I still feel nervous and even scared thinking about other men. Or at least the thought of being found out. I'm a married man, and I know my wife would not approve. Hell, all of my family and friends would probably find it hard to accept. Now, there I was sitting at work, looking at a local social networking site.
This new (to me) site isn't really for anything sexual. Mostly gaming groups, or non-sexual meet ups, and groups exploring interests (cooking, arts, etc...). I intended to find something to keep me busy so I wouldn't think about my recent sexual encounters with other men, and wanting to do more of it. Then I happened upon one group...nude male massage exchange.
I requested to join the group, and was accepted. I looked thru some of the members profiles that had pictures. There were men from their early twenties all the way to their eighties. Quite a few were very attractive. I checked the site almost every day. Too chicken to actually answer any of the posts for massages, even skipping on one group meetup.
Then I see a post that one of the organizers had posted for a meetup on Saturday when my wife was going to be out of town. I replied and signed up to attend. There were six of us signed up, and three of the guys were like me, bear types around my age. The other two were either too young or too old for my taste, but I hoped that I would get paired up with one that I liked.
Saturday came, and I was so nervous that I considered bowing out, but I was too curious (and horny) and grabbed a towel and $5 (which was required to replenish the hosts oils supplies) and headed out. The meetup was scheduled for 11, and had been posted that no one would be allowed to enter after 11:15. I arrived at the at 10:45.
After I entered, we sat around talking until all six guys had arrived. The host then explained that he had two massage tables, and that we would be in groups of three. This made me even more nervous, because one of the men I found attractive was quite a bit older than his profile pic, but I soon found out that my group was with the host and another guy (both guys that I found attractive). After the hosts instructions, we began to undress each other (we were not allowed to strip ourselves).
With that, the host said he always goes last, so he asked me, and the other guy in our group, who wanted to go first. With neither of us answering very quickly, I said that I would, and laid down on the table face down.