CHAPTER FIVE: "TOP FLOOR"
I
Jill woke up in a foul mood. At first, while still getting used to the daylight, as her sleepiness was subsiding, she couldn't quite put her finger on it, but as soon as she happened across the framed photo of Stuart on their bedside table, she knew. He was already busying himself in the kitchen with the morning breakfast, judging from the clatter of the dishes seeping through the bedroom's door left ajar - meaning she had some time to think on her own.
Of late, she felt progressively annoyed and frustrated - no,
fucking pissed off
! - with some things she'd been noticing about him. He was just dead gone on some of the girls at work. She didn't mind him fucking the brains out of anyone - boy, he was good at it, just thinking of last night! - but what irritated her was that he seemed to fall for them, that Cupid part of him.
There was Susan; she caught him making eyes at her at the coffee machine just last Thursday. Then Winnie, whom he directly complimented on her "starry eyes" on that same day, in Jill's own presence! And what about these girls like Jessica who he had fucked before he even got to know her? - the man couldn't even help himself telling her about her "sweet lips" and she could see how he looked at her to this day! And then, of course, there was the bloody Katie! - that long standing friend of his from God knows how long ago, with whom he shared history so long she, Jill, could not possibly compete... he certainly worshipped her. Oh, she now became his slut now and again, like that evening when she came to see him when he watched that Debbie woman make it out with Ava... and then told her all about it at home—his eyes were definitely starry then!
He simply fell too much for too many women. Physical she could handle; but any romantic feelings she fumed about! She stirred, still lying in the bed, staring blankly at the ceiling. Why can't the man just fuck them, feel nothing and love only her? Why did she constantly get the idea that he wanted to
make
love to them - certainly Katie. It was her, Jill, who was his girlfriend, wasn't she? And why on earth has he started deserting her in the bed first thing without waiting for her to wake up? A few months ago, even, he would have never done that—Should she tell him? Or just watch him more? See what he does?
"Fuck!" she cursed in exasperation under her breath.
She got up wearily and slipped her morning gown on. She walked over to the mirror and did verify the fatigue clear in her expression. She shook her head, conversing with herself in thought. "No, I am not ready for that today. I wouldn't even know what to say. Maybe it's all just in my head? Maybe I'm just making it all up? I'll wait a few days. Let's just see what happens."
Little did she know how much would change even before the same morning was over.
II
Lily was hovering on the corner of Church Lane and Grange Gardens in Pinner. It was 7 o'clock in the morning. She'd left her mum a note on the table, leaving secretly very early in the morning, claiming she had some early work at Buckley's. She knew, of course, that one call to the florist would be enough to tell that was a lie. Lily didn't care, though; she simply needed to see
him
again.
The morning breeze on this slightly overcast day pushed strands of her hair around; the braids with small pale-blue bows attached to them, which she had prepared at a ridiculously early hour, stayed in place. She wore a very elegant floral neckline dress: black at the top with pink and red roses printed at the lower end. This was the first time ever she had dressed
for
a man. She wished she could know what he liked.
After the previous night, she sensed she needed to see him again, even if he scolded her and even if Jill would be with him. She
sensed
it, not decided it. She simply needed to be here and try something; she felt it in her heart. What she would do exactly, she had no idea and her heart was pounding presto. She was determined to stand there, opposite the house, for as long as it took to see him.
Life seemed to move around her, passers-by with their cases, some dog walkers, some older children on their way to school and cars constantly whizzing by. Had she not been so preoccupied with watching the front door of the house, she would've noticed she was attracting smiles of some men not able to keep their eyes off this incredibly pretty, elegant young woman.
She had made absolutely no plan for what she'd do if her beloved and Jill would drive in a car in the morning, but she was in luck: when the door finally opened, at about 7.30am, they walked down the drive and began walking on the opposite side of the street. He was with Jill there, as handsome, or perhaps more, as the previous day. Lily felt dizzy just looking at him. They didn't see her and words stuck in her throat, petrifying her for a moment. Seeing him walk away with Jill made her fully aware of her vulnerability and it was only when they were threatening to disappear at the end of the street that she was sufficiently frightened into fast-paced walking.
It would be so terrible if she weren't able to look at him and have him look at her; if she were to lose him again. Frantically, she endeavoured to think of something to say or do that wouldn't be laughed at or scorned and when would be the best moment - and where.
Alas, the decision of where and when was made for her. In what felt like a safe distance for now, Jill, reached into her pocket, then into her handbag, searching for something. Lily only heard her sigh and then saw her stop abruptly. "Stuart, I must've have left my phone in the kitchen," she turned around, "I'll go back and—" That's when she saw the sister.
A pause. An awfully long pause where Lily was stared at with large disbelieving eyes before hearing: "What are you doing
here
, sis?"
Stuart - so this was his name! - didn't stare, but watched her with deep soulful eyes and Lily, despite suddenly being found out and anger lurking beneath her sister's eyes, felt herself blushing.