After Sarah invited me to move in with her, I felt a sense of relief. I was struggling financially trying to maintain my studio apartment, work a minimum wage job, go to grad school, and having the burden of living week-to-week or even day-to-day lifted off my shoulders helped me manage my stress. I got some financial freedom from the money I made hanging out with people in the porn industry but I didn't see that as a long-term solution as most of the money I had made went into paying some long-overdue bills. I still wanted to become a cinematographer in mainstream movies. I was in my last semester of school and living with Sarah gave me the flexibility to concentrate on my classes.
It wasn't a difficult decision to leave a studio apartment for a California beach house either. I had a lot of free time while Sarah was out of town shooting a movie or going on one of her strip club tours so I enjoyed relaxing on the beach or in the hot tub. There was nothing more relaxing than sitting on the back patio, listening to the sound of the waves crashing against the beach, and watching the sunset with a drink in my hands.
I can be a worrywart and had some concerns that I made a hasty decision to move in with Sarah after only knowing her for a short period of time. Sometimes I felt things were going too well which meant something was about to happen to burst my bubble. However, those concerns went away whenever Sarah was home. We enjoyed each other's company and the sex was great. Sex is so much better when you have deep feelings for your lover and making love with Sarah was the best I'd ever experienced. I still like a nice hard cock at times but Sarah knew just how to please me and also taught me how to be a better lover. I didn't tell my parents that I was living with a porn star who was also my lover but only that I moved in with a friend.
Even though Sarah told me and encouraged me to have sex with others while she was away, I still found it difficult to actually go out and fuck someone else. My upbringing stressed being faithful to the person you love so it went against the way I was raised. A lot of the other things I had done also went against the way I was brought up but I still tried to remain faithful to her. I knew Sarah was out fucking other people but it was part of her job so I wasn't jealous of what she was doing. We would take time to video chat and mutually masturbate which was fine for me. Absence does make the heart grow fonder so while I was celibate when she was gone, it was even better when she got home. We brought other people into our bedroom, male and female when she was in town but I still struggled to have other lovers when she was away.
Before Sarah was scheduled to go on another strip club tour, I told her how lonely I get when she is away. She invited me to go along but I still had classes to attend and couldn't go with her.
Sarah then told me, "I've told you several times that you should invite other people over when I'm not here and I'd even enjoy watching you through the home security system but, for some reason, you won't do it."
"I know you've said that but I still have a difficult time cheating on you."
"Hey babe, listen," Sarah said as she pulled me in close for a deep kiss before pulling back and looking me in the eyes. "It's not cheating if you have my permission and encouragement. I am about to leave for a couple of weeks and fuck 25 people in a blow bang, gangbang, and several solo and group scenes before I hit up some of the big money strip clubs. I may even suck or fuck some of the people there too because they pay damn good money for access to the strippers. And you'll know because I always want to be clear about who I am having sex with because the only way this relationship works is if we are open and honest. If you truly don't want to have sex with other people when I am not here then that is up to you, but I am giving you a free pass because I love and care about you no matter what, I just want you to be happy and satisfied. I know how horny you get so promise me you'll at least think about doing some exploring with other people while I'm gone."
I sheepishly replied, "I promise."
Sarah even went out and bought a new computer with a large monitor and the highest definition webcam on the market so we could video chat. It also helped with my homework. Before she left on her tour, she even made me talk about some prospective people I could bring home. There was a guy in one of my classes that was trying to date me and I was working on a project with another female student who was another possibility. I could always go back to my old neighborhood bar where I picked up some guys in the past and had a gang bang but I wasn't sure I'd ever go back there. I had no idea what I was going to do but I got her message that if she was going to fuck other people I should also have some fun too.
While Sarah was home, we fucked like newlyweds. She has a collection of dildos, vibrators, and strap-ons that we use regularly but there were times when we didn't use any at all. We fucked in every room of the house, out on the patio, and in the hot tub. The neighbors caught us a few times but we didn't care. If we went out dancing or to dinner, we'd sometimes bring home a random guy or guys so we could get some real cock when we wanted. Sarah tried not to wear too much makeup so she wouldn't be recognized. Every guy that recognized her wanted to fuck her and it took some of the fun out of it for her. There are times when she just wanted to be normal Sarah. Sarah got a special thrill out of telling a guy after he fucked her that she was a porn star. The looks on their faces were priceless.
Before she left on her next tour, Sarah made me promise that I'd get laid while she was gone.
"I promise, I'll try and get laid, Sarah. I don't mind waiting until you get back though."
Sarah rolled her eyes in feigned disgust, "What happened to that inner whore, Hannah?"
"Oh, she's still there, just busy with finishing up a couple of school projects."
"You know what they say about all work and no play, don't you?"
"Yeah, yeah, I know."
"Besides, the thought of you getting your brains fucked out or eating some pussy turns me on too. If you won't do it for yourself, please do it for me."
"Okay, okay. I get your message. Hannah the whore will come out of hiding. I promise."
Deep down, I knew Sarah was right. I have been stressing over school and getting more anxious the closer I got to graduation. That stress and anxiety turned to sexual frustration, and hearing about Sarah's fun sexual encounters only got me more frustrated. A vibrator or dildo was great for a few nights, but not weeks at a time. So much had happened since I moved to California and I didn't want anything distracting me from my original goal. I was so close to getting the graduate degree that I stopped having fun. Once I graduated, I was going to have to find a job so I figured I'd better have some fun while I still have some free time.
Sarah and I had a great "goodbye" night of sex before she left on her latest road trip. The sex before she left and when she returned was always outstanding. Sometimes I would greet her at the door wearing a cheerleader costume, or a nurse, for example. Other times, I would wear some sexy lingerie that always included stockings and heels or nothing at all. One time when she walked in the door, I was only wearing a strap-on.
That night while video chatting, Sarah made me fantasize about fucking various classmates or professors, male and female. I knew exactly what she was doing. She was trying to stoke the flames of my desires to make sure I had some extracurricular activities while she was gone. The only condition she placed upon me was she either wanted to watch via her home security system or I had to give her every last detail when she got back. Sarah's home had a very sophisticated camera security system with several cameras both inside and out. Being a porn star she was subject to stalkers so she had to be safe. She showed me how to arm the system and how to shut off cameras inside the house when I was home for my privacy. I could also control cameras or move them into various rooms if I wanted, like the bedroom. I took the hint. If I brought home a lover she wanted to watch if she wasn't working. She understood that some potential lovers may not want to be watched while having sex but it was up to me to let them know if there was a camera in the bedroom.
The security system phone app would let me know when Sarah was watching so I would use it to tease Sarah by walking around the house naked or dressing up in one of her favorite costumes. I liked to perform a striptease for her too. It was fun stripping for another stripper and she also gave me some pointers.
There were other times that I forgot to turn on the privacy settings and I'd get a random text message from Sarah saying, "Nice tits, babe," or "Ohh, shake that ass, baby."
I'd walk up to the camera and lick my nipples or wiggle my ass for the love of my life. She would often remind me of my pledge to get laid while she was away. One of my concerns with bringing home a lover was I wasn't experienced at seducing people. Guys were easy; they'll fucking anyone, anytime. All a woman has to do is flash some cleavage or some of her thighs and the guys will swarm over her like bees in a field of flowers. I wasn't comfortable bringing a guy back to Sarah's house. I just wanted to fuck someone and have him leave. I didn't want to wake up next to someone and pretend that I was interested in them. However, women are more selective. It's not like I could go into a bar and walk up to a random girl and ask her to fuck. Besides, Sarah was my only female lover and she seduced me.