Darren, 36, was on his couch and casually looking at various porn galleries on his phone. Wearing only a white tee shirt, he scrolled through the pictures with one hand while his other hand was rubbing his cock.
As he opened a new gallery, he was excited to see a sexy, large-breasted woman on her knees, sucking off a group of horny men.
"
Lucky whore.
" He thought to himself. "
Look at those beautiful dicks.
"
These thoughts hadn't always been the norm, but they had become much more frequent lately.
Darren had always identified as straight, and still did, but his curiosity about the male body had been triggered several years prior. Almost ten years prior. Although he had never acted on these curiosities, he had noticed that brief moments of homosexual fantasies would creep into his mind when he was looking at porn.
What triggered his curiosity all those years ago was a night in which he was hanging out with two good friends: Jeff and Josh. They were both the same age as Darren. Josh had been Darren's best friend since high school and was also straight. Darren met Jeff while working a part-time job in a grocery store.
From day one, there was no mistake about Jeff's sexual orientation. He was gay and proud of it. Almost as if he wanted to make sure the world was certain of it. Jeff would constantly make dirty comments to customers and coworkers. There were several times he would point out customers to Darren and mention that he had sucked them off, or made love to them anally.
Back in those days, the three of them would hang out together and smoke weed. On that particular night, they were at Jeff's waiting to hear from their source to buy more. They had just finished smoking their last joint and it was taking longer to hear back on getting more, so they were starting to get bored.
Josh joking had asked Jeff if he had any porn to look at while they waited. Jeff didn't miss a beat, grabbing his stack of gay porn magazines and proudly offering them to his friends. They all chuckled, but then Josh went ahead and picked up one of the magazines.
Darren wasn't sure what to do, but decided if his best friend was okay with checking it out, he should too. He slowly grabbed a magazine and then Jeff did the same.
"
It won't hurt to have a look.
" Darren thought to himself.
As he began looking through the magazine, he was surprised at his lack of apprehension. There was no feeling of weirdness as he paged through the pictures of various men. It was a genuine curiosity.
The first picture that caught Darren's attention was a man in the process of undressing, his pants lowered to reveal a rather phenomenal buttocks. Darren had always been an ass man, preferring a girl with a nice butt over a girl with large breasts. Apparently, he was now able to acknowledge that he could find a man's ass attractive as well.
"
I wouldn't mind putting my face right in that crack.
" Darren thought, before realizing he was thinking that about another man.
He turned the page and continued to study the various naked men. He was noticing that his manhood would occasionally twitch as he looked at more pictures, but he tried to ignore it.
The next picture that made Darren pause was a close-up of one man bent over with another man's thick, hard penis buried deep inside of his anus. As Darren took in the view, he felt his dick twitch again. He glanced up to make sure his friends didn't notice, but they were busy looking at their own magazines.
Continuing through the magazine, Darren observed several more tone, well-hung, muscular men. The last picture he stopped on was another close-up, but more simple. This picture was simply a solo male, with his jeans pulled down and the focus of the picture was clear: the man's semi-erect penis, accompanied by two plump testicles.
Darren couldn't seem to look away. He was fascinated. As he stared at the cock, there was no denying the blood rushing to his genitals. The dick he was looking at wasn't the only one that was now semi-erect. Darren started to get nervous.
"
Shit. What if they notice I'm getting a boner?!
" Darren wondered. "
Knowing Jeff, he'd probably offer to blow me. Josh would never let me live down getting turned on by gay porn.
"
As Darren ran through scenarios and came up with excuses in his head, he was saved by Josh's phone vibrating. It was there weed source, letting them know they could swing by. With a deep breath of relief, Darren closed the magazine and set it aside, avoiding an awkward situation.
Later that same night, when he was back home and alone, Darren couldn't help but remember being turned on by the magazine. He grabbed his phone and Googled "big white cock". He quickly found an image that caught his fancy and began stroking himself, achieving orgasm within just over a minute. It was one of the largest ejaculations he could remember.
"
Did I really just jerk off to a cock?
" Darren asked himself, fully aware of the answer.
He closed out the browser on his phone, smoked some weed, and went to sleep.
