Three weeks have passed since I first discovered that my flatmate is actually my favourite erotic audio creator, and we were both correct - me, when I said things would change, and Tom, when he predicted they'd be for the better.
The next time he records an audio, it doesn't exactly go to plan. I lounge on his bed, listening in as he reads back through his notes, narrating an outrageously hot encounter into the microphone. My assurances that I'll behave myself don't last long, and Tom looks back over his shoulder to see me naked from the waist down. He trails off mid-sentence, watching my fingers slide rapidly up and down my glistening slit, bent legs spread wide.
"Fuck this." He growls, wrenching off his headphones and throwing himself on top of me.
The following evening I'm on the couch catching up on some life admin when he emerges from his room, his wireless headphones in hand.
I glance up, curiously. "Everything okay?"
He doesn't reply, but takes my laptop out of my grip and places it carefully aside. He slides the headphones over my ears and something's already playing over the Bluetooth. After a few seconds I realise what it is, and my body flushes with heat - in the moment, Tom had neglected to stop his abandoned recording, so our fucking was caught on file.
I feel my pulse quicken as the noise of our moans fill my ears - I'm already familiar with the sounds Tom makes in bed by now, the creaks of the bed and the slap of skin, but to hear my responses, my desperate little whines as he praised how well I was taking him, adds a whole new erotic layer.
I'm so distracted that it takes me a few seconds more to realise Tom is on his knees in front of me, tugging me to the edge of the couch and pulling down my underwear. His head disappears under the hem of my skirt and my eyes flutter closed as he begins to lap reverently at my clit.
My recorded self and I orgasm in stereo.
We have sex most days, learning through practice what the other likes. Tom relishes in my submissive side, knowing that a well-timed spank or pinning my arms above my head sends me absolutely wild. He, I quickly discover, is a born performer. Our live-streamed fuck should have been my first clue, but I soon pick up on how he seems more encouraged the more vocal I become, the more I tell him how good he feels, how big he is, how nobody's ever fucked me like this in my life...
And, of course, I have my go-to when he's in my mouth, using
that
vein as an instruction manual. That's practically his self-destruct button.
In the space of three weeks, we've managed to fuck in every single room in the flat, trying out a wide range of positions. Tom has a book he purchased when he first started out in audio, for research, he claims, and we're working our way steadily through it.
We haven't really put a name to what we are. Fuck buddies, maybe. He has his life and I have mine, and we rarely talk about anything outside of bedroom matters. After that kiss in my bed, we've generally avoided mouth to mouth contact in favour of mouth-to-literally-everywhere-else. Tom referring to me as his roommate on the stream resulted in a tonne of 'oh my god, they were roommates' jokes, but I don't mind at all. The lack of expectation results in a refreshing lack of pressure. We're two people who fuck, and we fuck good. Afterwards we go back to whatever we were doing before, with the same courtesy of two people who happen to share a living space.
Maybe it's the endorphins, but I feel better than I have in years. I feel confident, sexy, more comfortable with my body than I have for a long time. The others at work have noticed that something has changed, and take great delight in teasing me about the 'new mystery man' in my life.
"There's
got
to be someone." Ashley from the next desk over demands. "Look at you, you're practically glowing! Now there is a girl who is getting some quality dick on the regular."
"Ashley!" I'd squeaked, and then we all shut up as our department manager burst into the room, demanding the latest updates (and certainly NOT the ones about my sex life).
"Have you told anyone about us?" I ask Tom that night. I'm in his room, in his bed, naked, but we haven't really decided on what we want to do yet. I've become very comfortable being naked around him, thinking nothing of walking around the flat in nothing but a short towel after a shower.
I realise with this question I'm stepping into risky territory, tempting some revelatory stuff about our lives outside this flat. But if Tom feels wary, he doesn't show it. "Mm." He nods absently from where he's propped up beside me, the bed covers roughly draped over his hips. "Just Theo."
The name is new to me. I tilt my head curiously; "Who's Theo?"
Now Tom hesitates, his cheeks colouring a little as he stammers a reluctant chuckle; "He's kind of like my mentor."
I roll onto my stomach and look up at him. "He's a designer?"
"No, he's uh-" Tom smirks, "He's...like me. Smutty bastard, or 'adult entertainer', as he likes to put it, the pretentious sod. Although he doesn't just do audio, he's uhh..." He laughs again, gesturing vaguely. "He's a polymath, I'll put it that way. If I told you his handle, you'll definitely have heard of him." He glances aside at me and lightly strokes my hair. "You're curious tonight."
