My daughter and I walked hand-in-hand, looking for animal footprints in the snow.
"What's that one, Mommy?" Emma asked.
"Hmm, do you think it's a bear?" I teased.
"No, Mommy! We don't have bears around here."
"Probably a dog then. And what about that one?" I pointed to some tiny, pointed prints.
"A squirrel?" Emma guessed.
"Right! High-five!" I said, holding up my hand for Emma. Our gloved hands smacked together, muted by winter wear.
"Hey, it's Maddie!" Emma yelled, and ran ahead to catch up with her friend who was just getting out of the blue minivan at the side of the road. Emma and Maddie frequently shared their walks to school, giving me a chance to chat with Maddie's father Dave.
Dave was a stay-at-home dad and a writer. He had published two novels so far, and they had sold moderately well. I had read both, mesmerized by his dexterity with words, his understanding of human nature, not to mention his power to write sex scenes that rendered me instantly wet. I was fascinated by Dave's sexy braininess. I had also found that when I lay in bed at night reading his books, I was increasingly intrigued by his rugged, dark good looks, so that that all of his male leads began to morph into Dave. Walking to school beside him, making small talk about our daughters and the neighborhood gossip, I couldn't keep my mind from wandering to the erotic images he'd planted in my mind.
My husband Brian and I socialized with Dave and his wife Tracy fairly often, a friendship born of our daughters' playdates and the interests we shared. We all enjoyed good wine, good food, and good conversation. I found an easy rapport with Tracy, a high school teacher, as we talked about the latest treats we had baked or we worked on our scrapbooks together. Tracy was warm and quick-witted, with an artist's sensibility that matched her style. Half Filipino, she had lovely brown skin and impossibly dark, straight hair, razor-cut to frame her delicate face. I'd always admired her slim, limber body, so different from my own curves.
I watched for Dave to round the front of the minivan, eager to look into his sparkling deep chocolate eyes. I couldn't help but wonder how his lips would feel on mind. I'd already felt his eyes on my 36DD chest and firm, round butt a few times, enough that I sometimes called to mind the image of his appreciative looks to motivate me when I worked out.
Dave appeared from behind his van, but he didn't look toward me. Instead, he just headed off toward the school, behind the two girls. Did he not see me?
"Dave!" I called, moving quickly to catch up.
"Oh, hey," he said, turning slightly, not quite meeting my eyes. "How's it going?"
"Good," I smiled, a little concerned. "What's up?"
"Not much," he said. He glanced at me and looked back toward the kids. "You?"
"Oh, I'm fine," I said. This was odd. Dave usually seemed happy to see me, and always had something to share, a funny story or an interesting bit of information gleaned from his research for his writing. Had something happened? A fight between the kids, maybe? I looked ahead, but the girls seemed to be getting along fine, holding hands as they waited for the crossing guard to wave them across the street.
"Did you have a good weekend?" I asked, eyeing him.
Dave cleared his throat. "Yeah." He didn't ask me the same.
We finished the walk to school in silence, shepherding our daughters into their lines and kissing them goodbye. After the kids went in, I usually walked with Dave as far as his minivan, continuing our small talk. But today, as soon as the kids were inside, he started to stride away as though he had somewhere to be.
I walked slowly, watching his back. I was still trying to decide whether I should try to catch up, try to pursue the question of what was bothering him, when he stopped in his tracks and started walking back toward me. As they met, he cleared his throat.
"I'm sorry, Sally. Actually, I need to talk to you," Dave told me. "Can you go for coffee? Do you have time?"
"Sure," I said. "Should I go home and get my car?"
"No, I'll give you a ride," Dave said. "Come on."
*** At the coffee shop, after sprinkling a generous portion of cinnamon into my vanilla latte, I looked across the table at Dave. He was looking down into his black coffee, his forehead creased. I felt a little thrill of excitement: was he going to confide something in me?
"So, what's up?" I asked.
"I don't really know how to say this," Dave said, glancing quickly up at me and dropping his eyes. I waited, tilting my head encouragingly.
"Just tell me," I said softly.
"Okay. Tracy and I went out for dinner the other night. To Lulu's."
I nodded. Brian and I liked Lulu's too, a Cajun restaurant with an enormous wine and beer list. We'd been there with Dave and Tracy once.
"And . . . I can hardly believe this, Sally. But we saw Brian . . . with another woman." Dave looked up at me, his brown eyes pained. "I'm so sorry."
"Are you sure?" I asked slowly, my chest tightening. "I mean, she could've been a work client or something."
Dave shook his head. "She got into his car and before they drove away . . . we saw them kissing."
I nodded and sighed, my mind racing. This was not good news. I'd figured it might happen sooner or later, but one always hopes to avoid trouble, even the inevitable. I reached across the table and patted Dave's hand, then took a deep breath.
"Don't worry, Dave. It's not what you think."
*** I thought back to the night Dave was describing. Brian and I had arrived at Lulu's a little earlier than the couple we were meeting and we had waited nervously in the crowded lobby.
"I could use a drink," I told Brian as I looked longingly at the bar. I was always nervous meeting people for the first time. I willed myself not to pick at my newly polished nails.
"I know," he said. "Let's just give them a little more time. It'll be easier to find them if we wait here."
"You looked at their pictures again?" I asked him.
"Yeah. I'll know them."
Brian took my hand in his, caressing it gently, then raising it to his lips to kiss.
"You're amazing, Sally," he said. "And you look gorgeous."
I glanced down at my sexy but understated outfit: black miniskirt, high-heeled black boots, and a sheer purple lace blouse made slightly more modest by a soft black cashmere cardigan.
"Thanks, Baby," I said. "You're the best."
I leaned against Brian's muscular chest, trying to relax. Not much time passed before Brian recognized an attractive couple, their hair and coats sprinkled with snow.
"Jeff? Janet?"
"Heyyyy," the two said, as we all four looked each other over appreciatively. "Sally and Brian?"
Jeff was about my height. He was bald and rather angular, his face warmed by kind blue eyes that shone when he looked at Janet. His smile was easy and his manner comfortable. Janet, who couldn't have been more than five feet tall, had soft red curls that cascaded over her shoulders. Her eyes, also blue, were startlingly vivid. She'd worn a black bustier that enhanced her cleavage, topped with a flirty ruffled pink cardigan that added a layer of innocence to her outfit. Her bosom looked soft and creamy, adorned by a whisper of freckles.
Brian signaled the hostess that our entire party had now arrived, and she led us upstairs to a table. It wasn't a particularly private table, but we'd be able to have a conversation. Brian and I sat on one side of the table, with Jeff facing me and Brian facing Janet.
Brian was already hitting it off with Jeff, talking football. While the guys talked, I noticed how Janet caressed Jeff's shoulder and looked up at him adoringly, while occasionally stealing glances at Brian and me. Good, I thought. They have a strong connection. I squeezed Brian's thigh under the table, a private signal: so far so good. He squeezed back, his fingers lingering on the inside of my thigh.