I was proud, you might even say I was overproud and far too full of myself when Benjamin wanted me to stay with him. Now that his first night with his First was complete, he was a full member of The Family and was free, under our traditions, to move among the women of The Famly and sample at will. All women wanted to be with a New Man. I know I always had.
But he showed no interest in that. He insisted I continue to wear the cobalt blue shift of a First, signifying that I was off limits to others until he released me. Every morning when he held out the blue shift for me I felt that rush deep in my belly and a wave of pure pride. You could call it hubris and you wouldn't be wrong.
That first week we must have made love 50 times, and it WAS making love. I was head over heels, crazy, stupid in love in a way I hadn't been since I made the Marriage Walk to my husband. I knew it was crazy and stupid. I knew it would end. But I was wallowing in this and happy.
And he was such a fast learner, I was receiving pure pleasure like I hadn't, well, maybe ever. Our "lessons" continued and we learned each other's tells, our likes, and those things that made us say "ewwww," but want more.
In part, it was the way he liked my milk so much. God, I would wake to the sensation of him nursing and go to sleep with the sensation of him nursing. In between he would sample and snack.
He was finishing school. All children in The Famly are home-schooled. We don't want them corrupted by the insanity we see in the public, or even the "private," school systems. He was preparing for the state-sponsored tests that would give him a state-issued high school diploma if he wanted to go to college, and working his part-time job at the repair shop that kept The Family's outdoor power equipment running.
I tended to my family's house, cooked meals that I left in the refrigerator, allowed whoever might be home to nurse, and was back to the First Cottage by the time Benjamin got home.
Well, here's a typical day in that first month.
I would wake, well before the alarm clock went off, to that wonderful sensation of his nursing while his hand explored, finding those special spots he was learning so well. The morning I'm describing, his mouth was latched on and I was flowing as I woke and, almost instinctively, moved my arm to provide a cushion for his head while my other hand lightly stroked his hair and I started humming a soft lullaby. His free hand was working its way down my belly, squeezing gently where that roll formed, and then probing under my clitoral hood to find that little button that always took my breath away.
As he took his fill he brought me along. Both of our rhythms broke while we adjusted so he could finish on my other udder. Then as he latched on his finger returned to where I was SO ready. He finished, releasing my nipple and then finishing me with a flourish, leaving me gasping for breath as he chuckled and rolled out of bed to shower and start his day.
I got my breathing back under control and followed him. In the shower, it was sensual without (quite) becoming sexual. I find there's something amazingly sensual about having a man wash my body. I LOVE the feeling of his fingers and a washcloth as he soaps and rinses those rolls that I'm afraid are getting more prominent every month. Mostly, though, it's the sensation of him lifting my heavy udder and cleaning the bottom where I seem to always sweat a little the way my tit lays against the rest of me. In Benjamin's case, it was even more sensual since he was young and inexperienced and it was all new to him. When he did between my legs, front to back as I taught him. I couldn't stop the soft moan that escaped.
And I enjoyed doing him too. There's something about scrubbing a man's face, shampooing his hair, and then doing his body, and yes, that includes that sudden erection, that gets to me. With all of the men I've ever showered with, and there have been quite a number, I always enjoyed doing their asscrack and butthole. I don't know why but I think it has something to do with the way they squirm when I touch that special private place.
Clean and dry, I sat him in the chair before the dressing table included in the First Cottage and shaved him. He was young then and hadn't decided on his beard style. Besides that, I found that if I shaved him every third day, that was enough. So this morning I got the mug and shaving brush and lathered his face before carefully polishing the blade on the leather strop hanging from the closet door. In The Family, one of a woman's responsibilities is to keep her man's beard looking good, and no woman is allowed to use anything but an old-fashioned straight razor. I think it's a trust thing myself, but I have enjoyed tending to beards since my first time, never mind how many years ago.
While he dressed I threw some bacon in the frying pan, dropped a couple of pieces of bread into the toaster, started Mr. Coffee brewing, and started making breakfast. He had nursed, of course, but a man needs some solid food too.
I fed him and dressed him, giggling as he got grabby, and sent him off to school. As a senior, he was in Eleanor's class and I happened to know that her spankings hurt, so I made sure he was out of the house in time to be on time for class.
I cleaned up around the house but there's only so much domesticity one woman should be required to handle.
House clean, beds made, and absolutely nothing on TV, I decided to venture out. My udders were engorged again, well, the right was engorged where he hadn't drained me completely, the left was just full, and I didn't think Benjamin would be home for lunch. I put on the blue shift, signifying my position as a First and, therefore, my unavailability. It felt funny, if I'm being honest, being this monogamous. I hadn't experienced anything like this since my first two months with David before I proved pregnant and became a full woman, available to anyone in The Family.
So I visited the MilkHouse. I wanted the companionship of women and there's no better place than that. I'm not sure why, but felt a little out of place as I walked in wearing my blue shift.
"Look at YOU!" Arlene said, grinning, and the mood was broken. Arlene is older than me and anywhere but this Family she would stand out with her HH cup breasts. Here she was just slightly above average.
I smiled and did a quick pirouette.
"He wants me to stay with him," I said and, yes, I knew as I said it just how prideful it sounded but I didn't care.
She smiled at that.
"How long since Emma was born?" she asked.
I knew what she was really asking but chose to just answer the direct question.
"Four years," I said, "she'll be starting school soon."
She met my eyes directly.
"Is she going to be your last, then?" she asked.
"I don't think so," I said, "and God knows I hope not. Jesus, I MISS being pregnant."
She smiled, sympathetically.
I don't know why, but I felt compelled to go on.
"Benjamin says I will be the mother of his first child," I went on, "and God knows he's willing to try to knock me up."
She laughed at that, and I felt it was laughing with me, not at me.
I worked the top of the shift off of my arms and down to my waist before sitting at the milking bench. I laid my udders on the cushioned bench top, carefully lubricated the teat cup with Vaseline to ensure a good seal, and wiped my nipples with alcohol. We're very careful about keeping things sanitary and the sudden chill made them hard, ensuring they would be tight when the machine started pulling them deeper.
"I haven't seen you in here for a while," Arlene said, breaking my reverie as I went through the process of getting ready to provide my addition to The Family's basic product and I giggled suddenly as the phrase "cash cow" ran through my mind.
"I've been busy, you know. Four kids at home and all of them wanting to be fed, a hungry husband," I wound down, realizing I sounded foolish.
She was laughing.
"Oh, Pauly," she said, "I was just teasing. With that brood, I'm surprised to see you here today. So spill it. What do you REALLY want to talk about?"
I turned on the milking machine, lifted and adjusted my udders slightly so I was comfortable and enjoyed the rush of purest pleasure as my milk started flowing, before I responded to her.
"What if Emma IS my last?" I asked, and felt the tears start running down my cheeks.
"Oh," she said, and then said nothing while she turned her milking machine off, freed her nipples, large and distended after her milking, pulled the little transparent inserts from the teat cups, tossed them into the trash, and carefully wiped the cups with alcohol swabs. She was taking her time and doing those basic courtesies that every woman in The Family is taught from her first menses.
Finally done, she moved to me and began rubbing my shoulders, a sensation that was so purely sensual without being sexual that it sent tingles all the way to my toes.
"Are you still having your periods?" she asked, her fingers finding little knots of tension and working them out.
"I miss some, but yes," I said.
"Okay, then," she said, making me yelp when she found a particularly hard little knot of tension and dug into it, "Are you ready to take Aunty Arlene's advice?"