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"If all parties involved are mature adults who willingly take full responsibility for their actions and voluntarily engage in a given form of sexual expression - even if it is generally considered taboo - then there is no reason for them to suppress their sexual inclination." -Anton LaVey
*****
The morning went by like a typical work morning. Alice put a pot of coffee on as I jumped in the shower to wash off the remnants of sex and sleep from the night before. Conversation was normal and everything felt like what she had stated last night didn't even happen. The back of my mind spun like a ferris wheel in high winds on the other hand. Her words echoed in the back of my head and my emotions still felt exasperated at my revulsion of the thought and how much it was a turn-on in the same sense. The drive to work only exacerbated the turmoil as I tossed and turned the idea over relentlessly till I got to my destination and caught Greg getting out of the car.
"Dude, you have to help me here," I stammered.
"What do you want me to do?" Greg looked bewildered, "She really sat you down and told you this?"
"Yes man! We got done, you know, and she said she wanted to confess something. Look, I love Alice and all, but I don't know if I could let another man do that. Wouldn't that make me gay?" I said.
"Dude, I'm not really the one to be asking that. I don't judge regardless who or what you are. Regardless, what does it matter what you do behind closed doors?" he questioned.
"What? Dude, she wants another guy to suck me off and she wants to watch," my voice quivered.
"So! A mouth is a mouth and if it's to please or to be pleasured then what is stopping you? Society? Religion? Or just your own self-confidence in not knowing who you are?" he lectured.
"I never really considered any of that nor had I ever really thought about it," I said.
"Then before you ask advice you need to find yourself dude. You need to find out what is the issue. Who knows where your mind will take you," he said. "Look, I know it was a bombshell and all, but lunch break is over and I really need to get these reports to Frank before he rides my ass again about late reporting. Mull it over and figure out you man. It's nothing, I promise."
The sudden realization my lips were dry and my heart thumped out of my chest, irritated my nerves further on the fact I still didn't have an answer to my question. Was I wrong to feel turned-on, excited, sickened and nervous over Alice and I's pillow talk?
*****
A quarter past five, rush hour was in full swing. Three exits up sat an over turned tanker and I was stuck smack dab in the middle of it. The sweltering temps outside the air-conditioned car, spiked the thermometer to a mere one hundred and five with a heat index of one hundred and fifteen. The afternoon news report blared from the speakers as I tried my damnedest to drown out the thoughts rolling through my head. Alice, in all her cute after sex glow, had rolled over with the orgasm still glazing her eyes. Curling up to my chest she had whispered softly into the nuzzle of my neck.
"Can I be honest with you babe and really trust you," she whispered.
"Always babygirl. I'll never judge or think different of you. That I can promise," I reassured.
"I have to tell you since it's all I can think of. You have fantasies, don't you?" she questioned.
"Of course, babe. We have talked about them a little," I reminisced of the nights we talked about them while deep in the throes of passionate love making.
"I've been holding this one from you and it shames me to even tell you this, but I have to," she said. My ears piqued at her statement and I craned my neck to meet her eyes. "You know how much I like to suck your cock, right?"
"Yes," I replied.
"And you know how much I like to do that when you are tied to the chair, right?" she squinted.
"Yes," I stated.
"I want to watch another guy suck you in that position while I lay on the couch and finger myself," she burst out.
"Really?" the disbelief rushing across my face.
"I'm sorry baby, I know you probably think I'm sick or crazy, but I really want to watch it. I think it would be hot as fuck," she purred into my chest.
Like an ice sculpture in the middle of Antarctica, I was frozen solid. I had never, not even once, considered the thought of having any kind of sexual relations with another guy and here my wife is asking me if I would be cool with another guy swallowing my rod. The jolt of emotions that coursed through my veins made my dick solid and my stomach uneasy. I kissed her forehead and reassured her that I didn't think she was crazy or sick that she thought the way she did. I instead, gave her a quick peck and told her I would consider it before I pulled her close and fell fast asleep from exhaustion.
*****
Greg had been one of the first interns to shuffle through the process and actually succeed in getting a position where as I was a direct transfer from a sister site at about the same time. Greg and I kicked it off fairly quick and we both ended up hanging out quite frequently during lunch. The typical ESPN talks, video games and the occasional weekend escapades would make an appearance while we stewed over whatever lunch we brought for the day. Greg was a tall, athletic forty-year old who spent most of his time cycling the Brazos Valley or travelling to distant cities. His Italian decent clearly showed from his thin face, set jaw and olive complexion even in the dead middle of winter. His forearms were like hammers and his legs bulged through the tailored slacks he strutted around in. The office peacock as he was called due to his vibrant choice in ties and vests. Greg was always fascinating and his attitude with is wealth of insight drew me to him and soon becoming one of my best friends.
Figuring he would have some sort of insight into my situation, I had stopped him right before work to lay it on him and see what his consensus would be. Instead, I was left with more questions than answers and worse of all, my mood would surely set off alarm bells with Alice. I had tried to find him at lunch, but alas he was once again out with a client. The buzzing in my pocket snapped my attention back to the real world as I pressed the phone key and brought it to my ear.
"This is Mark from R&L Law Firm, how can I help you," I recited.
"Dumb fuck, pay attention, it's Greg. Of course I know who you are," he laughed.
"Sup man, sorry, I was spaced out," I said.
"No problem man, just giving you hard time. About earlier this morning, sorry I was so rushed. Boss man has been at my throat to get these reports done and he wanted them first thing in the morning. You sure you're good?" his concern poured through the speaker.
"Yeah man, I'm just confused is all," I said playing it off as nothing.
"What do you mean confused," he questioned.
"Don't judge me alright," I hesitated. "The thought of watching her pleasure herself while I'm getting sucked off sounds pretty amazing, but the whole having a guy do it is just hot and gross at the same time."
"Why is it gross," he quizzed.