Dream Journal
July 15, 2001, Continued
I ran down the stairs, not even noticing that my sweat-soaked cotton nightgown, usually quite prim, was now nearly transparent. I heard a step on the stair, and yanked open the door without checking first.
"Bonsoir, mon cher. Comment avez-vous été?" How have I been? He shows up tonight, after that dream, and wants to know how I've been?
"Je fais bien," I replied by rote, but my mind was churning. What are the odds that he'd show up on this of all nights? "What are you doing here?" I asked him, continuing in French.
"I was called."
"Called?"
"Summoned, beckoned, pulled. Comprenez-vous?"
I started retort, but could think of nothing to say. The sensual dream he'd been very much a part of was still too fresh in my mind. As if he heard me, Emil looked me up and down, and gave me his arrogant grin.
"Were you dreaming about me, ma petite? He took a step forward, and I moved back. "Was it good?" Another step. "Was I as good as you remembered?" His voice dropped to a deep, dark note, and I backed again in response. "Does he not keep you satisfied?"
"I—I…that's none of your business!"
"But it's mine," Another voice spoke.
"Phillip!" I squeaked, darting around Emil to his side. Rather than taking me in his arms, though, he looked down at me with hard eyes. "What is he doing here?"
"She called me," Emil supplied helpfully.
"I did not!" Both men simply stared at me. "Okay, so I had this strange dream."
"Dream? How very Freudian.'
"Shut up, Emil. It's just a dream. It doesn't mean anything. Phillip and I are very happy together. You are a bastard, and I'm delighted to be without you."
"Then why are you dreaming about me?" he asked me seductively in French, which he knew Phillip didn't speak. "Did I screw you to the mattress? Did you call out my name when your new husband fucked you?"
"No," I drew back and hissed. It was too close to the truth for comfort. "Get away from me."
"You heard her," Phillip said, now staunchly at my side. "We're very happy together, and you are not needed."
"Prove it," Emil challenged.
"Huh?" I asked.
"Pardon?" Phillip looked equally confused.
"Touch your wife. Delight her. Bring her to la petite mort, climax. If you can, I will leave."
"We have no desire to flaunt our most private lives in front of you. Get out."
"You may not, but she does. Look at her face. Do you really have any idea of what goes on behind, in that wicked little mind?" Phillip turned to face me, hurt written across his face. Both sets of eyes bored into my head, Emil's triumphant, Phillip's wounded. "Tell me, little man, have you ever taken her arse? It's a plump little morsel, delicious, tight, and dark. She bucks like a little filly when you shove into her there, and she's on all fours beneath you. She loves it."
Phillip began backing away from me as if I were diseased. I whirled on Emil. "Shut up! You just shut up! God, you are such a bastard, Emil. Did you have to ruin this for me, too? Weren't you satisfied with making my life with you miserable, now you have to make my life without you miserable, too? Get this, I love him! So not everything is perfect. It's still exactly how I want it to be. Phillip loves me, and I love him. Not everything is fucking and screwing with him. We make love, Emil. A concept that you are unfamiliar with."
"And does he make you cum?"
"Of—"
"Honesty, dear. No one in this room will benefit from a white lie now."
I turned to look at Phillip. "Answer the question," he said, his voice harsh. Even as a pang shot through my heart, I felt a shiver of desire. I'd never seen him so forceful before.
"Sometimes I come," I said, still looking right at Phillip. "His tenderness delights me."
"But not all the time, does it? Sometimes you want to be taken like an animal, don't you?"
"God, no, Emil! Will you go now? I've answered your question."
"But I'm here to help, darling. Lover boy there may be the best in other ways, but he falls short in the bedroom, and I'm here to ensure that it doesn't happen again."
"Good deeds, Emil?" I sneered.
"Oui," was his only answer. "Now, both of you strip off."