Cumming of Age Robbie's Pov

Tuesday April 20, 2010 10:00PM

I am sooooo tired. I can't write very much but it was a weird day and I know I promised so I'm doing it.

Laura was a total whack-job today and I had to ignore her until after practice cuz Melissa basically knows we're doing each other! I mean, not really, cuz I'm not going to tell her

that

but she was all over me in English and kept whispering if I liked kissing girls now and I just had to turn to her and ask her what the fuck her problem was and she just made stupid faces. I used to like Melissa a lot, but now that she's being such a bitch I don't even want to know her. But I did have to pull Laura aside and tell her again she was going to be punished for disobeying me and she looked down and I knew that's what she wanted and I didn't really know how I felt except when I said it I could feel the Slut Trainer® in me move a little and then I must have squeezed the butt plug too cuz it moved and I had to just leave her. So then I worried about what I was going to do to punish her.

And then I remembered I had to go over to Sir's house and then I remembered he was going to shove the bigger plug into me and I had to take this one out cuz it was in longer than it should have been and I couldn't stop thinking about the new plug all through lunch and running was a relief and finally felt like myself again. Coach was a lot happier with me and this was totally weird. I took out the ST® cuz I didn't want anything in me, but then I felt so empty I was wondering if I could run without it!!!! It's like I was starting to need these things up my holes and I guess that's what Sir is expecting, that I just learn to have stuff shoved inside me.

And I get over there and I shout I'm about to go upstairs and I hear voices in the kitchen, and Sir tells me to come in so I set the cleaning stuff down and look in and there's my mom with Sir!!! And I almost freak out but I work really hard not to say anything stupid and go give her a hug and just start moving shit around the kitchen like it needs cleaning and the two of them talk as if I'm not there and I ask if he needs anything special done today like I'm the little maid I'm supposed to be. And my mom just stops me and looks me in the eye and says that she's expecting Mr. Torken to look over things next door while they're gone and that they're planning to leave Thursday not Friday and I just nod and look annoyed and tell her that nothing's going to happen and I get it and can I go to work now?

So she leaves a little pissed at me and Sir looks a little worried and tells me to not get undressed yet but then he says to strip off my pants and show him my asshole. And I'm bent over in the kitchen with the trainer still in me sort of and my underwear down to show him my ass and pulling out the butt plug and he leaves me there for a minute and I'm wondering what the fuck is going on and I'm feeling disgusting and so slutty just holding the plug and it's turning me on like what the fuck!!!? And then he comes back with the box of butt plugs and he takes the one that's been in me and looks at it after he has me take off the condom and SNIFFS IT!!! and then puts it back in its slot and pulls the next one out and tells me to push it into my ass. Only it feels a

lot

bigger but it slips in cuz the condom is all lubed and now it hurts a little and I feel my ring clenching over and over again and I must have moaned or something cuz he slapped my ass really hard and I thank him and he does it again and then my cheeks are so hot and I'm oozing around the trainer which is sort of slipping out but still in me and he tells me to get to work and I'll get the next one on Friday so I better leave this one in like he had told me AS IF I HADN'T BEEN, but I knew I couldn't say that, so I just shook my head, cuz he wants my butt hole ready for action on Saturday, WHATEVER THAT MEANS!!!!!

So I've been sore all day and it feels like I'm constantly taking a shit even without the plug in me, but I know that's not happening because I did the full enema thing tonight with Laura and even though I can't stay awake right now I better write it down.

I finish at Mr. T's and head over to Laura and my ass is sore and my cheeks are sore and I'm feeling pretty tired from the workout and I'm worrying about my mom and what she's thinking and get to Laura's and she tells me her folks are out for the evening and demands I strip off my clothes and we're going to be naked all night not just in her room. And I freak out a little cuz at school she's all puppy dog and sub and now at her house she wants to be on top and I know I've got to punish her.

"Fuck you, twat." I know I have to take control. "You

ever

talk to me like that again and you'll be so sore you won't be able to sit for a week." I was getting pretty pissed. I had set down my bag and I looked at her like 'you going to fuck with

me

?'

