I was married once before. For seven years, I was married to a beautiful woman, not as beautiful as she thought but beautiful, and almost every minute of my marriage, I suspected she was screwing around on me although I could never be sure it wasn't just my imagination running away with me.
After seven years of suspicion, I finally caught my wife cheating on me. Well, to say caught isn't completely fair— most women never get caught unless they want to or just don't care. I came home from work, same time as always, and walked in on her with another man. Then she begged me to join them.
Although my wife was a big girl, she wasn't fat— just a healthy, meaty buxom big boned girl. She was about the same height as me, 5 feet 10 inches, but the last couple years of our marriage, she'd started wearing heels all the time which made me feel small and inadequate next to her.
I knew how wrong and shallow I was for feeling emasculated by her size, but I felt what I felt. So when I walked in on some burly ass man, at least 6 feet 5 inches and muscular, pounding the shit out of her puffy pussy while she stood bent over the arm of the couch moaning like I'd never made her before, I didn't feel jealous, mad, turned on, happy (for her), or like joining in. I felt like I always felt around my wife toward the end of our marriage— inadequate.
I left her that night, even though she cried and begged me to stay, saying she'd never do it again. The next day, I joined a gym and then worked hard over the next year putting muscle on my skinny frame, like that is why she cheated on me. The muscle, magically, made me feel in control. After I made myself over, I dated a few women, nothing serious, but eventually, I met Janey and fell in love.
Janey was almost plain looking, at least until she smiled. Then she was beautiful. She had the body of an angel although my brother, an asshole, always teased me that she had a great body if you were into twelve-year-old girls. He was just jealous— everybody wanted Janey.
While Janey was small and petite, standing a little under five feet tall in bare feet, she was no little girl— she was all woman. She had a curved ass, perky little titties, and nipples that grew over an inch when turned on. When we were together, she made me feel special and powerful.
I fell in love with Janey almost the first time I saw her and long before I convinced her to date me which took months and months of constant effort, bordering on stalking. OK, I stalked her, finally catching her like a doe frozen in my gaze.
When we started dating, I felt like I'd won the fucking lottery. The only problem was she was already in love with someone else. She'd been up front about it, and for the three months we were dating she kept telling me that we'd have to stop when her boyfriend returned. At first, because she was such a timid little thing, I convinced myself it was all a story to give herself an escape if she needed— a sophisticated sort of it's not you it's me kind of thing.
But it wasn't. Her friend finally returned, and she stopped fucking me and stopped seeing me which nearly wrecked me. She lived in the condo across from mine which made things even harder on me, especially since I was determined to keep my promise to her that I would leave her alone when her boyfriend returned. I couldn't breathe or sit still the first weekend she spent away. I spent the whole time pacing in front of my door. After a couple of weeks of getting drunk every night and not seeing her except through the peephole a few times when she left for work, I could barely get out of bed, and I stopped going to work.
It turned out Janey was missing me and hurting also, so late one night, she banged on my door until I finally woke up. Then she told me the truth she'd been afraid to— she didn't have a boyfriend; she had a girlfriend, who she really loved. Her girlfriend was married, and sometimes she got together with both of them.
She claimed she really missed me and really wished I could be her boyfriend and wished she could keep her girlfriend too. I said I'd do anything to keep seeing her. I didn't care who I had to share her with. She said I had to meet her girlfriend and get her to agree before we could go back to seeing each other again.
The next afternoon we walked to Cindy's house, holding hands while walking the four blocks. We hadn't talked about the kind of things Janey did with Cindy and her husband— it was none of my business, I figured. I just felt high as fuck with Janey's petite little hand pressed into my sweaty palms as we bounced down the sidewalk towards her girlfriend's house. When we got to Cindy's house there was a late model white Cadillac in the driveway. Janey stopped, and her grip tightened on my hand when she saw the car.
"What's wrong," I asked.
"Nothing." she answered.
"Whose car?" I asked, looking at the Cadillac.
"I don't know. They keep their cars in the garage." I believed her, even though the car's presence seemed to have shaken her.
Cindy answered the door, "Hello." She hugged me, pressing her large soft breasts against me. "Come in," She stepped back from the door and motioned us inside.
"This is John," Janey said. "And this is Cindy," she motioned at her girlfriend. Janey had a giant proud looking smile on her face.
Cindy looked me up and down before saying, "Your cuter than Janey described."
"It's nice to meet you," I said, looking at her. I hate greeting new people. It's always like a weird dance that usually feels fake and forced, and it wasn't nice to meet her— it was scary as hell. I felt she held my life in the balance.
"Janey, would you give us a few minutes, I want to talk to Johnny alone," Cindy said, smiling at me. "Red's here. Why don't you go see if she needs anything."
Janey leaned into me and put her arm around me. "Cin, no. Not today," she said, with a small voice. I barely heard her.
Cindy pointed towards a hall, "Go," she said. "Now," she said, with a raised voice. Janey started towards the hall. She looked back at me. She looked panicked. She continued to the hall and disappeared. I heard a door shut. Cindy looked at me. Studied my face for a few seconds. "Oh, she'll be alright. She likes it when I take charge."