Ever since that night, Darren would occasionally have thoughts about how things might have turned out differently if Josh hadn't heard back from their dealer. Would they have teased Darren? Were they perhaps getting aroused as well looking at naked men having sex? What if they would have all gotten undressed and fooled around? Darren would never know.
The three of them were still friends and would hang out at times, but it was much less frequent as adult responsibilities increased as they got older.
So now, as Darren stroked his erection, those familiar thoughts once more crept into his mind. The only difference this time is that he pulled up his phone contacts and scrolled to the J's. His heart skipped a beat as he paused on Jeff's name.
"
Should I finally do it?
" He wondered. "
Should I finally tell him it turned me on to look at those dicks all those years ago?
"
Just the idea was thrilling to him, but also made him nervous. What if Jeff didn't react the way Darren imagined he might? But then... what if he did?
"Fuck it." Darren said, tapping Jeff's name.
Darren continued to grip his shaft as he held the phone and listened to it ring. It felt like it was ringing forever.
"What's up?" Jeff asked, answering the phone.
"Not much." Darren answered. "Just seeing what you were up to."
"Trying to find some dick to suck, but everyone is busy." Jeff told him with a laugh. "I don't suppose you'd like to donate yourself to the cause?"
Darren's eyes rolled back as he stroked his erection, briefly contemplating Jeff's offer. On the one hand, Jeff was joking. On the other hand, if he agreed then Jeff would absolutely make good on the offer.
"Maybe one of these days, man." Darren joked back.
"Such a cock tease."
"Actually that does remind me of something I wanted to talk to you about."
There was a brief pause, which gave Darren a moment of panic.
"You called to talk to me about finally sucking you off?" Jeff asked jokingly.
"Not exactly." Darren replied anxiously. "But I've had something I've wanted to tell you, but just never had the courage."
"Please tell me you're coming out of the closet." Jeff said.
Darren laughed, his cock twitching in his hand at the brazen suggestion.
"Nope. Still straight." Darren informed him. "But if I tell you something, you have to promise me you won't tell anyone."
"What's up?"
"Well... do you remember that night a long time ago when Josh and I were hanging out? And we all started looking through your porn while we waited on the dealer?"
"Of course I remember!" Jeff said. "My two so-called straight friends looking at my porn stash."
"There's something I've never told you. Or anyone." Darren added, continuing to try and slowly stroke the nerves and anxiety out of his erection. "Truth be told... I kind of got turned on. Like, really turned on."
"Hell yeah. That's awesome!"
"If we didn't get that call, I was on the verge of having a full-on boner." Darren continued. "I even jerked off to a picture of a cock later that night when I got home."
"Welcome to the club." Jeff told him jokingly.
Darren laughed as he squeezed his shaft. Finally making his confession was only making him more turned on.
"So like I said, I'm straight." Darren said. "But when I look at porn now, I sometimes have gay thoughts and fantasies. Like imagining I'm in the girl's place, sucking a fat dick. I can't explain why, but it just turns me on sometimes."
"Sounds like you're at least a little curious."
"Maybe." Darren admitted. "It seems to be happening more often now. It's pretty much anytime I jerk off, I have at least one moment of thinking about another dick being there."
"Makes sense. That night was what, a decade ago? So you've been letting these lovely, gay desires build up this whole time." Jeff explained. "When was the last time?"
"A few minutes before I called you."
They both laughed.
"Okay. So did you finish? Did you come thinking about a big, sexy penis?"
"I actually haven't finished yet." Darren admitted.
"Wait wait wait. Are you jerking off right now?!"
Darren took a deep breath.
"Yeah." He added in a soft, shy tone. "Sorry."
"Don't apologize. That's fucking hot and kinky." Jeff told him. "Calling up your gay friend to tell him you jerk off to gay stuff, while stroking your penis. I love it! Maybe you should come over and let me finish you off?"
"Ha." Was the best Darren could offer. "I don't know if I can do that."
"Why not? You've been fighting these urges for ten years. You owe it to yourself to give it a try." Jeff suggested. "I promise I give excellent head."
Darren's mind raced as he briefly considered the idea of experimenting with his friend. He was certainly horny enough at that moment to give in, but his nerves were still winning the fight.
