I thought maybe writing about the first time I was with Russ and Rayna would get it out of my system, but it just brought all those feelings back up to the surface. My husband and I made love after I posted the story, but I couldn't finish. I need what I used to need. I need the sound of a hand slapping my ass over and over. I need the spike of pain to go through me and awaken my senses. I need to be told what to do. I need to be given permission to enjoy it. Just sex isn't enough and if I'm honest, it never really has been.
Some kind people made kind comments on my memory. One person asked for more. So, here's more. Thank you for listening.
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First a quick follow up to the last memory. I slipped out of their room and spent the night on the couch. Russ got up early and made us all breakfast. It was a good breakfast with great company, but I could do better. Breakfast is my specialty. I'd save that as a surprise. I went home after breakfast and after a shower called my best friend and told her everything. On Monday Rayna came to have lunch with us. I swear, Russ's smile was so large the whole time he might as well have been yelling he slept with both of us. We kept giggling at him. I guess in that way we were being big kids just like him. It was just so funny to us.
Over the next week Russ was more professional than usual around the rest of the office, but would run his hand over my ass when we were in the break room alone and call me at my desk to whisper dirty little fantasies to me. Things he wanted to do next time. Just the thought that there would be a next time kept me on edge and wet all day.
Then came that Thursday (I think, Thursdays are always the worst, so it might as well be Thursday, I have trouble remembering if it was the same week or a week later, it's been a long time). I had a horrible day. Russ was working remote that day and Andy was being an asshole. His marriage was going down the tubes and I don't know if he had been cheating on his wife, but he sure wanted to with me. He had been flirting and hitting on me, but not as skillfully as Russ, for a while. I couldn't see myself with him, because he was mean. I want to be controlled, but not for real. I want to be hurt, but not hurtfully. Russ knew how to give me what I needed because I needed it, I didn't trust someone like Andy. He'd hurt me because he wanted to hurt me. I could never relax enough with him to enjoy myself. Anyway, he took it personal, and I guess it was, and just treated me like shit all day that day. Maybe he sensed something between me and Russ and wanted revenge, I don't know. But by the end of the day, I broke out into tears when I got in my car to go home. The rest of the evening was in a fog. I made dinner but had no appetite to eat it. I couldn't focus on reading or even watching TV. Time just passed and I cried. I tried calling my best friend back home, but she was out on a date. Finally, I called Rayna.
Rayna told me to come over but it was after 11 by then. She said she didn't care and ordered me to come over now. Well, I couldn't say no to her even if I wanted to. She met me at the door with brandies in hand. After the second one, I was finally starting to unwind. She noticed that I was rubbing my neck and stood up and took my almost empty glass from me and led me upstairs into their family room.
She told Russ to rub my neck and comfort me. She started working on her computer and I realized that the last hour she devoted to me was supposed to be meeting a deadline first thing in the morning. I couldn't focus on that though, other than to feel gratitude, because Russ's fingers were like magic. My neck muscles were just melting as the stress was massaged away. His hands moved down to my upper back, working around and under my shoulder blades, digging away at the tight spots. I don't know when, but at some point he was kissing my neck my working my lower back. I started to get vocal with whimpers and moans as my brain tried to reconcile the comfort of his hands and the electric feeling of his lips, tongue, and oh god teeth on my neck. Soon it didn't matter because one hand curved around to cup my breast and and the other to stroke the inside of my thigh. I could feel how aroused hewas, his hard cock pressing into my ass.
I tend to equate comfort with physical contact. He had made me feel so much better. I needed to repay him. He put his mouth against my ear, shudder, and asked me what I wanted. I couldn't speak. He asked me if I wanted to blow him. All I could do was nod. He ran his right hand up my thigh to brush my pussy and feel how wet I was and at the same time pinched my nipple with his left hand. I sucked in air and arched my back, turning towards him to find his mouth moving in to mine. Our tongues danced together as we kissed and he rubbed and pinched me until I was squirming.