Chapter 15: Yes.
"Okay, so that makes...fourteen shows next week then." Amy confirmed.
"Oh, add the one I'm doing for Vida. Makes fifteen." Tyler added, reminded Amy of the show they promised at the
Lions' Den
.
"Fuck, that means we'll have to move the gig on campus." Amy checks the book. "Unless you think we can get all the way up to MLK in ten minutes."
"We can make it work, have Kaylee do a longer set. We can do both." Tyler goes through his own schedule to make sure he isn't missing anything. "I've got a lunch shift the next day though, so I'll have to leave right after."
"You're quitting soon right?" Amy asked as she penciled in some more things and typed away on her laptop.
"As soon as I can." He replied.
"You know, considering we now don't have a lot of bills - thank you Clark - we can both afford to quit our jobs. I'm put my two weeks in next Monday." Tyler gave Amy a look at the reference.
"I still want to make sure I'm carrying my weight." Tyler assured. "I had to fight Clark tooth and nail nearly to pay the water bill. Do you know how much a water bill at
The Avenue
is?"
"No."
"Triple digits Amy, triple digits."
"How much do y'all fuck in the shower?"
"Not as much as you'd think actually?" Tyler rolled his eyes and took a sip of his drink.
"Oh? Trouble in paradise?"
"Actually a little." Tyler groaned his frustration. "Ever since we fought over the whole Jason debacle, and him being wrapped up in some big project at work, we've been arguing almost every day. Well, the days we see each other anyway. By the time I'm getting home from work, he's getting up for the day. Then I'm off to work at the restaurant before I go out until three am, and repeat and repeat and repeat."
"Have you tried maybe not arguing about it?" Amy tried to diffuse.
"Amy."
"Sorry, I just - I really don't know how to help you here. I get your frustration about him shoving money at you, but I don't at the same time. Let him be your sugar daddy sis." She closes the books and laptops.
"It's not about the money really. At least not
all
about the money." Tyler leans back in his chair and lets out a long breath. "I feel like he's put a leash around me, or bought me from a department store. He's given me things that, yes I truly appreciate, but also make me feel smothered. Like I have to stay because I owe him, not because I love him."
"But you do love him right?"
"Of course I do, it's just this fear, this ball of anxiety I've got in the bottom of my stomach that...that I have to stay with him, not matter what because he bought me a car, bought me this apartment."
"Technically he bought me this apartment."
"Not the point, he just keeps opening doors for me that I don't know if I deserve to walk through."
"Imposter syndrome, I heard about it on a podcast." Amy nodded. "Look, Ty, he bought you a car. Yes, insane of him to do. He bought this apartment; I will say not as insane however because it was also a business decision on his end. But this also kind of how relationships work, the people take care of each other."
"But what do I do? Contribute? How do I take care of him?"
"I hear you give great head."
"Amy I'm serious."
"Do you love him?" Her tone gets serious and Tyler nods. "Then maybe that's all you need. He needs." She corrects. "People require different things; they offer different things. Maybe to him, an equal partnership is him spoiling you, and you giving him the best head."
"Amy."
"Sorry, but you get my point right?"
"I suppose, but it's just...what if I can't?" He asks.
"Can't what?"
"Accept his 'style' of love."
*****
Tyler and Clark sat in the shade in Zilker Park. Clark had brought them here on his day off and it was such a nice day. He'd prepared a picnic. Sandwiches, chips, sodas. Grapes. He thought it would be cute to feed them to each other. It had been. It had been sweet. The date had been wonderful, it had made Tyler forget the argument they'd had the night before.
"I love you." Clark said. He had been staring at Tyler, and Tyler hadn't noticed. Until now.
"I love you too." Tyler responded, turning his attention away from the parents playing catch with their children nearby. "Are you staring at me?" He asked.
"I am."
"Why?"
"Because you're beautiful."
"I know I am." Tyler rolled the compliment away with a joke. Clark still sometimes made him uncomfortable with his adoration. "You are too, not as hot as me. But still quite the looker." He reached over and pinched Clarks cheek playfully. Clark caught Tylers hand before he took it away.
