Over the past year, we've been building a very sexy friendship with our friend Jackie. I've posted some stories on other platforms but as I was writing this one, discovered that there's a lot of growth that we've all been experiencing, and I wanted to share it with this community.
Today I'm going to give a bit more preamble than I normally do, because there's a lot going on lately that I think is worth writing about. I'm going to keep it focused to things that are going on in the threesome world that Kal and I live in from time to time, specifically with our friend Jackie, who is becoming such an incredible friend in so many ways. I will eventually get to a vivid description of another threesome, so if you're lookin for the juicy bits just scroll (you impatient pervert, you).
So, Jackie. As I mentioned in my last "giggles and bits" story, this is someone we met through Reddit. We immediately hit it off both in and out of the bedroom, and we've been seeing Jackie regularly. We constantly say "we need to plan a hang that doesn't end in a threesome," buuuuuut it just keeps happening.
Jackie is great, she fits our relationship so well, Kal and her have so much in common, and we just really enjoy being silly, low pressure, goofballs together. We've also started to realize that the three of us are growing from this friendship and sexual practice in some interesting ways.
First let's talk about Kal for a sec. Kal is someone who, as long as I have known her, has been continuing to discover more about her sexuality. We have been through a lot together, ups and downs of non-monogamous practice, career navigation, even some major illness (in the rear view, all is well now), and a difficult fertility journey (hope lies ahead, but that's not why we're here). Through all of that, we've strengthened our relationship and Kal has grown more and more comfortable expressing her desires over the years. It's not something that comes naturally to her, for a million reasons, but for the sake of normalizing some of them in the chance that you, dear reader, are experiencing them yourself, I'll give you a little peak behind the curtain.
Kal has ADHD, and an off-shoot of that plus a not so happy childhood environment is something referred to as "RSD" or, Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria. Over the years before we met, she used sex as a way to validate her worth (who hasn't, really), and that plus my non-monogamous nature has lead to, in the past, some very difficult moments. The RSD can flare up over the simplest of things, for example if Kal kisses me, and on the pull back, I have a thought that is outside of that kiss and my face betrays it, she can feel deeply hurt and rejected. I'm not talking a thought about someone else or a different intimate moment, I mean something like "oh shit I need to take out the recycle." You know, life stuff. It comes up. We've both worked on it over the years, me to make sure I'm leaving space for it and doing what I can to make her feel safe in that context, and her building a practice of navigating out of that sensitivity, but it is very much that, a practice. We could write an entire blog post about this.
I share all this because I think in order to understand why things with Jackie are so good right now, you have to understand the pieces of us that she makes feel safe. Jackie has her own anxieties, and they mirror a lot of Kal's, so I'm very used to soothing those spaces, and can create a comfortable space for both of them. Consequently, Kal has someone who can share the literal most intimate space possible, and can feel validated and at ease, even with the struggles she has.
We've had lots of amazing partners over the years, and this by no means is to suggest that our play with them has been unsatisfying, far from it. It's just that we've found a real mirror in Jackie, and it adds a different layer of comfortability that helps us all come together (pun intended) and grow. It's opening Kal up to communicating thoughts I had almost given up on ever hearing from her, including, in our after glow after our most recent time with Jackie, her thanking me for introducing her to all of this (meaning non monogamy), and admitting that she feels like bisexual may indeed be the way she identifies after years of not really thinking about it.
One more piece of context before I dive in to the spicy stuff. If you've read my stuff before, you know that I absolutely love having my face ridden. Face riding is an interesting thing to try and find content for, a lot of it doesn't do it for me. So much of the porn you see that features that act is really rooted in humiliation, or smell play, or even borderline scatological. I am not here to yuck anyone's yum, but those things are not what I enjoy about the act. Here's what I love: I love the sensation of pressure on my chest. I love the experience of being on the receiving end of someone seeking their pleasure in my body. I love the sense of getting totally lost in the act of pleasuring a woman (or a man, big ol pansexual/demisexual over here). I love being able to feel the excitement and pleasure building, and how it changes the way she moves, the way she focuses her angle and weight to give her exactly the feeling she is chasing. I love the way it can feel like I'm making out with her pussy almost as reciprocally as though I were kissing her mouth. I love the way my strength allows me to lift my chest, supporting her entire weight, making her feel the solidness of my body while she focuses on her pleasure. I love the power exchange, the knowledge that at any point I could remove myself from that situation, but that I choose to be there. Maybe there's a little submission in there for me, but it isn't as black and white as a dom/sub dynamic.
And all of that is to say nothing about how much more I love it when my cock is being focused on by another lovely human at the same time... more on that later.
For me it's all very, very sensual. I wish I could find porn like that, where it's all about the pleasure. Anyway.
So I give you all that context because what is also important to know, is that for most women it is very difficult to trust that the act of sitting on someone's face is going to be pleasurable for the receiver. Body dysmorphia, weight issues, societal bullshit, all of the things can play into that. I have to imagine that anxiety is made worse by the fact that most of the porn you see featuring this act is performed by super tiny women (another reason that it doesn't work for me, I appreciate all body types but tend to pursue women with curves). There's a lot of anxiety tied up in the act of sitting on someone's face, and Jackie was no exception when we first started doing this with each other. One of the things I'm going to write about here is the evolution of her comfort with the act, leading to what happened this past weekend, where I finally felt her fully relax into the act and give me her full weight, and it was... to put it mildly, fucking delicious.
After every threesome we share, Jackie during our afterwards cuddle puddle, will cop to being ever so slightly more comfortable giving me her full weight, and trusting that Kal or I would tap out if I needed it, and it has been so much fun to be able to experience the progression each time, and to feel Jackie surprising herself with the level of pleasure she's able to experience through oral sex.
Ok. Finally, on with the actual show.
It was a Friday after a busy week, Kal had been pushing hard at work, as had I, both of us were relatively exhausted, but we were excited to have Jackie over all the same, she always helps us transition out of "work" mode and into our most authentic selves. Prior to her coming over, in our group chat, we all collectively decided it was "comfy vibes," we've reached the point in our relationship where we can all wear sweatpants and still find each other insanely sexy.
I made dinner, Jackie brought over some cocktails and some champagne (because that's officially a thing for us). If you've read my previous post, you know that we tend to get decadent with the Champagne, I had another moment of "Jesus is this my life," with a glass in my hand later that night, but I'm getting ahead of myself.