"You are the stirring in my loins" James told me on Saturday when I had paired him in the bowling club.
"It is alright until you bend over to make your bowl but then my eyes are focused on something other than how many you are going to knock down."
I thought he was having a laugh but then I saw he wasn't laughing, it was the look in his eyes and his volatile expression that he was thinking things that I would never have realized of him.
You see, I'd paired with James often and automatically thought he was straight and his only perception of me was as a bowls partner.
"I haven't offended you, Pete have I. It is just something I needed to get off my chest and no problem if you want just to tell me to piss off."
I looked at him as I paused with the next bowl, still taking in what he said, my mind a little confused, I had never been approached by another guy before, but now that I had something registered in me that created quite a thrill, and although I have had notions I could be bi-sexual that's as far as it went.
But now it seemed the time had come in my life when I had to make decisions and accept the fact that I was apparently attractive to James.
I completed my second bowl not saying a word and James followed me with his bowl and beat me easily.
"I shall buy you a beer" he said, Perhaps we can chat in the bar?"
I agreed and in so doing I guess I was giving him the signal that I was interested. I was looking at him across the table in the bar in an entirely different way. I was attracted by him for the first time and it felt natural and good.
And when I felt his knee rub mine beneath the table I responded and I say the smile on his face broaden and it was long before he suggested we go to his pad for a 'relaxavoo' as he put it and I was game for that. In fact I felt a new sensation come over me in a most riveting was and it was wonderful.
This was going to be a whole new experience that I knew I was about to go into and when we got there, to his pad, it was a real welcoming place and I felt completely at ease as James said he would fix us another drink, and suggested I go and chill on this black leather very expensive settee with broad arms and plenty of cushions to match.
It was so easy to talk to James as we each sipped our drinks and we got to talking about ourselves, he told me that he had never been with a girl but there had been one or two guys which had sort of fizzled out, the short relationships suited him though, he continued but not to take that as read, because if the right guy came along he would love for a permanent relationship, and that would be so nice.