Once upon a time, a lawyer needed to travel deep into the heartland.
She had had some initial successes, but the HΓΆll case had turned into a sprawling mess. The family's countersuit had been filed in Sundown, seat of the county with the same name and two days by car from the nearest airport or train station.
The sun was already setting when she reached Crossing. Her red convertible had ably carried her through the stubbly corn fields and along the dusty roads, but she was running low on gas. She drove past the drab and squat buildings of the township, until she reached the gas station, equally small and equally sad.
The slack-jawed attendant wordlessly filled the tank and cleaned the wind-shield then hurried inside. She felt the cold wind on her skin and hurried in after him. '11.27' said the mechanical readout atop the register. Inside her wallet she found a 10 $ note and a few coppery coins. She cleared her throat and forced a smile. "Would you take a check? Card?"
With a grunt the man pointed at the sign on the wall behind him:
'No Col--
No Checks
No Cards'
She exhaled. "I see. Is there a bank? Or something?"
"Post Office. They've got a counter." His teeth were crooked and yellow.
"I see." She glanced at the small golden watch on her wrist. "I don't suppose they are still open?"
"Naw."
"Listen," she lifted up the bill, "I'm only about a dollar short. And... ."
"So?"
"I figured I'd - I'd swing back and - nevermind." She handed him her passport instead. "A lien, then."
He grumbled and leafed through the papers. "Victoria von Auric." For a heartbeat, she glimpsed her photo. She did no longer wear glasses. And her black hair had been shorter then. Even her make-up had looked off, unfinished, back then. He studied the picture for a long time.
"Naw. I don't trust all that at all. How am I to tell if it's fake or only foreign?"
"I assure you... ."
He closed the passport. "No. Gimme me your keys."
"You can not be serious." She put away documentation and wallet. "There really is no reason to behave like this."
"Keys or I'll call the sheriff."
"Do." She smiled cooly. "I feel like the proper authorities can only be of help."
He laughed. "My brother-in-law won't be in a good mood neither, though."
"Fuck." Her smile disappeared. She tried to read his face, but found no indication of trickery. He seemed dangerously self-satisfied instead. Mocking even. She turned around and walked away.
"Were do you think you're going?" he hurried after her.
"Getting my luggage." Her voice was even, but the scowl of her pale face betrayed her growing anger. She did not turn around.
From the open trunk she tore the large, brown suitcase and set it, swaying, down by her feet. She could see the attendant's smile. He was close and he had seen her struggle with the weight. She grabbed her briefcase and slammed shut the lid.
"Here." She threw him the keys.
They jingled as he caught them. "Wasn't that hard after all - eh?" He stuffed them into his pocket. "Listen," his smile did not seem inviting, "where'll you go? It's dark - ain't it?"
Victoria hoped he would not notice her shudder. "Is there a motel in town? Preferably on that'd accept a check?" She did not quite manage levity.
"Naw. There's Al's up in Grayling. They're open all night. Three miles that-a-way." He pointed westwards along the road.
"Thanks." She walked away.
A pothole stopped the clickety-clack of her heels. She almost lost a shoe to the mud and almost dropped her load. Then she noticed the footfalls.
The man had followed her. And he was moving closer. She dropped her baggage with a thud. He moved closer. The lock on her suitcase had sprung open. White blouses and black lace panties spilt forth. And the man inched closer still.
"What do you want?" she asked. Her voice loud and trembling.
He took another step. Then stopped. "Figured I'd offer some hospitality. A bed an' a bite to eat." He took another step. "And I can be gentle."
"No." She carried a pocketknife in her inside pocket. A practical choice for any traveller; for to plot self-defence would be paranoid. Or so she had told herself. With luck, she would be able to open it in time. "No," she said, louder this time.
He took yet another step. Victoria stumbled backwards. He followed. Matched her step for step.
"Stop!" Her hand rested on the knife.
"Suit yourself." He took a final step towards her then finally stopped. She could feel his breath on her face. "Suit yourself." He turned and slowly walked away.
Only when his steps had died away, did she exhale. She peered into the darkness, half expecting him to return from nothing. But he was gone. She collected her clothes and, with a curse on her lips, walked the forlorn road.
Blue moonlight guided her through the amber shallows of grain, until she saw the light. A flickering halo rose from the ground, from under a block of concrete buried deep in the fertile soil.
Victoria left the road and crossed the field. She walked down the slippery stairs and stopped at the threshold of the steel door, only slightly ajar. Inside there was a fire and electrical light besides, enough for her to read the signs: 'US GOVT' 'PROJECT G---' 'DO NOT ENTER'.
She did enter. Driven by curiosity and, she admitted, hounded by fear, she entered. The heavy door closed behind her.
A single weak bulb dangled from the drab, grey ceiling. Its weak light mingled with the dancing orange from the concrete fireplace in the middle of the large, subterranean hall.
Few shelves lined the wall, most were empty or contained nothing but empty glass bottles. At the back, in the penumbra, she could see the stark outline of steel-frame beds.
The smell of food reached her nostrils. Three open cans were cooking on the sooty grating, tossed over the open fire. Her stomach gurgled. She dropped her burdens where she stood.
On the shelf closest to the firepit she saw, among condiments and other tableware, a clean-looking, stainless steel spoon. "Hello? Anybody?" She called out, but received no answer. She grabbed the spoon and called out again. No answer.
She crossed the room. Spoon in hand she hovered over the flames, then she called out for the third time. Silence.
All three cans seemed to contain beans, though those in the first had boiled down into a thick, brown mush. The ones in the second were hard and chewy and tasteless besides. The contents of the third were edible.
She plundered pepper and sauce from the rack. And then, standing close to the warming fire, wolfed down the whole can.
She bent down, sated and satisfied, to place the empty tin on the floor. There she spied, low on a distant rack, a small stack of magazines. She whistled, bored, but happy about her discovery.
Victoria again crossed the room. The murky glow made her strain her eyes as she squatted down beside the shelving and checked out the first.
An old hunting periodical with entirely too many technical specifications of rifles. She quickly pushed it aside.
The second showed on its yellowed cover a naked woman on her knees and surrounded by male genitalia. She picked up the third.
Inside politics, hidebound and favoured by some of the older partners; under normal circumstances she would not have bothered. And as she read the old issue, she found the arguments spurious on their face and rendered laughable by the judgement of time. She did not bother with another article.
Tension crept down her spine and a ball of anticipation had formed in the pit of her stomach. She looked around, half expecting to see the missing inhabitants appear from nothing, and, finding no one, picked up the filthy mag. Driven by queer curiosity, she leafed for the editorial or any other writing, but only found candid pictures on the crusty pages.
She glanced across the empty room. She glanced back at the lascivious images and again into the silent shadows. She swallowed and looked around once more. Anticipation had coloured her cheeks and she could not deny the rising heat.
The pictures, dirty and demeaning, of a platinum-blonde starlet taken roughly inside some rural rest-stop were uncomfortably close, yet tantalizingly alien. Her fingers were trembling as she pushed aside her panties.
Her movements along the edges of her sex were slow and careful; unlike the rough thrusts the blonde suffered from her jackbooted other. Breathing faster and faster, she feverishly flipped the stiff pages and her fingers snaked closer, deeper to her core. Her mouth formed to a quiet O and her own wetness invited her between the lower lips, so gently parted.
A sudden noise, maybe imaginary, almost sent her sprawling. Hurriedly, she threw aside the magazine and jumped upright. With her heart yet racing, she again crossed the room. On the shelving she found three bottles filled with clear liquid. The alcohol would calm her nerves.