.' No fingers, no mouth, not even a goddamn napkin to clean up with!"
She drove her fist into the cushion beside her, letting out a long hiss of air from her nostrils. Her heart thundered as the evening's misadventures flashed through her head. She trembled, hot with anger and shame, vision tunneling down to two pinpricks.
The sudden hiss-snap of a can being opened next to her head snapped Kayley out of her spiral hard enough that she jumped in her seat. So caught up in herself, she'd missed Mr. Elston coming into the room. He stood above her, still damp from the shower, in his t-shirt and athletic shorts, sandy hair tousled into a series of cowlicks. One well-defined arm offered her a can of beer.
"Sounds rough, Kayley," Mr. Elston said, "This should help."
Hesitating for only a moment, she took the beverage and slugged back a mouthful. She was no stranger to alcohol from the parties she'd been to, but this was the first time drinking with a teacher. Teachers, she reminded herself, one of whom I've fucked. She was aware that Mr. Elston was still standing, his crotch level with her face. From the shape of his bulge, it was obvious he had chosen to go commando. It didn't bother her as much as she thought it might, nor did the slow and obvious way his eyes traced her cleavage.
Then he abruptly turned and went to the kitchen, saying, "So I guess this means you're not running out for more beer then?"
"We have a half-rack. You'll be fine," Mr. Radley shot back. Mr. Elston flipped him off before fetching both men their own drinks. He flopped down on the couch beside Kayley, not quite touching her.