Thanks to everyone that has read, commented, followed and added as a favourite. Also thanks to those who have sent me private messages. Your support is flattering. My journey continues. This is a short chapter, but the beginning of something special. All names and locations have been altered to maintain anonymity.
It felt like an impossible choice. If I said no, Lewis would think I had shunned his support. After all, the only reason I was sitting there was because of him. He would probably continue to worry about me too. I didn't want that.
If I said yes. Well I couldn't imagine the consequences.
I was seriously confused with it all. My head felt like it was going to explode. The sheer humiliation of saying yes in front of my best friend was overwhelming. My brain felt like it was surrounded by a thick fog.
When I looked at Phillip he was smiling. I couldn't tell what the smile was hiding.
I looked again at Lewis. "I think you should take Phillip up on his offer mate," he told me. "At least you can trust him. He's not some stranger."
I gave in and nodded my head. "You've made the right decision David," Phillip told me. "I won't let you down. Maybe you should thank Lewis. It must have been hard for him to ask for my help."
Oh my God! Would this pretence never end? I turned and thanked him. "Not a problem mate," he smiled "You know I'd do anything for you."
"So David," Phillip continued. "Maybe we should discuss some ground rules. It's important we both know how this will work for us." Then he turned to Lewis and asked him if he wanted to stay while we discussed it or would he prefer to go.
"I don't mind staying," he told Phillip. "Unless you want me to go?" he asked.
Phillip's smile widened. "By all means," he said. "You're welcome to stay."
Neither asked me how I felt about Lewis staying. Now it seemed my humiliation would be further enhanced as my friend listened to the ground rules Phillip intended to discuss with me. The crotch of my jeans was now actually shining due to amount of precum I'd produced and the tenting still absurdly obvious.
"So I think the best place to start is by discussing David's fetish with you Lewis," Phillip said. "It's important you understand because there may be times where you need to help him through it."
"Oh, I see," Lewis answered.
"Don't worry," Phillip continued. "I'm not suggesting anything sexual," he smiled. "But if you're out somewhere or alone with him, you need to be able to spot the signs. That way you can guide him away from doing something silly."
"Yes," Lewis said. "Fair enough."
"You've probably noticed David's erection and subsequent leakage Lewis," he said. Lewis nodded. "That's all part of his fetish. I've seen this before with exhibitionists," he added. "They often feel embarrassed or in extreme cases, humiliated."
"Ok," was all Lewis said in response.
"Looking at David right now," he continued. "I'd guess that he falls into the latter. You see, humiliation is a major factor," he explained. "You probably won't understand Lewis, but it seems David finds it extremely exciting when he feels humiliated." Lewis responded by nodding his head, as if genuinely interested to understand my "problem".
Phillp continued. "David will be only too well aware that his excitement is clearly visible but that feeds his fetish for exposure," he explained. "Despite his apparent discomfort, he will want us to notice. Just looking at his face, you can see his embarrassment, but he's made no attempt to hide his erection from us."
"Ok," Lewis said. "I'd noticed that."
"Yes," Phillip said, as if I were some sort of learning aid for Lewis. "Looking at the state of his jeans, he's probably enjoying this conversation too. He will be experiencing deep humiliation right now," adding "For him the conversation we're having about him is almost like foreplay. The same way you would feel during heavy petting with a girlfriend."
"Oh right," Lewis said.
Phillip knew exactly what he was doing. He knew how this would be making me feel and regardless of my concerns about drawing Lewis into this, I had already begun to feel the haze, the mist falling over my eyes. My control was slipping away. I tried to remember why we were there. That this was all a facade, but I was struggling.
"From everything David has said," Phillip explained. "His fetish is quite complicated and possibly deep rooted. He probably wasn't even aware of it until the first time it happened."
Lewis continued to listen intently. He clearly wanted to understand.
"You'll remember what he said about the gentleman at the pool. Saying there was something about the way he looked at him," Phillip said. Lewis nodded his head.
"A look probably mostly associated with men when they find someone sexually attractive," he added. "So David's body responded with an erection. He didn't know why at the time and no doubt, felt it was wrong to be aroused in front of another man."
Lewis said he could understand that and added that he would have tried to hide it if it had happened to him.
"Exactly Lewis," Phillip said, latching on to the comment. "You would have tried to hide it, but David didn't. In spite of his embarrassment he chose to let the gentleman see he was aroused. He enjoyed the moment. So much so that he went back a number of times, knowing the gentleman would be there."
Lewis nodded his head quite vigorously then. "Yes, he didn't try to hide from me either."
Phillip nodded.
"I'd go far as to say, the moment this man saw David the second time, he knew what was happening," he smiled. "He would have known David wanted him to see his erection and so this little scene played out a number of times."
"So," Lewis asked. "Do you think this bloke was gay?"
"It's possible," Phillip answered. "But for David that wouldn't have been a factor. He just knew that he enjoyed this man looking at his erection. For David, it felt taboo and humiliating but even by the second time, I think David was hooked. That's the thing with a fetish. They often come about purely by accident but the feeling they create is too strong to ignore."
Their conversation was by now, just to powerful for me. I was just about gone. To be spoken about like this, as if I wasn't there, caused my cock to throb uncontrollably, so hard the movement was visible through my jeans.
Phillip continued with his explanation. "Following the times at the pool, David will have tried to deny what had been happening. But his fetish was already too strong for him, so he went about finding other men to fulfill his need."
Lewis commented that he couldn't understand why I'd said I stopped see the guy at the pool. "He told me he was scared he was enjoying it too much," he told Phiilip. "Yet he went out to find other blokes?" His face an expression of confusion.
Phillip grinned knowingly. "Yes. The draw was obviously too strong for him," he said. "I expect he masturbated many times over his exposure and that will have been like a learning curve for him.
"So you mean he started to fantasise?" Lewis asked.
"Yes," Phillip said. "By the time he found these other men, David probably already had a good idea about what was happening to him, but reality is often different to fantasy."
"I don't understand," Lewis said.
"Well, you might have noticed that, while David was quite detailed about his experience with the gentleman at pool and what happened with you," Phillip began. "He wasn't quite so detailed regarding the other 3 men."
Lewis said he noticed that but didn't want to push me.
My head was numb. The pounding in my ears was loud as I started to fear what was coming. The wet patch on my jeans now felt like a puddle.
"Well there could be a number of reasons for that," Phillip told him. "Perhaps those meetings went beyond his fantasies, for instance, or even that the men involved were known to him."
"You mean, he knows them?" Lewis asked. Phillip nodded his head. "But he told me he didn't know them."
"Maybe he told you that to hide their identities," Phillip responded. "It's quite possible you also know them Lewis. Whilst David enjoys the humiliation of exposure, the men he met might not."
Lewis said he could understand that, but didn't understand what Phillip meant regarding reality versus fantasy.
"David has already freely admitted to ejaculating in front of these other men," he looked at Lewis. "Including you. He also said he had thought about sucking their cocks and swallowing their cum, including yours Lewis."
Lewis agreed, but added he'd never get involved with anything like that.
"Well, I think he probably has sucked at least one of the men, if not all 3," he looked at me and smiled. Shit! I felt my humiliation was about to get much worse. Was Phillip about to tell my best friend I was a cocksucking slut? It felt like I was teetering on the edge of orgasm.