And she got all worried and started apologizing but I was just getting started. I told

her

to strip and present to me and spread her legs wider and bend over and grab her toes so I could inspect her and I told her after the weekend she would have to shave herself cuz I needed to see her cunt all naked and I went on and on and she started to cry a little and I watched her asshole clench and open and I knew she was totally mine. I put my hand on her cheeks and asked her what her punishment should be and she just shook her head and whimpered and told me she was sorry and I slipped my hand between her legs cuz I wanted to know if she was turned on or not and fuck if she wasn't wet! So wet I couldn't believe it and I told her that and told her to thank me for spanking her ass and I gave her five hard slaps on each side and when I was done she was really crying and her ass was totally red. I felt her up again and she was dripping down the inside of her legs so I had her hold her cheeks open and I took a snapshot and sent it to Sir and deleted it from my phone. Before I let her get down on her knees I rubbed my hand on her pussy and it was sooo wet and gross and it made me feel so fucking powerful and after she was kneeling I demanded she suck and lick my hand clean.

In the back of my head the whole time I'm just thinking about Sir and how we need to get him a video of her eating my asshole and I tell her that and tell her if she doesn't get her act together I'm dropping her and telling Mr. T. she's not worthy and she looks at me kinda funny, tears on her face and she

begs

me not to drop her and that she'll be the best twat slut I would ever have and I couldn't believe how fucking great I felt but I was worried cuz I didn't want to hurt her and I wasn't sure how she felt about all of this but I could tell it was waaaayyy different from how I was feeling.

So, I told her what she had to do. She had to get the enema bags prepared and she looked at me like I was going to shove em up her asshole and I just shook my head cuz I realized maybe she wasn't as smart as I had thought, but maybe she was sooo fucked up, so I told her to get us some tequila, but I'd learned my lesson and only had one shot. She asked if she could have another and I told her to be careful cuz I wasn't cleaning any puke up and needed her to be in top form. Anyway we went to her bathroom and she prepped the bags and I told her she had to strip off my clothes using her mouth and she just looked at me and I shrugged like 'what the fuck didn't you understand, twat?' and she untied my shoes and grabbed my socks with her teeth and had my running pants down and she was so much shorter than me she looked over at the bed and stood on it waiting for me to come over. And she knelt down on all fours like a little bitch and she lifted my top and pulled on my sports bra until all that was left was the Slut Trainer®.

She reached her mouth to the waistband and started dragging it down and couldn't get it past my thighs cuz the dildo was stuck so hard up inside me so she had to wriggle down and turned around on her back to get her teeth on the base and she pulled back until it started to slip out. She was breathing sooo hard and I knew she was breathing in my smell and I smiled, closing my legs around her head to keep her trapped there for a minute. I looked down at her and wondered if I would ever feel okay about having a girl go down on me but I saw her body and I was a little jealous at how full her breasts are but I think my legs are nicer.

I looked down between my legs and she was holding onto the dildo from the base and I told her it was her turn to clean it and I didn't even stay to watch but went into the bathroom and waited for her. "When you're finished in there, leave it on the desk and crawl in here like the bitch twat slut you are." I didn't even know what I was saying, but I leaned against her counter and watched her get on all fours and her breasts hung down and swung back and forth and she crawled to me.

I got into the tub and put my head down and my hands back to spread my cheeks so she could take out the plug and put in the enema tube. Her left hand softly rubbed my lower back and if felt so good and I could feel my asshole clenching and then she got hold of its base and wiggled it out and it hurt a little still and then her hand left and then came back and I felt the tip of the tube and then the whole thing slipped in so easy and I just imagined how open my asshole was and I asked her if it looked different and she looked down at me and nodded kinda seriously and she said it looked more open.

So, it went faster this time and we got through the first one in about 15 minutes and I told her we had to cook the last one, but we looked again at Mary's recipes in the back and she had a lot of ways to make a 'quick enema' as she called it and then we saw that we could use a syringe instead of the bags and I just kept saying 'what the fuck' but the second one was in me and it was starting to cramp and I told her we had to get down to the kitchen and do it and I barely made it downstairs before I had to go into the bathroom and she followed me in and held my face and she was standing so close I could smell her and it felt so great getting rid of that liquid and the cramping and her hands and her smell.

