Sam watched me push my dinner around on my plate and finally spoke up. "Are you ok, David?"
Her question startled me. And I must have been visibly startled because her face dropped a little. As I thought about how to respond, I looked at her and couldn't help but admire my wife. She was slight, short, but not tiny. Even though she only came up to my chest, she had a presence when she was in the room. She would light it up and capture the attention of everyone as she entered.
Her long, dark hair was pulled back into a pony tail and she was wearing a green tank top and a pair of leggings that accentuated her curves especially nicely. It was almost like she knew. I struggled for the words.
"David," she pressed.
"Well, I...," I stammered, failing to explain myself in any way.
What I meant to tell her was that after years of role playing and teasing and toying with taboo ideas, I finally organized a way to fulfill some of her biggest fantasies. I wanted to tell her that for the past month, I had been meeting with candidates for the big night. I wanted to tell her that I screened men with a very particular set of parameters. I wanted her to know that I met with the finalists, verified their health, collected and vetted references, and made sure each one fit the bill, I ended up with three men who were perfect for tonight.
I wanted to tell her that her fantasies of cuckolding and sharing and being used by multiple men was about to happen. I wanted to tell her that these men were all flexible and had a very clear understanding of what we wanted from them, what our hard limits were, and that everything was safe and sane.
I meant to tell her all of this earlier today. I wanted to tell her yesterday that I had set this all up; last week even. I wanted to tell her all of this as we sat here at the table.
"Well, I...," I continued to struggle. "You know how we've been playing with, you know, sharing, and..."
Her face softened from concern to a slight grin.
And suddenly, I wish I had had explained all of this much sooner, because as I started to try to explain what I had prepared, the door bell rang.
Her head turned towards the front door and then she looked back at me, her hazel eyes framed with curiosity. She started to rise from the table and I suddenly felt a panicked sense of focus as she started towards the door.
"I invited some new friends over to play with us," I blurted exceptionally casually. She stopped dead in her tracks. She turned to look at me, still curious, but also, she could tell I had anxiety in my voice.
"What do you mean, David?"
"Well, I know all about your fantasies, and I've wanted to help you realize some of them for some time now, so I did some research and found a couple of new friends who were eager to help us fulfill them."
Sam looked more than a little irritated as she stared at me, and she began to speak, but the door bell rang a second time, interrupting her. She turned her attention to the door and away from me, something that I was grateful for in that moment, and she started towards the door. I immediately began to feel a sense of dread in my stomach. Was she going to be disgusted that I did this without her knowledge or consent?
I stood up despite my nerves, my legs weak, and I followed her into the living room just in time to see her open the front door. There were three men standing at the door looking anxious. The man in the front, Travis, was holding a black duffel bag. He was a gruff looking man in his early thirties with something between a short, intentional beard and a haphazard neglect to shave for a week or more. His bright, amber eyes were accentuated by long, straight black hair that hung down over his forehead. He was wearing a white t-shirt partially hidden by a long sleeved jacket, and his jeans bulged around his thighs, indicating that he was partial to staying fit. His jacket sleeves were pushed up past his elbows and I could see how muscular and lean he was.
Behind Travis stood Bill and Jon. Bill was not remarkable in any particular way. He was older, maybe mid forties, and had a professional look. He looked as if he may have come here straight from the office. He was wearing a white button down shirt and grey slacks, and his shoes, although a bit worn, matched his black belt. He was soft, and looked even softer standing behind Travis, which I had not noticed until they stood together. Bill's hair also had more silver in it than I had noticed before both because his hair was already light brown, but also because the sunset made the silver glisten.
Jon was younger, I would guess maybe twenty five at the most. He was taller than the other two men, and thinner. His face was younger, kinder than Travis's and less worried than Bill's. He wore a black t-shirt with a logo on it I didn't recognize and had his hoodie pulled up over his head. Like Bill, he had lighter hair, short, but with no signs of greying any time soon. His jeans looked two sizes too big, and his sneakers looked like he was due for a new pair several years ago. Still, he was tall and clean-shaved, and his blue eyes sparkled in equal amounts of excitement and nervousness.