I wasn't even really in the mood to go out, but after about two solid hours of begging from Jenny, I'd finally decided to go. There were only two or three people I knew going to this party, but Jen was convinced it was going to be the greatest night ever, so eventually, I'd dragged myself out.
With the kind of mood I was in, I wasn't feeling too sociable, but I settled into a seat in the living room with my bottle of wine and tried my best to make the most of it. Lots of people were coming and going through the room and a few stopped to chat with me, but I'm hardly the life and soul of the party at the best of times, so none of them hung around too long. Jenny had long since disappeared upstairs with some guy - Dave, I think - who'd been the main reason she'd wanted to be there in the first place. I was feeling a bit jealous and unwanted. It had been months since I'd had any kind of action, and knowing she was just a few yards away, probably getting the fuck of her life, only made my frustrations grow.
To make things even worse, there was one guy who'd been in the room, sitting almost directly opposite me the whole night who I really quite fancied. I'd met him a couple of times before, but didn't feel comfortable enough with him to actually go over and talk to him. His name was Mark, and he was a friend of a friend of Jen's. I even thought I noticed him looking at me a few times, but every time I caught his eye, he shyly turned his eyes away. I really wanted to talk to him, to get to know him a bit better, to find out if he really was checking me out, but I was at least as shy as him, and it seemed so much safer just to carry on drinking and let my imagination do all the work. As usual.
I ended up getting quite tipsy. Quite a few people had either gone home by now or decamped to one of the 4 bedrooms, and in the living room there was only me and half a dozen guys. Mark was the only one I knew at all, and the others were getting a bit lairy. As always seems to happen, the conversation was turning to sex, and at last, someone tried to involve me in the conversation. It started off straightforward enough; the guys went round the room asking everyone how many people they'd slept with, their favourite positions and that sort of thing. I was starting to get wet as I remembered different things I'd done, from the first time I'd ever given head, to the first time I'd had sex, to that time with my last boyfriend when I gave him a sneaky handjob on the bus home from a club late one night. Things started to get a lot more interesting when one of the guys asked his friends who at the party they most wanted to fuck. All five guys said they wanted Jenny. Bastards! Didn't they know how I felt? I knew from some of the things she'd said to me that she probably wasn't even very good. She hated sucking cock, which I loved, and she was so selfish. I wanted so much to prove to them that they were making a terrible mistake, and that fucking me would be so much better. Then they asked Mark. He looked into his drink as though it were a magic 8 ball that would tell him the answer, then he slowly raised his eyes and looked right at me. He started to speak and stuttered slightly before finally locking his eyes on mine and saying softly "I want to fuck her."
I gulped. Blushing, I put my head down and tried to collect myself. I hadn't been ready for that at all. I glanced up at him but he was already staring back into his drink, as if he too was embarrassed by what he had just said. The others thought this was hilarious. "Oh come on love, don't you want to tell Mark how much you want to fuck him too?" said one. "Yeah, the poor lad wants to fuck you - don't you want to help him out?" The combination of the wine, the thoughts I was already having and now this surprising, sexy revelation from Mark sent my mind spinning. I stammered, trying to respond, but I had no idea what to say. I was still a little embarrassed, but at the same time my confidence had just got a huge lift, and I could feel myself getting wetter and wetter at the mere thought that this gorgeous man wanted me.