September 8
Dear Diary,
It's been a long time since I talked to you, but a lot is on my mind. School has started and I am still a virgin - technically anyway. I must be one of the last virgins at our school. Judy, my best friend, did it this summer at computer camp with one of the other counselors. The way she described every little detail I knew it had to be true, leaving me the last remaining virgin I know.
My basic problem is that I'm too shy and too much of a bookworm. I don't get out much because my parents are so strict. Every time a guy starts to flirt with me I freeze up, giggle and turn red. I'm not ugly or anything - my mom says I'm pretty - and I think I have a decent body. Judy says that if she had my looks and body she'd get laid (she uses the "f" word) every night, and I'm sure she would.
Oh Diary, what am I going to do? Even though I'm still a virgin I must be oversexed. I think about sex all the time. Of course, Judy doesn't help. I still remember that day I stopped by her house and she held up two big plastic penises. Judy told me it was time to lose our virginity, and then turned on this really nasty videotape. I sat there absolutely mesmerized. I knew a little about sex, but nothing like what I saw. At first I was shocked. I told Judy it was gross and thought about leaving. Something stronger held me there and kept my eyes glued to the screen. I watched girls do things I didn't even know were possible, to one or more guys and to each other.
I had never seen a man's penis, much less a hard one. I started to get this terrible tingling between the legs and wanted to touch myself badly. I resisted as long as I could even though I noticed Judy had her hand in her jeans, which somehow turned me on even more. Suddenly my head started to spin and my body started trembling. I grabbed the couch and thrust my hips forward as ripples of pleasure surged through me. I was gushing juices like crazy and could feel my panties getting soaked.
When it was over I was really embarrassed. Judy said she had never seen anyone have an orgasm without any touching. Then she stripped off her jeans and told me she would demonstrate how to use our little "friend". Hers was blue plastic and about eight or nine inches long. She invited me to join her but I was still too embarrassed. I didn't leave either because I wanted to watch more of the movie. I kept sneaking glances at Judy who had propped her legs up on the couch and was rubbing the blue thing across her mound. I had never seen her naked and noticed how red and hairy she was down there compared to me. She lifted her butt off the couch and I could see the blue thing go inside her. She only had a little bit in her and was moving it all around while she rotated herself against it. It was really hot, and between watching Judy and the video I could feel another tingling building between my legs.
Judy was getting close to an explosion herself. That's when she grabbed the blue monster (we named it that) with both hands, pulling it out and shoving it in very hard. She let out a squeal and more of it disappeared inside her. She slid down on the couch and kept slamming it in and out until her face scrunched up and she screamed out as if in pain. Her body thrashed about as she kept slamming the blue monster deeper and deeper into her belly. She finally collapsed and slumped lifeless onto the couch.
I needed to touch myself desperately or I was going to die. I picked up my little friend (which was also nine inches but red) and slipped it inside the leg of my loose fitting shorts. When I pressed it against my panties, I hit my sensitive spot sending jolts through me up to my head. On the video there was a blond bouncing up and down on this guy's huge penis. The camera focused in on her butt. I could see him slide in and out of her as she lifted up and slammed down over and over.
I wanted to be her so badly. I leaned forward, lifted my butt off the couch, pulled my panties to the side and slipped "Big Red", as we named it later, into my opening. Holding it firmly underneath me, I pressed down against it. It slid into me until it hit some resistance. I lifted up and slammed down, squealing as I felt a little pinch. Then it slid deep inside me. I continued bouncing up and down on it while watching the girl on the video do the same. When the guy doing her pulled out and shot his stuff all over her butt, I exploded like never before. I was gasping for air as I kept gushing over and over, unable to stop slamming myself onto Big Red. I don't know how long it went on, but when I finished my shorts were a mess and I was exhausted.
Judy congratulated me on losing my cherry, but we agreed that we were still virgins until we had a real penis inside. Judy had several videos, so I took one home and spent hours with Big Red pleasuring myself over and over. It became an obsession, and I would often do it as many as six or seven times a day. Just last week I worked up the nerve to put Big Red up my other hole after watching so many of the girls on the tape do it that way. I had done it with my finger in the bathtub, and even done both holes at the same time, but Big Red was so much bigger. It was uncomfortable at first, but now I get off just as easy that way. I wish I had a brother for Big Red so I could do front and back at the same time like the girls in the video.
September 13
Dear Diary,