[This is a sequel to "You go first," Jake said. Thanks to Ken Nitsua for editing.]
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I woke up Sunday morning tired and sweaty. I'd tossed and turned all night, sleep barely coming at all, and then only in brief spurts. A bad dream about college had bothered me. In the dream I was naked in the gym showers, surrounded by fully-dressed classmates calling me names. Now that I was awake I didn't remember exactly what they had said; only that it had hurt my feelings.
I looked at the clock and was surprised to see that it was only 6:30. My parents were still in bed, and I tiptoed down to the kitchen to make a pot of coffee. Once it was brewing I quietly went back upstairs and got into the shower.
Vivid memories of last night were flashing through my mind. The two cocks, all the cum, my backseat gymnastics twisting and turning as I slurped first on one cock, to my right, then the other one, on my left. I felt my own modest erection starting to rise as I remembered how big John's cock was. Jake and I were almost the same age as John, but his shaft was longer and thicker than Jake's or, of course, mine, which was the smallest of the three.
When I remembered John's finger in my mouth I stopped playing with myself and jumped quickly out of the shower. I went to the sink, dripping wet, and brushed my teeth, not even pausing to towel off first. John's finger had been in my butthole before he put it into my mouth, and while I could no longer, six hours later, taste it, just the memory filled me with disgust. I wanted to get the image out of my mind, but the back and forth movement of my own hand, and the brush plunging in and out of my mouth, made that impossible.
My cock throbbed and got harder and harder as I brushed. I began to feel a tingle in my ass and reached back with my left hand to touch my anus. I pushed in a little bit and the tip of my finger penetrated my anus. I pushed it back and forth a few times and my cock unloaded all over the front of the bathroom sink. I pulled my left hand away from my ass as the second and third pulse of cum dribbled weakly out of the end of my penis.
Disgusted with myself, I threw down the toothbrush and got back into the shower as if I could clean myself with more washing. After another cycle of soap and rinse I slowly got out, toweled dry, and wiped my jizz off of the front of the sink. Thoroughly ashamed of myself, I slinked back down to the kitchen.
Soon Mom and Dad came down and thanked me for making the coffee. As we had breakfast, they told me that they were going to be at the church all afternoon for the pre-holiday soup kitchen.
The parish had an annual tradition of feeding the less fortunate residents the weekend before Christmas. When I'd been younger, I had been dragged along because I couldn't be left home alone. But now that I was eighteen there was no reason to make me come to such a function. I was finally old enough to be left alone!
This was terrific. In years past this event had always been a long day for any young kids dragged along by their parents. The parishioners were busy warming and serving food to all the people showing up for handouts. Not much fun for young children!
Mom mentioned a few chores I could do, and Dad urged me not to waste the day in front of the TV set. By 10:30 they were out the door, promising to bring in a pizza for supper when they got home around 5:00.
Soon after my parents left, Jake called me and said he wanted to come over. He was happy to learn that I was home alone and said we could chill and talk about stuff. I briefly considered telling him "no," but I really didn't want to be alone with my thoughts, so told him to come, but to come alone. I didn't think I could deal with John if he tagged along.
When Jake arrived we both beat around the bush a bit before Jake asked me how I felt about "the fun sex we had last night?" He hadn't really been aware of the finger-fucking John had given me the night before. Jake had been slumped back in the car seat, enjoying the suckjob I gave him while John fondled me. I told Jake about John's ass-play, and said I felt dirty, and that anal sex would make me a homosexual.
Jake's visit cheered me up considerably. I had, honestly, felt a little betrayed by Jake the night before. Although I had enthusiastically sucked John's cock several times, his even being there with me and Jake had been a surprise. I felt a little outed, humiliated even, by the events that unfolded. And I was still a little shaken by the orgasm I'd had fingering my asshole in the bathroom.
Jake and I sat together on the couch, facing the fireplace. He asked me more questions about how I felt about last night. He wanted to know not so much how I felt now, but what it had felt like to have sex with him in the car. I told him I was really upset by what had happened, and that I'd been happier when it was just the two of us on dates. "I thought this was our secret, Jake," I said to him, on the edge of tears.
He moved closer to me and put his arm around my shoulders to give me some kind of half-assed "bro-hug." I leaned into him and tried to move my arms to hug him back, but it was all kind of clumsy. We found ourselves so close that our faces were almost touching, and I put my head on his shoulder while we talked and he kept up the hug.