Over the time that I have been a completely closeted cocksucker, I have harbored an ideal encounter. On those nights when I find myself alone, I masturbate to this fantasy and it always brings me to an exquisite climax. But despite having sucked countless cocks over the past 20 years, I have never experienced the perfect meeting and given the perfect blowjob.
How did I become a closeted cocksucker? That story is for another time. Let's just say that I acquired a taste for cock in my 30s and soon realized that I wanted to please other men orally. I found some patient teachers, who allowed me to improve my skills and explore fantasies. As I gained confidence in my abilities, I realized that I was born to serve and fell in love with cocks and cum. Big, small, cut, uncut, thick, thin, it mattered not. I craved cock and its reward. I needed nothing in return. Just the thought of servicing another man with my mouth got me hard.
Eventually, I discovered Craigslist and began a string of anonymous encounters. Although I enjoyed them, they were not perfect; there was always something not quite right. The cock was too small, the load was not full, he came too quickly, he didn't cum at all, he wasn't my type, he wanted to kiss, he wanted to fuck, he wanted to be fucked, he wanted to suck me too, etc. I just wanted to suck and swallow, or if the guy preferred, receive a facial. I tried to be as clear as possible in my ads, but once a guy gets horny, his own inhibitions disappear and he wants to participate. Of course, eager to please, I would let him do what he wanted or follow his orders, but I was always slightly disappointed after he left.
I began to dream of a perfect encounter and this fantasy became my goal. I wanted to give the perfect blowjob. By that, I mean I wanted to walk into a dark room, get down on my knees in front of a good-looking, fit man, suck his perfect cock for at least 30 minutes, make him cum purely by using my mouth, swallow, and leave. Completely anonymously. No gay bar, no small talk, just me servicing him to completion.
With the demise of Craigslist personals, I thought my fantasy would never come true, but then I found Grindr. Of course, this was even worse than Craigslist, with liars and flakes galore. I couldn't have been more honest in my profile, simply stating that I love to please, but few believed me. I still had encounters, and some were incredible, but not perfect.
Until last week. I was in San Francisco on business, staying at a hotel near the airport. After getting back from the office one Friday night, I opened up Grindr and waited to see who was out there. As usual, I got messages from guys who were not a fit and ignored them or made small talk if they didn't mind. After a few hours of this, I was ready to give up. Then I got a message from a profile with no picture. Unlike gay men, this is my ideal target, because it means that the guy wants to be anonymous, like me. Most of these guys are married, and just looking to get off while on the road. I'm only too happy to help. Face pics are not given or received. His stats were 35, 5'11, 185, DDF. That's all I needed to know. "Hey" he said, and I replied likewise. The next few messages were banal, until he sent a picture of his cock. I gasped at its perfection. At least 7 inches with a thick shaft leading to a delectably shaped head. Below it, two beautiful shaved balls. I told him "nice", understating my desire to have this cock in my mouth as soon as possible. He asked what I was into. "I suck and swallow, that's it, need nothing in return". He replied "perfect". He was in a hotel about ten minutes away on foot and invited me over. I accepted without hesitation. So far, this was exactly what I was looking for.
I quickly freshened up and left my hotel, walking along the empty sidewalks, wondering if the passing cars knew what I was up to. As I neared his hotel, I told him I was arriving. He replied with his room number and told me that the door was cracked open. Thankfully the front entrance to the hotel was not locked despite the late hour. I quickly made my way to his room, which was on the first floor at the end of the hall, the best location for a quick exit. As he promised, the door was open. I entered the darkened room and immediately locked the door behind me. It took a few seconds for my eyes to adjust before I could see him, sitting in a chair on the far side of the room, seemingly naked. I said nothing. He said nothing. I took off my jacket and shirt and laid it on the bed, keeping the rest of my clothes on. I wanted nothing from him but his perfect cock. I walked to the chair and dropped to my knees in between his legs. Despite the darkness, I could see that he was a good-looking guy, with a sculpted, hairy chest and hairy legs, short brown hair and no beard or mustache. I looked down at his crotch to see him wearing a small pair of tight blue briefs. I moaned in anticipation. I loved to start my routine by kissing and sucking underwear to get it wet.