And yeah. So we got the third one done and we went back upstairs and spread the oils all over the condom like Sir had showed me and after it was in we did some homework while the stuff absorbed and then we decided to do it on the dining room table which was sooooo weird and wicked and I can't wait til we're having dinner there sometime and Laura will be thinking about how she pulled that plug out with her teeth and sucked that sauce out of me.

But I have to go to bed now cuz I'm totally fried.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010 9:30PM

Except for one thing there's nothing I want to write. Of course Sir had me doing missions but he doesn't know my schedule so mostly they weren't hard to do. Practice ended early so I went to Laura's house a little early and we did everything in her bathroom but my butt is pretty sore from the bigger plug and getting the enema tube in was so much easier. She was totally anxious that maybe I was hurting myself so we had to google a bunch a shit about anal plugs and being safe and we found this totally weird anal brush and she ordered it!!!

But the thing that totally freaked me out was when Laura asked how we could do this thing on Saturday if we aren't any good at acting. And the funny part was she asked it when she was pulling the butt plug out with her teeth and I was videoing her!!! And I started laughing so hard because she was totally right but at the same time she was doing the nastiest porn I'd ever seen and how much acting did that really take? But she kept saying it so I made her go to some stupid porn sites and we watched how bad the acting was and I kept saying that Mr. T. said this was high-end shit and he knew we weren't actresses so I just shrugged and we did our homework.

Only now I'm really curious what he and Mac could be thinking.

I'm totally wasted. It's been really hard this week doing all the shit and school and cleaning Sir's house and my asshole will never be the same, I'm certain. It feels like it's ten times bigger even though the websites say that's not how it works, but still that's how it feels, and the Slut Trainer® just keeps me on edge and its exhausting and I have to be at the house and mom and dad are screaming at each other right now as they're getting ready to pack. Mom hates to fly and it's like this every time we go on trips, only I'll be alone tomorrow and I'm sooooo happy and a little afraid cuz I'm not sure what Sir has planned for me.

Thursday, April 22, 2010 12 noon

I'm skipping school. I left the house like usual and went shopping for some stuff from Mary's recipe book to try and didn't come back until mom and dad left. Sir probably thinks I'm at school but I watched as a bunch of cars and a truck pulled up and a ton of people got out. It must be the crew or something. I just stood there hiding at the closet window even though nobody could see me even if they looked up. I used to look into Anney's room from here and we'd write notes on paper and she was always so happy and then she died and looking over there made me feel soooo sad and lonely and weird cuz we really hadn't been friends since high school started and I hadn't looked across the yard from here since I can't remember when but still we had been friends and then I thought about Mary and Sir and what kind of shit they were into and I wondered if mom and dad were kinky somehow and it grossed me out thinking about it.

I've been in the kitchen all morning re-reading Mary's recipes more carefully. When Laura and I were reading it we saw how stupid Mr. T. had been in suggesting the cornstarch thing except it smells like cum and I love that!!!! But Mary didn't use cornstarch at all unless it was an emergency and she had all sorts of warnings about allergies and shit. She talked about

potato

starch a lot though and who had ever heard of potato starch so when I went to the store today I got some but I don't really know why any starch is necessary but I tried all sorts of things, like not using it, or using more of it and cooking it longer and after an hour or so I'm getting it. Mary mentions why she uses starch, and I looked it up so I know a little bit more. It helps keep the essential oils mixed with the water, and maybe helps with absorption, so I've even tried some with different thicknesses to see if it'll still flow as easily, and how long it takes to absorb, but I'm probably not leaving it in long enough and I'm not measuring anything coming out…that's too gross! But I'm starting to see why Mary's recipes were what they were and I think I'm getting it down. I'm making notes on the pages Sir copied for me.

