I met Felicia at a Starbucks not far from the town green. We hadn't been chatting online long before she suggested that we get together for coffee. It was great reconnecting with her on Facebook. I dated her for a few months my senior year in college, but we lost touch after I moved out to California for my first big job after graduation.
Moving back home kind of felt like admitting defeat. Sure, I got a good job based on the experience I got from working at DocuCon, but it was the burst of the Dot Com Bubble that left me jobless. And then there was my failed relationship - again, my first big one since college. Somehow, coming back east just seemed less like the return of a hero and more like a quiet defeat.
Felicia, however, was overjoyed.
"Marco!" She practically ran to the door when I walked into the cafe, burying herself against my chest in a big hug. The hug lasted long enough for me to overcome my surprise and return the embrace. Then the hug went a little longer than that. And then longer still.
Eventually I did the guy thing and patted her twice on the back to signal we're done. "It's good to see you, too, Licia."
"Come! Sit! There's so much to catch up on," she said as she took me by the hand and led me to her table. She moved her coat and bag out of a seat and then sat in the one opposite. I couldn't help but notice that her chair had a commanding view of the door. That explains how I got nailed with my surprise hug as I walked in. It was an ambush by an obviously eager Felicia. I smiled at her. It's nice to feel wanted.
"How much more is there to say?" I asked. "I think we chatted online for at least three hours the other night."
Felicia made a dismissive gesture. "That doesn't count. It's not the same as face-to-face time."
She was right, of course. I looked her over. Her hair was different, and though it was possible to see some changes over the last nine years, it wasn't easy. Same bright look in her eyes, same wide and wild smile, the same beautiful face and body. Actually, now that I think about it, it looked like her breasts had gotten a little bigger.
She cleared her throat, and I looked up from her cleavage into a smug grin. "Um, you look good, Licia," I said.
"Nice save, Marco." She wasn't angry. She was never angry when I ogled her in college, either. I spent a few years getting to know her as a friend before we started dating our senior year. There was plenty of sexual tension in the early years, but she never truly seemed to mind my roving eyes and less-than-subtle innuendo. It made me rethink the decisions I'd made all those years ago. Why wasn't I still with her?
"It's true! It's like you haven't changed a bit since college." As the words left my lips, I noticed the wedding ring on her hand. Oh yeah, that's why I wasn't still with her. "How's Carl?"
Felicia squirmed slightly in her seat and fussed with her ring. "Oh, you know Carl. He won't shut up about you being back in town. He'd be here too if he didn't have to work."
"Really? He doesn't mind that I'm... Well, I mean, things were kind of weird between us at the end." Now it was my turn to fidget.
Felicia perked right up. "What, Carl? No way! That was years ago. Water under the bridge, honestly. He's just as excited about you coming back as I am. Really, that's all he can talk about."
"That's a relief." Carl was dating Felicia before she and I got together. And when Felicia and I split up, Carl was right there for the rebound. Actually, since the two of them married soon after graduation, I should probably think of myself more as Felicia's fling than Carl's rival. Carl and I were never best buds or anything in college, but the three of us hung out together regularly, and I knew he was a good guy. He was handsome, too - the kind of the strong, silent type. Maybe Felicia landed the right guy.
"So, tell me about your time out west? What was it like? You mentioned you were seeing someone. Is she still in the picture?" Felicia asked, still spinning her ring but looking me in the face again.
"Well, no. Not still in the picture," I answered, taking a deep breath before the next part, "and not a 'she'. He's a 'he'."
I could actually see the whites around Felicia's pupils as her eyes went wide in surprise. "What? You're gay?"
"Jesus, Licia!" I hissed, "Not so loud!" I looked around. I'm sure few people in liberal Rhode Island gave a rat's ass about my sexuality, but it's still my business. "Not gay. Bi."
"No way!" Felicia's eyes were still wide, but at least she's a little quieter. "That's so cool!"
"I don't know what's so 'cool' about it. It just means that I can get dumped by both men and women. In fact, Richard..."
Felicia interrupted me before I could get into the sordid details of my breakup. "Can I tell Carl?"
"What, that I got dumped or that I suck cock?" If there were any uptight Rhode Islanders still listening in on our conversation, I might as well make it more interesting for them.
A little seat wiggling again from Felicia and she actually blushed. "Both."
