Chapter 4. September, the middle where it lingers
They had practically grown up together.
Billy remembered first talking with her in sixth grade, he thought, though it could have been earlier. Kristie was a little awkward at first, as was he, but they seemed to have a calming effect on each other as they found that each had more and more that the other could relate to. It became like, "Hey, you're like me, we should hang out together." So they did. They, in time, became like brother and sister...well, postulating a brother and sister who actually liked each other. They both had a real opposite-sex sibling who they often found problematic—another thing they could bond over.
Billy found that he could talk to her about just about anything, and she would have something to say about it, sometimes even challenging his assumptions. Inevitably their talk turned to school work, and they found that their strengths complemented each other's, so they came to study together.
When the whole boy-girl thing came up in high school, they told each other that it would work out, that you are the best and you will find someone to return the kind of affection you crave. That a solution was right there was something they never touched on until school was done and then, for real, when they found themselves together in Meredith Manor.
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They awoke after an hour or so, the afternoon sun going westward.
"Kristie?"
She yawned. "Oh, I guess we dozed off." She snuggled into his shoulder.
"Can I ask you a question?" Billy said.
"Why do people say that? You just did ask me one."
"I mean, an important one."
"Ask away."
"Are you okay with what happened?"
"I thought we already covered that," she said. "Remember, Patrick asked us."
"That was when we were in the middle of things. You might have changed your mind."
"Not really. Have you changed yours?"
"Figures," Billy said. "You were enjoying yourself with Patrick, for sure."
Kristie sighed. He was being difficult again.
"And you weren't enjoying yourself? I noticed how you were climbing all over Jenna the first chance you got. What was I supposed to do, go sit in the corner? Don't give me any double standards, please."
"All right, all right...you're right. I guess I'm just afraid they're going to come between us."
"How could they do that?" she asked him. "What are you afraid of?"
He paused. "I guess that you would prefer him to me and you wouldn't want me any more."
At that moment, something clicked into shape for Kristie. It made sense of the way she felt about Billy, and of everything else. She had to make him see it, but it would come out too strong, because she was also a bit annoyed.
"Of
course
I still want you, you big dummy! Listen to me: I've known you since forever, you've helped me in a hundred ways to become who I am, then you were my first man, and made it better than I had ever imagined. And you still do. What I'm telling you is, I love you and I'm not giving you up for anyone."
He just lay there for the moment as if stunned.
"Look, I've thought about it," she went on. "What we did with Patrick and Jenna was just play. That shouldn't come between us. They don't need us, they have each other. Like we have each other. We were just playing together. Do you see?"
"I think so," he said. "But can I ask you a question?"
"Again with the questions. What is it?"
"Would it be all right if I loved you too?"
She softened in an instant. This was the Billy she knew.
"You go right ahead. And kiss me now, please."
He did. She kissed him back, their naked bodies pressed together under the sheet.
"Hey," she said a bit later. "I'm sorry I called you a dummy. You wanna go get something to eat? Then come back here and hang out? And then why don't you stay here with me tonight. And don't bring any pajamas."
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Patrick and Jenna also had not yet fucked each other that day when they left their younger friends. Now in Patrick's room, they had taken care of that omission and lay together, limbs entwined.
"That was so great with them," he said.
"I know. Did you catch the look on Billy's face when he saw my boobs? He was so sweet though. I guess Kristie taught him how to eat pussy, because he got me off in no time."
"And she knows how to suck cock too. She almost had me deep-throated."
"Then for sure she can do it with Billy. Not to take away from him. He's not as big as you, but he knows how to use it. They must be great together. So happy for them."
"Yeah, me too. Our big old home is getting sexier all the time."
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Monday morning came around and found Kristie preparing to head out into the world again. It had been so hard not to just spend all day Sunday in bed with Billy, but there were things that had to get done, like washing her clothes. She and Billy had kept their study date in the evening, it acquiring a new layer of meaning for her. They had separated at last with promises to get a good night's sleep.
In the front hallway, alone, she stopped to check that she had everything. A figure came down the stairs while she was distracted. It was coming around behind her. A hand, gently patting her ass through her soft pants.
Startled, she looked up. It was Patrick, smiling back at her as he headed out the door without breaking stride. A wave and he was gone.
Well, it was Patrick. She could hardly be offended, given the orgasms he had given her, that she had taken willingly. Would take and give with him again given the chance. It was like she had two boyfriends now, though Billy always would be special.
Her parents would be livid if they knew what she was up to now. Not to mention her brother. But that was what it was about, wasn't it? Go to college, get out in the world, discover yourself.
This wasn't the way life was supposed to be for her at all, according to the folks back home. In Greenville life was centered around school, church, and home. She had dispensed with the church part in her junior year, finding it to be all nonsense, but continued to go through the motions in order to keep everyone happy. School was tolerable, and home was, well, home. But she had the feeling that things had to be better, somewhere.
She had the idea of a career in health care, but wasn't sure how far she would be able to take it. The way to find out would be to get into State and start working on it.
Her parents hadn't been opposed, exactly, but they had reservations.
"You know, there are a lot of bad influences up there at the college," her mother had said. "I really hope you won't be led astray."
"Really, Mom, I'll be fine," she had replied. "Billy will be there too. I'm sure he will keep me out of any trouble."
As if she needed anyone to keep her out of trouble! Well, she was only a girl—young woman, she corrected herself—so she obviously needed the guidance of a man. That was how the thinking went. But if her parents understood that Billy was 'safe' and could be trusted, that would seal it for them, and she could be happy about that.
So if they knew that she and Billy were now lovers, and that she had even had sex with another guy while Billy was in the same room having sex with another girl, well! She now had a big secret from them, and from that whole world. That thought itself gave her a little thrill.
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Every time the classic rock station back home played "We've Gotta Get Out of This Place", Tania had been sure the DJ was sending her a knowing message. Not to her personally of course, but to anyone in town who was tuned in and tuned to hear it. Because what a miserable, pinched place Greenville was!
There was just so little going on there. A couple of factories, where the local men and a few women worked and slaved their lives away. The Farm and Fleet store was not an especially exciting place to hang out when you had just turned eighteen. The dozen or so shops left downtown were just sad, and even the mall had been slowly thinning out apart from the big-box anchors.
Then there were the dozen or so bars downtown, matching the shops. She didn't know what went on there, and wasn't interested. The smell of stale beer when the doors opened and the broken glass on the sidewalks most weekend mornings were not great attractants.
At least at school there were spacious, grassy playing fields where you could run in good weather, and then maybe find a shaded corner where you could sit in the grass with a book. Although the book usually came from the public library, because after the local bluenoses had blundered their way through the school's library there was hardly anything left worth reading.