by Keith Hernandez
I was on my knees in a motel room, and my hands were on Scott's bare thighs. They were so warm...they felt so big and muscular and I caressed them and slid my hands to his inner thighs as I crouched between his legs, sucking on his large cock.
I slid my mouth up and down as it started to harden more and more. I looked up at him and he was watching me fellate him. I felt my cheeks flush with shame. He reached for something on the table and then grabbed my head and started guiding me deeper.
I took him down until he hit the back of my throat and when I looked up at him again he was holding his phone up, recording me. I moaned inwardly and closed my eyes, but I kept sucking. Only a little while earlier I had been home alone, recuperating on my couch...
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Big Scott was back. This is what I was trying to wrap my brain around as I lay on the couch fiddling with the remote. The doctor's visit was traumatic but the meds worked right away and my ass felt better.
But now I had a dilemma. I was engaged to my fiancee who I loved. But I also worshipped Scott and his alpha cock. That definitely wasn't love. It was more like an addiction. A secret desire that he had tapped into and brought out. A side of me I denied until he pushed his cock into my mouth that one night so long ago.
I was wrestling with two thoughts all day...should I try to kick him out of my life, and how? Or more darkly, would it be possible to have my cake and eat it too? Could I stay engaged with Gina and possibly marry her? A few days ago that is where my life was headed but with Scott back, everything was thrown into question.
I was confused. Because part of me wanted him to turn me out once again, to keep me as his 24/7 cocksucker and cum dump. My mind wandered to ways I could keep Gina, maintain my facade of heterosexuality, and still service Scott and his thick pecker.
I shook my head. "No!" I said out loud. I can't, I have too much to lose. I have a good thing going with Gina...or do I? The feeling that something was missing gnawed at my thoughts. Something was missing...and what if that something was a big cock? I didn't know what to do.
As if on cue, Scott texted me, "Where were you yesterday?"
"Doctor's appointment" I typed back. "Busy."
I should have just ignored him. But part of me knows it won't stop him. He was back in town, looking for his own place, setting up to work from home. I wondered if he would be content to just keep me as a side piece so I could keep Gina too.
"Got a line on a place. Won't be in this hotel for much longer. And I have a two-day nut saved up. Your place or mine?"
I read the text and got a chill. I didn't respond. A minute later the next text came.
"Not a request. Will it be here or there? Make up your mind quick or I'm on my way."
I couldn't risk him coming over here.
"Give me 5 min" I responded.
Shit...I was in no condition to take a chance on Scott trying to fuck me up the ass again. Without really thinking I typed "No anal" and headed out the door.
I had to tell Scott about the doctor visit so I texted him while I drove over. My plan was to just give him head and keep him satisfied until I could figure out what I was going to do or what I wanted with Gina.
But with Scott you never knew what was going to happen. He topped me and owned me for over a year, so when I got to Scott's hotel I was starting to get nervous. His room was on the second floor and I walked up the stairs, wondering what the hell I was doing. I looked around before I knocked, making sure no one I knew was around.
How would I explain what I was doing here? With a man no less, a very masculine, good-looking man. I didn't have to knock, as the door flew open and Scott was standing there on his phone.
"Hey man, I gotta go, someone is here," he said, putting his arm around my neck and pulling me into the room. Butterflies zoomed around my stomach as Scott steered me into the room.
"So you had a bad time the other day, huh?" he said, looking down at me. Scott was taller than me and had at least 75 pounds on me. I always felt so small in his presence. It was tough to look him in the eye but I forced myself to do it.
"Yeah man, I'm out of commission for a few days, thanks to you," I said, weakly trying to squirm away from him, and dropping my gaze. "I'll take care of you today...but that's all, okay? I came right over you know, but no...no anal, okay?"
Scott didn't say anything, he just kind of looked at me with an amused look and then grabbed a pillow off the bed and dropped it on the floor, releasing me from his grip.
"All right," he finally said. crossing his arms. "Just a blow job. That meaty ass of yours gets a break. This time."
He punctuated his mercy by reaching out and squeezing my cheek. For him, it was almost tenderness. I felt relief replace my butterflies as I sank down to my knees before him.