I woke with a bit of a hangover and the fuzzy-eyeball, where-the-fuck-am-I, feeling you get sometimes after too much to drink.
Then I smiled, remembering.
I hadn't opened my eyes yet, so I listened, felt, smelled, and tasted.
I could hear soft breathing, and when I listened more carefully, I realized it was just one person breathing.
I could feel the dip in the mattress to my left.
I could smell the mixed scents of Jennifer's arousal, semen, and sweaty bodies a bit overdue for a shower.
I could taste the very faint remnants of Jennifer's natural lubricants when I licked my lips to moisten them.
I opened my eyes.
I don't know why, but I wasn't surprised to find it was Mark still in bed with me.
For all of the intimacy of last night, I hadn't really spent much time just looking at him so I rolled up onto my side, propped my chin on my palm, and watched him sleep, taking in my, well, my "husband," or at least my "Husband to Be," and that thought sent a rush through my belly and I felt my 50-year-old cock stir.
I smiled as I looked down his body and thought,
"Damn, that was me 20 years ago."
He was lean. His body was a runner or swimmer, although with his specific gravity, it would be a sprinter. He lacked the relatively light fat pads of a distance swimmer. Basically, of course, it was the body of what he was, an athletic guy who made his living as a high school football coach and shop teacher, leading his students and players by example.
He wasn't heavy-chested, but his pectoral muscles were well defined.
He wasn't a bodybuilder, but his abdominal muscles were well defined.
He wasn't some horse-hung pornstar, but I couldn't look away from his cock, soft now, laying to the left, nestled in the curly thatch of his pubic hair. The lines low on his belly where his thighs met his trunk, the
inguinal crease
to be technical, the
love lines
as I think of them, pointed, hell, beckoned my attention.
But first, I had to tend to hydraulic needs.
I eased out of bed, scooting in slow, careful movements, not wanting to wake him but desperate to take care of business.
I padded to the bathroom, sat to pee wanting to be quiet, and had one of those post-party urinations that are so completely satisfying.
"You know what you want to do,"
Lee, my cousin's wife's voice, one of the women who taught a much younger me, said softly.
"I'm not a damn queer," I said, my voice barely above a whisper. I was kind of shocked to realize I had said that aloud at all.
"What's that got to do with anything?"
she asked,
You're part of this now, and you can't hold back part of yourself."
On some level, the thinking part of myself knew I was just talking to myself, of course. I'm really NOT crazy.
"I'm not a cocksucker," I whispered.
"Oh, don't be a dick,"
she said, and I could see that sneer she would have if I fucked something up when she was "teaching" me,
"You're just hiding behind language now. You're IN this group thing, now go do what you want to do anyway.
I knew she was right but, Jesus, the taboo was so strong. I was straight, dammit. And "cocksucker" was SUCH a purely perjorative term.
But I knew she was right.
So I shook, washed my hands, rinsed my mouth with
Listerine
, and went back to bed.
I wondered, in a vague way, where Jennifer had gotten off to, but right then, well, there he was and, God help me, there
it
was.
I've been in locker rooms, and although the convention among men is that you don't look, sometimes you can't avoid it. And when you're in basic training, sitting on the can taking your morning dump while having a conversation with the guy sitting across from you doing the same thing, well, there's not much body modesty left.
But this was different. This wasn't a "glimpse." This was getting into bed, oh so carefully so as not to wake him, and then moving so my face was about a foot away, studying his cock.
"It's okay,"
I was telling myself as I looked at the way it was wrinkled at the base, soft now, lying nestled in the curly thatch of his pubic hair. I studied the corona of the glans, the odd texture of the skin there. I admired his balls, slightly oversized, lying in the loose skin of his scrotum. I had the urge to touch, or maybe to kiss, the
scrotal raphe
, that line that separated the two halves of his scrotum.
"It's okay,"
I thought again,
"after all, the men in Alexander's army as he conquered the world, or in the Roman Legions as the Empire expanded beyond even Alexander's outsized imagination, the men were hardly wimps and God knows there was plenty of homosexuality in those groups."
I was so focused on what I was doing, well, what I was thinking I guess, that the slight movement in the bed and her words surprised me when Jennifer climbed in.
"It's an amazing feeling," she said, not whispering but her voice pitched low to not wake Mark, "to feel a man get hard in your mouth."
I shivered a little as her fingertips, light as a spider crawling across my back, raised goosebumps where she touched.
"Go ahead," she said in that same low voice, "while I kiss him awake."
He was soft, so I could take all of him into my mouth.
I don't know what I expected, but it felt somehow, well, natural is a good word for it. I felt him, soft but, well, firm. My tongue found the different texture of his glans and traced the groove of his
frenulum
where his glans met his shaft.
I turned my head, saw Jennifer kissing him, and felt a stirring in his hips as he started to awaken.
More to the point, though, I felt the first thickening, firming of his cock as his body reacted to her kisses and my mouth.
And I liked the sensation.
And damn if my own cock didn't respond.
I was remembering every blow job I ever had. Thinking of how a little number named Jeanine had done a thing with her tongue that seemed to wrap around it like a warm, damp, slick snake. I tried, but I couldn't figure out how that worked.
Another student, Lori, who I remembered fondly, had been almost anorexic, hell, probably WAS anorexic she was so damn skinny, but she could take me to the back of her mouth and then swallow hard, working my glans, until I was so close I couldn't breathe and then pull off quickly and use her hand to finish me, accepting my ejaculate in her hair and on her face, smiling up at me as she did.
My gag reflex triggered, though, so I settled for just holding him in my mouth, my lips tight on his cock, my tongue caressing his shaft with each time I pulled off slowly.
In that position, I could look up and see Mark and Jennifer kissing, making love, and I thought how beautiful they looked as I slowly brought him along with my mouth while my hand lightly caressed his hips and belly.
I realized her womanscent was strong in the air and pulled off, reluctantly releasing him. I kissed his balls and then moved up, tickled Jennifer's back, and whispered, "He's ready for you."
"Mmmmmmmmmmmm," she hummed, smiling and kissing me, "He's ready for you, too, Baby."
She moved with that grace only a gymnast can achieve and got free of both of us.
She was grinning, a wild look on her face.
"Me on the bottom," she said, grinning, "you," she touched mark on the forehead, "on top," she brushed her fingers across his lips, "leaving this for David."
His eyes got as big as I suppose mine were.
Then he smiled, kissed her, and said, "As you wish," in his best Westley from
The Princess Bride
voice.
She kissed me, smiled, and rolled onto her back, spread her legs, and said, "Don't let me down."
Mark grinned and said, "Never."
As he started to move into position, his knees between hers, it seemed somehow natural to move closer so I could guide him to her. I tested her pussy with my finger and found her hot and wet and slick. As he moved closer, I held his erection and lightly brushed her outer lips with his glans, ensuring an easy penetration. I couldn't resist lightly caressing his ass as he entered her. Their shared soft moans were musical.
"Easy, Baby," she said to Mark in a soft voice, "don't hurry."
He stopped his movement then, nestled inside of her. When he kissed her, she caressed his back with her left hand while, with her right, she reached for mine.
"He gets this," she said, smiling past Mark, who nuzzled her neck, "and I get these," she finished, cupping my balls in her hand and lifting them gently.
I scooted forward a bit, kind of kneewalking, until my erection brushed against his hair and almost came right then as I felt her tongue move, lightly parting my balls.