I had been lost in the woods for more than two hours when I finally saw the gate of the infantry brigade's garrison I was stationed in. It was about 1.30 in the morning and the silent emptiness surrounding me felt ghostly and hostile. It was snowing heavily. I had left my coat - and along with it my wallet containing all my money and papers - and my fur hat in the bar I was thrown out of, and I was cold, sick and exhausted. A statue of a drummer-boy stared me from the blizzard with its eyes of stone. It obviously had no understanding for those who break the rules. But I didn't care. I just wanted to fall asleep as soon as possible and forget my existence for a change.
A tall, slim MP corporal was standing guard over the gate. The sight of his special MP camouflage uniform made me instantly feel, unbelievably, still a bit worse.
"Private, you're REALLY late", he said. "Let me see your conscript's card."
"I lost it", I replied.
"You lost it? JUST STAY WHERE YOU ARE!" he ordered as I was just going to keep on walking towards the hut of the 2.nd company. He grabbed my shoulder.
"MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS, ASSHOLE!" I yelled and tried to punch him in the face.
He managed to avoid my fist but then slipped and fell backwards on the icy ground. Another MP came running from the MP hut and quickly and efficiently the two of them knocked me down and handcuffed me. One of them lifted me up by my collar and the other one kicked me in the stomach. After that I just lay for a few seconds motionlessly on my back, watching the sharp treetops, which were pointing at the white, uninterested sky. Then I was taken away.
After being locked up in a cell I couldn't sleep, after all. I sat on the concrete floor and leaned my back to the wall. I could hear a door being banged somewhere near - probably, I thought, with a head - and obscene, furious comments being shouted. Someone was laughing endlessly and screaming the words of the national anthem. "A madhouse", I thought. "And I'm one of the madmen." I started to feel real melancholy, and I could feel tormenting self-pity rising somewhere inside me. I was a lonesome loser.
This side of life was the one I knew too well. Although I probably had something that could be called intellectual potential - at least my grades in the university I studied in before leaving to do my national service were, to be honest, quite brilliant - something in me always got me in serious trouble. I had the ability to concentrate well and to work hard to achieve my goals, and I knew I had something like a kind, understanding personality. But all too often it was like the hand of destiny would have grabbed my throat and ruined it all. I was somehow too restless to live properly, and I knew it. "Jails, madhouses, graveyards", I thought, "they're the right places for me and my kind." After a few attempts to cry and to pray, attempts that were bound to fail, I floated off to sleep.
I woke up when someone was caressing my hair.
"Are you awake?" someone asked me.
"Yes", I said.
I felt someone's lips closing on mine, and what followed was a warm, tender, forgiving kiss. I was lying on my back and a hand was slowly, comfortingly moving on my chest; a body was tightly pressed against mine on my left hand side. Then I felt someone on my right hand side, too, as another mouth touched my cheek and kissed it lightly several times, and finally I could feel a tongue tickle slowly and sensually my ear. And the first mouth just kept on kissing me on the mouth patiently, without any hurry, demanding nothing. The scent of shampoo, soap and two different perfumes made me feel a bit weak. My head was aching little.
As I opened my eyes I was relieved to see that at least the person kissing my lips was a woman - not for example the perverted MP staff sergeant I had heard so much about. She was so close, though, that all I could see was her closed eyes and her white, shining skin. But when she saw my open eyes she slowly broke her kiss and leaned a bit backwards, smiling at me. Her hand caressed the back of my head. I thought I was going to faint when I saw how beautiful she was. She had bright, extremely pale blue eyes, long and thick eyelashes and a small nose, which was pointing a bit upwards. Her full lips were painted blood red; her hair was, as her skin, really blonde and soft-looking. She was dressed also in a blood-red, expensive-looking bra, which covered her unbelievably large breasts. I could see the skin of her areolas through the thin material. "Her name must be Sonya", it thought.
"Why don't you get up", Sonya said, still smiling, "so that I can take off your clothes."
Only when I got up I realized that I had been laying on a large double bed with soft, clean, white sheets. I looked around and found out that I was on some kind of a field with absolutely nothing special in sight: no houses, no trees, no hills. Nothing. Just endless plains of rusty sand. The sky was clear, black and full of stars. There were four dim lamps burning around the bed. And in the bed there was lying another girl, and she too was smiling at me. She had a shoulder-length light brown hair; she was smaller, slimmer and obviously younger than Sonya, perhaps more the girl next door -type than her almost supernaturally gorgeous friend, but by no means less attractive. She had a really slim waist and lovely, middle-sized breasts in a white, lacy bra. I thought: "Her name must be Tonya."
Sonya was sitting at the edge of the bed and pulled me closer.
"Let's take this awful, gray uniform off", she said with a soothing voice and began to undo the buttons of my shirt (the MPs had taken off my tie for an obvious reason). "It's a murderer's wear. You look so gloomy and faceless in it. I don't like it."
"But I am a gloomy and faceless person", I said.
"No, you're not. I know you're not. You too want to love and to be loved, as we do."
"Do you want to love me?" asked Tonya from the bed. I watched as she slowly ran her hand over her tummy towards her breasts and I heard her sigh silently. "Do you want to touch me?"
"Yes."
As Tonya continued running her hands slowly and passionately all over her own body and through her hair, Sonya took off my shirt and then opened my zipper. My pants were pulled down and I stepped out of them - suddenly I was dressed only in the blue-and-white army shorts. Tonya told me that her nipples were really sweet and really sensitive, and that she thought that I might want to taste them sometimes. I told her that she was right. She said that she was glad about it, because she felt always like she would explode right away whenever her nipples were touched the right way. I learned that Tonya was practically always turned on and that she had to masturbate many times every day. She said she loved to touch herself. She removed seductively her bra and watched me with a dizzy look in her eyes.