So I get a call from the agency. Thatâs pretty unusual, usually they just send a card and a taxi. Itâs been the same kind of stuff for a few weeks now, rich guys wanting to get their kinky rocks off with no strings attached. By this stage Iâd moved into Bearâs spare room, although Iâd not been home much, so the hotel bills had gone down. All in all Iâm doing very well out of it, and putting most of it away. And the agency calls and asked if I want to do a film.
At first I was a little scared. I had always been nervous of someone from back home recognizing me, lord knows why. It was a double life, and I wanted it to stay that way. I didnât want to offend the agency by turning it down either, so I was in a quandary. I voiced my fears, and they explained I didnât need to worry. âItâs to be made in Germany. No-one at home will see it. Itâll be far too kinky to get any publicity back hereâ.
âHow kinky?â, I asked, worried now for different reasons.
âNothing you canât handle Iâm sure. Theyâll go over everything there. You can go and see them on us. Decide when youâre there. If you canât handle it you can come back home, and weâll keep you on at the same stuff as now. We just thought maybe you were ready for a little moreâ.
I considered. I was getting a little bored with âthe same stuff as nowâ. A thought occurred to me.
âHow much?â, I asked. He told me. I casually said Iâd check it out, visions of my nice new car in my head.
Still, what if someone did recognise me? Walking dejectedly around the apartment later I kept picturing the horror on my motherâs face. I threw on a T-shirt and sat down in front of the TV for the first time in months. I flicked through the channels listlessly. I hadnât been missing much.
There was a rattle at the door and Bear came in with a couple of other guys. Despite sharing a flat with Bear I hadnât seen much of him, as he was usually out working as a bouncer in the bar, or escorting girls for the agency. I recognised one of them, a guy called Stephan who worked at the bar downstairs. âOh, Hi Chrisâ, said Bear. âEr, were you watching TV? We were going to watch a video.â
âNo, not really. You go ahead. Do you mind if I sit in, or is this a guy thing?â
âI certainly donât mind. Either of you guys mind if Chris sits in with us?â, Bear asked.
They exchanged looks. âErmmâŚâ, said the one I didnât know.
Bear laughed at his discomfort. âThe videoâs a little raunchyâ, he said, âI think Tomâs a little worried you might be offended, young innocent thing that you areâ.
I laughed too, and the two smiled, embarrassed and puzzled at the private joke. I said âI think Iâll cope. In fact tonight itâs just what I need to see. Provided you wonât be too embarrassed in front of me?â
They denied any embarrassment effusively, and Bear went off to get a few beers. I moved up on the sofa to give space. âCome, sitâ, I said. I looked down at myself. âOops. Sorry, I shoulda dressed more for company, shouldnât I?â I was just wearing a pair of black knickers and my t-shirt. The shirt was too large for me, and so covered up my knickers provided I sat fairly demurely, but it still wasnât exactly being dressed for guests.
Stephan smiled, though and said jokingly âHey, donât dress up for us.â The other guy (Tom, was it?) laughed nervously.
Feeling mischievous I said seriously âYou sure you donât mind?â
âErm, well, no. Er well, itâs your place, isnât it?â. They sat down precariously at the other end of the sofa, giving me plenty of space. The flat only had this sofa to sit on, other than the chairs for the table.
âYeah. Yeah, I guess it isâ, I replied.