She looked down at the diamond on her ring, and I noticed something. Felicia's nipples were hard! I can see them jutting out as plain as day. Is she even wearing a bra? Looking at her shoulders, I can see where the bra straps are under her sweater. It's definitely not that cold in here so she must be legitimately turned on. Today is starting to get weird.
"Well, yeah, sure. I don't see why not." I'm not exactly in the closet. My parents know, but I don't make a big deal out of it. My opinion is that being sexually attracted to someone shouldn't just depend on what they've got in their underwear. I'm actually surprised that more people aren't bisexual. Heck, I'm just as turned on now by Felicia's hard nipples as I ever was by Richard's cock.
Felicia interrupts my reverie by grabbing both my hands. "Come over for dinner tonight."
"What?" Damn, I wish this conversation would slow down a little. Between my newfound horniness and Felicia's rapid speech I'm struggling to keep up.
"Dinner. Tonight. Our place. Carl won't mind. He's dying to catch up with you." She took out her phone. "I'll call him now."
"Wait, stop! I can't tonight. I start my new job tomorrow. I need to get a good night's sleep before my big day." Felicia looks crestfallen, so I quickly say "I'd love to, just not tonight."
"Tomorrow night?" Hope springs eternal in Felicia's eyes.
"Sure." They can't expect me to stay late on the first day of work, right? And it'll be nice to unwind a little after what's sure to be a stressful experience. "I'd love to."
Felicia grabs my hand and squeezes. "Goody! Carl is going to be so thrilled!" she chirped. "Now, tell me all about this dickhead who dumped you."
Felicia and I spent the next hour talking about the nature of relationships. I told her all about Richard, how we met and how it ended. She told me about what it was like getting back together with Carl, how she missed me at first, but how she and Carl are really happy together - and how she still kind of misses me. I got a little confused about her tales of marital bliss and her lingering feelings about me, especially since she kept holding my hand. She even stroked it a little, like she used to do back in college. It's probably just an absent-minded habit by now, but back then she did it to turn me on. She'd squeeze my fingers and whisper into my ear, "This is what I want to do to your cock." Damn, she was squeezing my fingers right now, exactly the way she used to, while telling me about her and Carl's weekend stay out on Cape Cod. Leaning in, she even flashed that same mischievous smile.
"Oh!" Suddenly upright, Felicia checked the time on the outside of her clamshell phone. "I've got to get going. Carl's probably home by now. I can't wait to tell him all about our meeting. He's going to have so many questions!"
With a quick peck on the lips, Felicia was out the door. I sat wondering for a few minutes about Carl. While Felicia hadn't seemed to change much over the years, I gathered that Carl had. When I refer to Carl as "strong and silent," it's with an emphasis on the "silent." While he wasn't ever surly or rude, you'd barely get more than ten words out of Carl. He'd only smile and nod, just happy to be there. I guess Felicia's chatty nature must have loosened him up. I supposed I'd find out tomorrow night.
That night I put away a few more things in my new apartment, drank a cup of microwaved tea, and went to bed. I should have been sleeping, but my mind went back to my meeting with Felicia. God, she looked so great. Seeing her had brought back all those feelings I had for her in college. I didn't really want her for my own anymore - it didn't seem right to want to win her away from a guy she was obviously still wild about - but I still craved her. I thought about what her tits looked like under that sweater, her nipples erect as they had been in the cafe but beautiful and bare, just as I remembered them in college. And I thought about her hand stroking mine, squeezing my fingers teasingly as we talked, and remembered the way her hand felt rubbing my crotch. And I thought about the wide, mischievous smile she liked to flash before swallowing my cock.
But it was Carl's cock she was swallowing now. I wondered what that must look like and if she did the same things to him that she used to do to me. But, unlike the images etched in my mind, people change. They learn new things, they adapt to new partners' desires. Felicia must be a different lover with Carl than she was with me. Lord knows that I've changed. While I thought about same-sex encounters a lot when I was in college, I still hadn't actually been with another man. That experience, of course, definitely changed the way I thought about sex. In a lot of ways, it rewrote my definition of fucking. Well, perhaps expanded it, since I would still define what Felicia and I did in our tiny dorm room beds as fucking. I was still pondering that aspect of the definition when I drifted off to sleep.