My glass of scotch is shaking in my hands as I prepare for my moment in the sun.
It feels a bit strange, all these prying eyes.
It is a large room, bar to one side, dance floor to the other ... and an extra-large bed in the middle of the room. It has the dimensions of four queen size beds, all pushed together. It is covered in a draping black sheet, tightly fitted.
No-one is on the bed yet, we've been told that does not happen until later in the night. At this point, it is just like any other bar, strangers drinking and laughing. But there is an electricity here tonight. A nervousness in the air.
I can feel it.
I see my man and we wink at each other as he walks toward the bathroom. I have been sitting by myself while he talked to the bar-man, looking at all the people that slowly drift into the bar.
It is a good looking crowd. No-one looks sleazy or dirty, it is full of good people. Not outstanding people, no-one here could walk the catwalks of New York, but just a good crowd. A few groups of girls giggly loudly, couples snuggle into each other and the bar tenders happily pour the drinks. The more drinks the better, I feel.
Amos and I have been together for just over ten years now and have been quite flat for a while. Not just in our relationship but in the bedroom as well. It has been ten years of the same five or six positions. Not that it is bad, it's just not great like it used to be.
That's why we're here.