And Laura and Melissa and Shauna have been texting me all morning and I told them I was skipping and just needed some time alone and only Laura gets it but even she doesn't really get it. She told me she was coming over and I told her no, but she said she'll be at Sir's around 1PM and I got pissed, but I don't know if he told her to come so I can't tell her not too. And I've been careful not to go into my room cuz Sir will see me and he's been running all sorts of missions and I had to figure out how to take photographs where he can't see I'm home and I almost came it took so long and my pussy is soooo wet and swollen and I just looked at my clit and it's red and soooo sensitive. He's such a fuck. But I have to get over there if I'm going to be there before Laura. FUCK!!!!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Friday, April 23, 2010 1:00AM

I'm a whore now. I'm crying and I can't believe what happened today, but I can't say I'm not a slut now because $500 is sitting on my desk AND IT'S BECAUSE OF WHAT THEY MADE ME DO! I thought I was a disgusting cum slut cunt before this, but now I can't pretend I'm not a prostitute. I'm really really tired and I wish I could just go to sleep, but I can't sleep BECAUSE SIR MADE ME A WHORE TONIGHT!!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK! What can I do??????!!!!

I have to go to school tomorrow!!!! FUCK it's actually today!!!! but I'm too fucked up to go to bed yet shit shit shit shit fuck!

I'm crying cuz I know I can't say I'm not a slut now, but I'm also so turned on too…and I don't have to be at school until 10, so maybe if I just write this all down I can get to sleep…and I'm worried about Laura. She's still over there!

So I show up after lunch time, maybe it was 12:15, I just wanted to get there before Laura did. When I walk in there were a bunch of guys, and a few girls in Mr. T's living room and I got a little scared cuz I knew he would expect me to strip. He was a little surprised to see me so early but I told him I was too excited about the weekend to stick around school and he just looked at me kinda weird. He could tell I was a little worried about everyone and he just said 'might as well get used to it cuz you won't be dressed most of the weekend' and I felt my pussy clench around the dildo and my asshole clench around the butt plug and my clit just seemed to be sooooo swollen.

I go upstairs as usual and come down and head into the kitchen. I still had the Slut Trainer® on, cuz Sir hadn't told me to take it off, and nobody said anything except they all stared at me. But actually, that's not what happened at all! I thought they were staring at me, but they didn't at all! Except like every guy, they stared at my breasts and they looked at the Slut Trainer®, and the girls just nodded and made comments to each other, but mostly they just asked my name and introduced themselves. Sir came up to me and told me to take off the trainer and I stood in the kitchen and pulled it down and it made a slurping sound and then it felt like everyone was staring at me when I pulled it out of my pussy and I was so embarrassed and shy I could tell my face was beet red but I was sooooo wet and everyone could see how wet I was cuz the dildo was all shiny and even some juices hung off it and it was totally gross. But of course he was showing me off and he made me suck it and everyone stared and nodded and made comments comparing me to other girls they'd been filming and I could tell Sir was really pleased. But it wasn't like they were lining up to fuck me, like Jeffery or Greg or his brother's roomies. They were just taking notes or thinking about the 'shoot.' I can't get that word out of my head I heard it so much today.

There was a group sitting around the table in the nook with plans and pens and they were talking to Sir and I wanted to know what they were thinking for the shoot but I had to clean the kitchen and I could only make out a little of what they were saying. What I could figure out though was Sir had made a deal with some gym somewhere and they were going to get all the stuff set up

tomorrow

TODAY! and possibly do a technical

tomorrow

tonight whatever that means and I wanted to know if Laura and I were supposed to be there, but I didn't dare ask him right then cuz he looked really tired and I didn't want him to punish me with all those guys there, but the funny part was I was more worried about the girls! But I couldn't stop looking at the guys' zippers and thinking about sucking them off and it made my nipples hard and it was soooo distracting.

And then the doorbell rang, and a couple of seconds later Laura came in and she looked at me and at all the people and Sir told her to get undressed and help me with the cleaning and she didn't look really upset like I thought she would but then I remembered she had been to lots of parties with the team and probably had gotten undressed in front of a bunch of horny guys a lot of times. But I could tell she was a little afraid even though I don't think anyone else could tell cuz she wasn't like hiding herself or anything but she definitely didn't say anything and I could tell she was trying not to look at them.