Chapter 6: Adding Pam to the Group and Resulting Orgy
Much to my surprise Emily had adopted and even refined my philosophy about love and extending it to the people we care about. With that as prelude she'd told me to go to work and tell Pam that I loved her. Pam had been a potential girlfriend, but we'd fallen into the role of 'fuck buddies' instead and hadn't moved too far beyond that until Emily showed up in my life and I fell in love with her. Not that I couldn't fall in love with Pam too, just that my attention was diverted for a while.
Thus, Monday on the way to work I picked up a small bouquet of flowers for Pam. She was already at her desk when I arrived. I walked up and put my hand gently on her shoulder and held the flowers out for her. She whipped her head around, her blond locks flying through the air as she tried to focus on the flowers and me at the same time. She looked almost puzzled.
I said softly so no one else in the office would hear, "I've missed you."
She sighed and looked doe eyes at me; "David ... I've missed you too. And ... and ... and ... I just don't know what to think."
"Maybe this will help," I said. I reached and took her hand, brought it to my mouth and kissed her palm and then closed her fingers around the kiss. I looked her in the eye and said, "Pam, I love you."
There was a long period of silence, as she looked at me in utter disbelief. Tears formed in the corners of her eyes. Suddenly, she stood and hugged me then ran down the hall to the ladies room trying to stifle a sob. This was not quite the reaction I had expected.
I went and found a small vase and put some water in it for the flowers, and left them on Pam's desk. I was into my e-mail when Pam appeared at my door. She'd apparently regained her composure. "What about Emily?" she asked in a soft questioning tone.
"Pam, come and sit," I gestured to the chair beside my desk. "We need to talk."
As Pam said, I began, "Emily and I just spent about two weeks together and we're very happy together." Pam was taken back. The paradigm I was presenting her with clearly didn't work on her internal computer.
"But you just told me you loved me," Pam said.
"Yes, and I do. I also love Emily. And, I've met two very special women in Kansas City that I also adore." I paused and could see Pam was very confused.
I went on, "Pam, I'm not messing with you. All I'm doing is showing you that there is another way besides 'exclusivity' in deep relationships. I am committed to each of them but that doesn't mean we own each other nor does it mean one of us is subservient to the others or that we control each other. Also, there's no jealousy; quite the opposite in fact, strong mutual support, love and our mutual desire to participate in each other's joy."
"I like Emily," Pam said softly as someone walked by the door. "She's all right with this? And these other friends?"
"Yes," I explained, "they all have the same feelings I do. And we love each other. Emily is very fond of you, by the way, and would like to get to know you better."
"Oh wow," Pam said. "I've got to think about this." She rose suddenly. "I'll be back," she said and walked away. I noted that she at least wasn't mad any longer -- confused perhaps, but not mad.
I turned back to my computer rather than pursue her. I'd best let her think about what we'd just said to each other. I was pleased that she was in a better mood than two weeks earlier.
I had several meetings and was running around the office worrying about staff on the two Kansas City jobs. Russ and I talked for about half an hour too. As we were parting I invited him to join Emily and me for dinner and 'whatever' after work. He looked pleased and said he would. I left a message on Emily's cell phone.
Unsolicited, Pam delivered a turkey wrap and diet coke to me about lunchtime. She gave me a big smile as she did. I rose and kissed her on her cheek; I think I made her afternoon. She pranced away clearly in happy frame of mind.
About three o'clock she came back into my office, this time sitting in my extra chair. "I have a question," she stated. I nodded and she went on, "Do Emily and the three women know about each other? That wasn't clear to me. Also, are all these relationships physical?"
"Pam, they are all physical relationships as well as emotional relationships. We care about each other. And yes, we not only know about each other we make love together -- with each other."
Pam had a sharp intake of breath. There was a silence then she got up from my chair again and moved slowly to the door. She turned and said, "Back to my 'think time.'" She went back to her desk and appeared to immerse herself in a pile of old invoices.
Half an hour later she was back at my door; "I have another question. Are you the only guy?"
"No. It's a polyamorous relationship," I said. I didn't volunteer any further information. She turned and went back to her desk.
I called Russ and asked him if I could divulge to Pam that he was part of our polyamorous relationship. He asked the predictable question about how discrete he thought she'd be with the information. I told him I believed she would keep things quiet and may even join us. I knew Russ had always had the hots for Pam so this clenched the deal.
