Note: Before publishing, I was doubting if I would do it in parts or all in one. Sometimes I understand from comments on other stories that it is too long, sometimes they want to get it all in one. So I decided to follow the advice from a friend who had read this story in advance, to publish it all in one.
As with my other stories, I recommend reading the other ones first, as they are in chronological order. It gives you a better and more accurate impression of who I am since these stories are a reflection of my own experiences and memories.
Nevertheless, I think the story can be read as a "stand-alone" as well.
I also want to use a moment to thank
Emi Tsuruta
for being an inspiring author, especially on topics about Exhibitionism and also for showing me how to put links in my own story! ;-)
Introduction:
My boyfriend Christian and I had a great start after we met, I mean sexually and erotically. He introduced me to nudism, and let me discover I love to be naked and even in public (preferably with like-minded people), even visited a swing club, had sex in special locations, in public, or sometimes with people watching...
After a while we found out that he liked the idea of sharing me, at first in the most simple way: sharing the view of my naked body on nude beaches, naturist resorts, or public saunas. Later via friendly and sensual body touching, without sex, and then experiencing a few moments where he initiated situations where I gave oral sex to other guys.
For us, oral sex was not cheating, but actually, it was only me who was "in action". Letting the same guys finger me made part of the experience and on a unique occasion, I was receiving oral as well, performed by a sexy stranger.
Every time it resulted in great "after-sex" with Christian. Needless to say, I got a few times tempted to get fucked by those guys, but I categorized those feelings as "my fantasies", the kind that will always remain a fantasy since I wanted to be loyal and exclusive to my boyfriend in the same way I expect that from him to me.
During sex, we sometimes fantasize together in a role play about introducing another guy to our sex life - like MFM or me having sex with a guy and then Christian watching us.
After a long time, right after a great sex session with Christian, I finally confessed I got aroused thinking of another man fucking me.
I thought it was a good moment, after he just came inside me, to start to talk about it.
"The idea of fucking with another guy turns me on," I said whit a nervous voice, while I felt my stomach turning.
Christian didn't reply and his silence made me uncomfortable but I gathered all my courage and continued:
"I do want to try it," I said, like talking about something random.
"But not with one of your friends, I want someone I don't know from our circle of life," I explained to Christian.
"After seeing you sucking another dick I always thought about it but never wanted to suggest it because I was afraid about what you might think of me," Christian conceded.
"For me, it was also hot to role-play with that in bed, but never thought you would want that for real" he admitted.
"Can you find someone for me?" I asked him.
"I am not in a hurry, maybe by the next time I visit you?" I suggested with a humble voice.
After talking a bit more about it he said he would set up a match for us next time when I visit him in his country where I feel more free than in the UK. He asked me for criteria but I told him he knew me well enough to do a selection himself for me. In the weeks after he sent me a few profiles he found on a website, mainly used by people from his country and the Netherlands.
Looking at those guys with perfect-looking sporty bodies got me horny but in my mind, it was more of his way of teasing me, more than it would turn out in a real encounter. I was right, real life occupied us completely, so little time was left for such experiments. Potential guys, interested in our profile didn't have the patience or thought we were fake because our situation was complicated to explain.
Christian deactivated the account because he didn't want to steal their time either.
Our lives changed in the meantime, due to private, covid, and work situations, we could not see each other as often as we wished, but our relationship stayed strong. When we saw each other, time was limited so we never got to the point to make that fantasy real because we used that limited time for ourselves and did not think about it so much anymore.
One time, before we got apart again, he told me that he was thinking of just giving me the possibility to have sex with someone else if, at a certain time and moment, an occasion knocked. He talked about him caring about me, and not wanting to miss out on the exciting things in life because we are separated in different countries, sometimes resulting in several months before we could see each other.
He knew I lacked an important portion of sex at my, according to him, young age, and thought this way could be a solution to compensate for his absence.
I had mixed feelings. I was thrilled because he finally started the topic again, and seemingly more serious now. But I also felt like I would be cheating on him, since it would be without his presence, not like a play-game experience together.
Although I fantasized about it, I told him this was generous but did not think about it or need it. I did not see when or how an opportunity would appear and even why I would want that...
Just in case, I get tempted, he gave me a few rules: always tell him about it, where and with whom, don't fall in love, play safe, and also: no relation, so only occasional sex and no maintaining contact after. He also said he wanted to hear all the juicy details! The way he gave me those rules without hesitating, showed me he must have been thinking about it seriously.
