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Just a little note that some of this chapter will make more sense if you're up to date on my story "True Nature" but it's not technically necessary.
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Ben's Pov:
"I think you're a liar Benny. And what do I do to liars?"
"You punish them," I whispered.
"And you deserve to be punished. Don't you?"
"Yes Master."
"So beg for it."
"What?" I asked, not expecting him to say that.
"You said you wouldn't come back and yet here you are, being an inconvenience. So you better beg for your punishment or I'll send you home showered in praise."
I gasped as a flood of slick ran down my thighs. My Dom was really on his game today and it was intoxicatingly sexy. He was going to degrade me to nothing and it was probably going to hurt and I was so grateful for it. Today had been soul crushing and I needed him to remove all the pressure I was under and I also needed to release some emotional turmoil and self loathing. I needed my Master to break me down and break me free and from the sound of things, this scene was going to be soooo good.
"You used to last months before I saw you again. What? Only a couple years ago? But now you've barely made it a month. Sometimes you can be such a disappointment."
I nodded vigorously at his words, needing to hear them. What he said was true. Even though I should be filling my time with trying to find a mate or even having a bond arranged for me by the Queen, instead, I was sneaking off to be punished by my Master.
"Please Master, I require punishment," I whimpered, keeping my eyes on the floor as I knelt beneath him, still fully clothed.
"Do you want me to walk away right now boy?! Do better," my Master commanded with a smack to my cheek.
"Please punish me! I've been so bad. I need to feel your wrath!" I begged, leaning forward to kiss his shoes.
With one of his feet he pinned me to the ground by my neck, "You call this begging? Do I need to get another sub in here to teach you what to do?" He threatened. Then he moved me back into position with his shoe before spitting in my face. I cringed as it dripped down my cheek. I hated being spit on. It was disgusting and degrading but it still pleased me when my Dom did it. I was so fucked up.
"Master Please! I'll do anything you want! I swear it, just punish me! I- I'm yours completely. Do whatever you want to me. Break me if that is your will. Make me cry, make me dirty, make me bleed! Take me straight to the edge and leave me with the marks of your discipline, so that I may consider my mistakes for days after your through with me. Please!" I begged, trying my absolute hardest.
"Hmm, well let me see what I'm dealing with then," he replied sounding bored.
I quickly moved to remove my pants but he stopped me.
"First of all, you didn't ask permission to remove those. You're really asking for it today aren't you?" I trembled as I cautiously nodded, feeling slightly on edge for breaking such a simple rule and I hope I paid for it. "Secondly," he continued, "I want your shirt off first."
I hesitated for a moment, not wanting to obey. When I'd hurried to my Master I'd forgotten about the fact that I was injured, which was sort of ironic since it was my driving reason for coming to the dungeon tonight. I'd been attacked earlier in the day by a patient. A very important patient who also happened to be an omega. He'd bitten my shoulder and the wound, while not as bad as it should have been, was still deep and painful and frankly, given the state of the omega in question, it was a very impressive bite my shoulder bore. It would probably scar. Unfortunately, the dungeon had certain rules about not playing with injured clients.
"I'm waiting!" My Master bellowed and my fingers quickly obeyed, grabbing the hem of my shirt so that I could remove it. A few seconds later my skin was covered in goose bumps as my naked flesh met the cool air.
"What the fuck?" My Master growled, sounding furious.
"Just ignore it," I muttered petulantly.
Then my Dom did something he never had before. He began to walk away, looking furious with me and I began to panic. My Master was never ever angry with me. No matter what I said or did or what I asked for, he never walked away. I didn't know what to do. I was torn between crying out for him and doing what I was suppose to, which was staying in position. However, when the Dom reached the door, I realized he was ending the scene and I broke.
"Don't go!" I pleaded, breaking position and instantly rushing forward to grab onto his arm. "Please Adam," I begged, feeling close to tears but not in the way I wanted.
"You know the rules of this place," he told me as he gave me a stern look and shook me off of his arm.
"It's a stupid rule," I muttered. "Pretty sure the Shadow Pack Dungeon doesn't have that rule."
"That's not your pack," he told me, looking even more cross.
"Neither are you!" I bit back but at the look on his face I went back to pleading. "I'm sorry! I don't know why I said that! Please. I.. I know I haven't paid you in a while, I.. I'll pay double, triple if you want. Please just.. don't go."
"I don't want your money," Adam mumbled, looking away from me.
My mind raced. I couldn't offer sex, not when I was the one requesting it and I had nothing else to give.
"I could clean up after our scene and get your room ready for your next client so you can relax?" I offered. I knew it was silly, offering more submission, but I was grasping at straws.
"I have my own way of doing things," he responded coldly, seeming completely unmoved by my panic.
"Please tell me if there's anything I can give you to not end today's scene!" I begged, feeling completely desperate and willing to do anything.
"Do you want me to get fired?" He asked, his tone sharp.
The question startled me. Had I really made him break that many rules that he feared for his job because of me? Even though I loved how stupid and useless he made me feel, I hated the thought that I had been asking for too much. Adam was... important to me, even if he was just a human.
"No," I finally answered, accepting defeat as my shoulders slumped.
"Come back when you heal. We can do this then. Get dressed and see yourself out," he informed me before leaving me completely alone.
My wolf howled in agony. I'd never felt more rejected in my life. Part of me doubted that even being rejected by my own mate could hurt this bad.
"Don't be silly," I whispered to myself, "How could a human saying no compare to a mate's rejection?"
The side of my brain that was used to being perfect and on top of things took control, forcing me into action. I dressed myself and made to leave, my movements entirely on autopilot. By the time I had finally made it out of the dungeon, I couldn't bring myself to head home. I hadn't gotten the release I so desperately needed and I could feel the beginning of a sub drop.
I didn't have sub drops very often but when I did, they hurt like hell. Usually, I was in the comfort of my own room and completely unable to reach out to Adam for help. I'm not sure that he would help but during a drop he's the only one I ever wanted. He would at least understand, in a way no one else would, that much I knew. I shivered as the familiar pain hit me and I was tempted to turn around. Adam was right here, just inside. I could go get him. It would be so easy.
"Maybe I could go back in and convince him to change his mind? No... that's too selfish. He doesn't want me here. I'm always too selfish. I'm disgusting. That's why no one wants me. I'm tainted. I miss Adam... everything is so overwhelming right now but with him things are so quiet.