"I love you." He repeated, squeezing Tylers hand. Running his fingers over his.
"I know." Tyler stated, he saw something in Clarks eyes. "I love you too. What is it?"
"Do you know why I love you?"
"Uh...because I have a big, juicy ass and a tight gorilla grip puss puss."
"I'm being serious." Clark reached over and tucked some of Tylers hair behind his ear.
"Then I don't know." Tyler conceded.
"Because you are kind, funny, sweet, and way more forgiving towards me than you should be." Clark said. "I don't know what I did to deserve you."
"Clark..." Tyler didn't know how to respond, Clarks ushy gushiness in the moment made him a tad uncomfortable.
"Why do you love me?" Clark asked. "Seriously."
"Uh...because...because you love me." Tyler said. "You don't love me for some superficial reason. You've never made me feel any type of way because of my weight. I know I don't talk about it. It's not something that gets brought up a lot, but you don't talk about it and that's what I mean. I also love you because
you
are kind and sweet. And as much as it irks me sometimes, you're supportive. Sometimes too much." Tyler laughed a little. "But most of all I think I love you because you've shown me I can be loved."
"Of course you can be." Clark grabbed Tylers hand and squeezed.
"You've kind of been my first boyfriend Clark. I've never dated anyone before you." He tells the man he loves.
"Well I hope I'm the last too." Clark says. Tyler felt a strange stir. "I've got a few things I need to say now, and I need you to wait until I've said them all to respond okay?"
"Okay." Tyler says slowly.
"I know I've been working a lot recently. My father has made me the head of a project we are about to start in Seattle. Which means...I have to move to Seattle for a bit. Three months, maybe more."
"Three months?"
"I know, but uhm...I need you to know I'm going to fly down as much as I can. And you can fly up too. I've got tons of miles we can uses." Clark leans back and fishes something out of the basket. "Also, I know we just argued over me buying things, but I need you to hear me out-"
"Clark-"
"I said hear me out, hear." Clark cut Tylers rage off by giving him a piece of paper. "When I come back, this is my next project." Tyler took the paper and looked over it. It was a plot of land on a map, circled and starred.
"What is this?" He asked, a warm feeling swelling in him.
"I bought
us
that plot of land...for this." Clark repositioned himself to be on one knee now. Tyler froze as the feeling that been building in him popped. Clark produced a ring. "Tyler Kenneth Harris, I love you. And I want-"
"Clark." Tyler cut him off. "What are you-"
"Tyler Kenneth Harris," Clark cut him off back. "I love you and I want to spend my life with you. I want to build a home with you. I want you. Forever." Clark started to tear up. He pushed the ring forward, hoping above all hope that Tyler would take it.
"Clark..." Tylers voice was small and it wavered as he started to cry himself. "You can't take this back you know."
"I know." Clark laughed softly. "I didn't plan to."
"I..." Tyler wanted to shout yes, jump onto Clark and kiss him until the sun burnt out and the final ray of light touched the earth. He wanted nothing more than to die old and grey with Clark, but he was frozen in fear and anxiety. What if it didn't work out like his parents? What if they couldn't stop arguing over every little thing? "Yes." Tyler choked out.
"Yes?" Clark made sure.
"Yes," Tyler confirmed trough the fears in his head. His heart answered. Not his head. His heart loved Clark; he loved Clark. He'd die by his side. "yes!"
"Yes!" Clark put the ring on Tylers finger and pulled him into a deep kiss, people nearby had seen the exchange and were cheering and applauding. Giving their congratulations. In the kiss, Clark started to grow hard, he wanted to take Tyler here and now. "You know," he said pulling out of the kiss. "this is were we had our first like real date you know. And it's where we..."
"For the first time." Tyler finished the sentence, understanding and feeling what Clark was getting at. Tylers own cock started to grow as well, and he could feel his hole longing for Clarks dick to penetrate him. They cleaned up the picnic and made their way to the car the way they had before. Clambering into the backseat and undoing pants in the process Tyler quickly took Clark down his throat. Consuming his growing cock in one swift motion.