Now I'm the self-conscious one. "Sorry," I mutter, folding my arms and resting my chin on them. "It's just - well, it
is
curiosity. I haven't told anyone yet, but the people at work think I've got some secret casanova I'm not telling them about."
"Don't you?" He laughs, "They're pretty much on the money there!"
"That's not what I meant, don't be a smartarse!" I roll my eyes, but I can't help smiling. "They're thinking like..."
"Like a boyfriend."
God, I'm so glad he said it. I purse my lips. "Yeah."
He nods slowly. "Easier to explain than flatmates with benefits."
"Exactly."
He tilts his head back against the headboard, looking relaxed. "We do our thing, though. And it works. It's nice to have someone who... I don't know, who doesn't judge my desires...?" He frowns and looks back at me, "Are you happy, Steph?"
"Yes," I say it without thinking, but I mean it. "I am. Are you?"
"Yeah. I am."
Something alarmingly like a
feeling
flickers in my stomach, so I change the subject rapidly. I sit up and lean into him, pressing a kiss to his shoulder. "Tell me more about Theo."
Tom casts an admiring glance down my bare torso and throws an arm around me. "He was actually an escort, back in the early two thousands, but once audio porn took off, he was one of the first to recognise its potential, and he's got a great voice for it. Had an OnlyFans before it all went to shit."
I give Tom a knowing look. "Is he hot?"
He groans, "As a heterosexual man, I can confirm that Theo is not hideously deformed." When I raise my eyebrows at him, he laughs, "Okay, if I had to pick a guy, it'd be him."
"How on earth did you meet?"
He starts idly drawing circles on my shoulder with his fingers, looking out ahead; "I'd just started out in audio and I joined a forum looking for advice. The forum's long gone now, got culled in some weird server clean up, but there were a couple dozen of us on there, getting feedback and being able to talk without worrying someone was going to judge us." The circles falter slightly. "I - uh - I had a casual personal tragedy, as you do so me, being the mature, coping adult, got shitfaced drunk, went online and started spilling my guts in the forum chat. Theo reached out - he'd gone through something similar. He... he got me through, basically. And he's a great guy, so we stayed friends and he's looked after me and given me a lot of advice about the business." The last few words have a lightness forced back into them.
I feel my brow crease in concern, but sense it's not the time to press the whole 'personal tragedy' thing. "And you told him about us?"
"I tell him most things, to be honest." He looks at me suddenly, eyes wide, "Was that okay? Shit, I didn't think - it's just it's always been different with Theo, nothing's off limits-"
"It's fine." I cut in. "I mean it. It sounds like he's in a pretty good place to understand and not get all judgy about it." Unlike some people in my life I could definitely think of.
"He's the least judgy person I've ever met. You'd really like him," He smirks and rolls his eyes, voice deepening. "Women tend to like him a
lot."
"Really? So, uh..." I run my hand down Tom's chest, over his stomach and finally reach his cock. He watches it the entire way down and a smile tugs at his mouth as I begin to stroke him to stiffness. "What exactly
did
you tell him?"
He quickly starts to harden. "I told him...ah..." His head falls back, lip caught in his teeth, "He's known for ages that I thought you were really hot...kept telling me to make a move...I thought you were too uptight-"
"Choose your next words very, very carefully." I say at once, taking a slightly firmer grip.
"I was wrong! I was very wrong!" Tom replies quickly, laughing. "Anyway, I..." he sighs in pleasure as I run my thumb over his tip, "ahhh...we met up not long after you and I first started fucking and when he asked, like he always bloody does, if I'd made a move...I said yes, in a way. I told him we'd been banging each other's brains out on a regular basis."
"Poetic." I snort. "But accurate." I increase the pace and hear a hiss escape Tom's clenched teeth, his hands curling into fists in the sheets.
"Told him," He gasps, breath quickening and tone becoming strained, "Told him you were the best fucking lay I've ever had. That you suck cock like a pro and - oh fuck,
Steph
- and your tits, holy fuck, your perfect tits..."
I smirk, watching him intently as his voice shakes and his member twitches in my grip. "And my sparkling personality?"
"Ha! That you're a needy little brat," He groans, "A fucking minx with the vocabulary of a pornstar, and a degradation kink." His hips tilt as he moves to thrust into my hand and a moan catches at the back of his throat. "Oh god, Steph, don't stop."