After my girlfriend had found me having sex with a girl in my backyard she wouldn't even speak with me for a month. As in most cases you'd expect the girl you cheated on to scream and chastise you for days before not speaking to you anymore. Her friends just said that she was incredibly hurt and that she didn't say anything about me when I questioned them. They told me what they thought of me though.
The other girl, Jessica, I broke off our 'affair' a few days after we were caught. I felt terrible and did regret what I had done but thought that it wasn't the end of the world. Anyway, the first time that I spoke to my ex-girlfriend was at an anti-war meeting at school. The United States had invaded Iraq and the Canadians were having no part in it. Jessica and I shared many views and still would go to the meetings that I helped organize and speak at, it's actually how we met.
After one I approached her and she finally agreed to speak with me about what had happened. Of course I apologized profusely and said all of the typical, "I made a mistake... Men are fools... You are the most amazing person I've ever known..." lines. She said that she felt so hurt that she couldn't even stand to see me to tell me how worthless I was. I told her that I felt worthless and that we should go somewhere to talk about what had happened.
We went for a walk in the cold Nova Scotia winter night through the streets of Dartmouth. It was a bearable temperature, about 0 degrees Celsius with no wind chill. Jessica was wearing a heavy black button-down peet coat and the scarf and mittens I had gotten her a few years ago. Her face was unsmiling with a trace of lip gloss, or it might of just been lip balm, on her cute little shiny mouth.
I told her how I was at that party and how I felt so lonely, and so horny, and how I was just sitting downstairs watching TV as the party went on upstairs. I told her how much I missed her and of how Jessica came downstairs and how I stopped her from kissing me the first time. But how I couldn't stop myself and finally kissed then slept with her. By now Jessica's eyes were watering and asked me if I was still having sex with the other girl.
I told her that I never did sleep with her again after we were caught, and of how horrible I had felt up to the moment that I could talk to her again. Jessica told me that she was so angry and hurt that she couldn't leave her dorm room or do anything for weeks. I really did love her and I told her that I would do anything to gain her trust back.
After we had talked for a while I walked her back to her room and asked her if I could see her again, just as a friend, and for some reason she agreed. I was pretty good friends with her suitemate Melissa so I would come over with her on my side and the three of us would watch TV or go out together. I had been such good friends with Melissa that she told me that she thought what I had done was horrible, but after I had talked to Jessica she was friendly again.
Melissa and I had gone out a few times before I knew Jessica, and when I met Jessica I had told Melissa that I couldn't see her anymore. I still hung out with Melissa so much after that while I was dating Jessica that the two of them became best friends and lived together the next year. Melissa was just incredibly cute, she was maybe 5 foot 3 with the nicest round little bottom that I think I've ever seen.
So Jessica and I talked and spent so much time together the next month that she started to get more and more friendly with me and it seemed that she wanted to go out with again. You'd probably think that I'd be, "hell yeah, I love you and would give anything to go out with you again", but no, I had spent so much time with Melissa that I wanted her instead. It had been enough time after the break up of her two friends that when I asked out Melissa she said that she would love to.
After Melissa had told Jessica that the two of us had gone out a few times she changed how she acted around me and gave off an essence of "I don't care what you to do". So the relationship between Melissa and I quickly escalated and we were having sex every chance we got and made out and messed around even when Jessica was around, because she didn't really care right?
Melissa had talked to Jessica about the situation many times and said that Jessica thought that it was fine. It went on like this for a few months before Jessica started wanting to hang out with me alone and said that we were still friends so we should do stuff together. Well, I was with Melissa constantly so it was rare that I spent any time with Jessica. But we did go to a few coffee shops and some movies and Jessica started to touch my arm and run her hand through my hair like she used to do when we were going out.
I told her that I loved Melissa and that the two of us couldn't flirt or do things that we did when we were going out. She was clearly upset and was quiet for the rest of that evening. When I talked to her again she said that the two of us should get back together and that she still loved me, I told her that I loved Melissa and didn't think it would be best for us to get back together and that she should go out with other guys.