"I'm not a Domme," Lizzy said. We were sitting outside the Coffee Shack, discussing (quietly, for Lizzy) the night before. "I mean it's crazy."
"I'm not a sub," I said.
"Well you're
kind
of a sub." She checked her phone, then looked up. "Sorry. But I mean you kind of are, right? You love going down on me."
"You're delicious," I said. "Plus lots of guys like going down."
She snorted. "Okay, sure. But you
came
once from doing it."
"Wait," I said, "that's not fair, you were up on your hands and knees and—"
"I know, I know." She grinned and waved this away. "I
love
that you're like this, are you kidding? It's not just pleasing me, you just seem like you're willing to do, like
anything
, to please me. Or maybe, like,
anyone.
Which is insane, and hot, and now I'm trying to figure out why I like it so much."
"You
do
like control," I reminded her.
She nodded at this and sipped her latte. "You know how I don't like video games? Because they're not real? Well, this sort of
feels
like a video game, except..." Here she paused and looked me in the eyes. "Except I'm controlling
you
. For real."
I shifted in my seat, a little uncomfortable with this. "You're not controlling me, really. You can't just make me do anything."
"But that's what makes it like a game," she said. "Some levels are probably just a little harder than others, right?"
I tried again. "You
wouldn't
make me do anything. If you were the kind of person who would, you probably
couldn't.
Because I wouldn't let you."
She said nothing to this for a few seconds. Then she sat back and let a slow, mildly wicked smile take over her face. "You sucked a man's cock yesterday," she said. "That wasn't just a spanking thing. He was a complete stranger and all I had to do was whisper in your ear, and—"
"I know, I get it." I turned a little red and looked around us, but no one was paying attention.
"And then you got belted, and you went to bed with your face soaked in cum," she went on, happily and a little too loudly, "cum that you'd sucked out of another man's
balls
, Tommy."
At this, a pair of young women looked over at us. I tried not to notice and asked Lizzy what her point was.
"I don't have a point," she admitted. "I just liked saying it." With another big toothy smile. "But you're right, it's not like I'd get carried away with this, even though Level One turned out to be pretty damn easy..."
"Don't get any ideas," I warned.
*
For a few days things seemed to go back to normal. The only thing unusual was that Lizzy was a little rougher when I was going down on her, and hornier in general.
I was driving home from work on Friday when she called my cell.
"Let's stay in tonight," she said. "Can you stop at the store to get some fish? Unless you've already gone past?"
"Just left the office, I can stop," I said. "What fish?"
"Nothing with eyes. Up to you."
"They all
had
eyes," I said, but she'd already hung up.
I rolled down all the windows to enjoy the warm weather. A nice quiet night at home would be good. A nice
normal
night. I still wasn't sure how I felt about everything with Peter. A part of me was turned on, but another part of me wanted to just put behind us completely.
A minute later a siren wailed behind me, and lights flashed in the rearview mirror. Fuck. It was a spot where I always found myself speeding because it was an empty stretch of road without many lights, and I tended to get distracted.
The cop passed me and directed me to pull over down a quiet tree-lined side street. I did so, pulling in ahead of where he'd parked, then sent a text to Lizzy while I waited to let her know I'd been pulled over and that it might be awhile. She texted back a sad emoji and said she'd pick up the fish, and not to worry.
The cop—tall, black, bald, and muscular—took his time walking all around the car before coming up to my open window. We don't have a big police department in our town, just a handful of men and a few women, and I went to high school with at least half of them. I couldn't remember this cop's name because he'd been ahead of me a few years in school, but I still recognized him.
He asked if I knew why he'd pulled me over, and I said maybe speeding? He said he'd clocked me at twenty miles over the limit, which was reckless driving.
"There's no way," I blurted. "I mean, uh, I just don't think I was going that fast. Officer." Years ago I'd gotten a reckless driving ticket for the same reason, and it had cost me a fortune in fines and insurance.
"You can argue it in court if you like," he said. "License and registration."
I kept my mouth shut but handed him my stuff and then sat back to stew while he went back the cruiser. I didn't have the money for this. And I hadn't really been going that fast, had I? But how could I prove he was wrong? It felt like there wasn't anything I could do. And on top of that he was taking his damn sweet time writing up the citation. Plus on top of
that
he was wearing sunglasses even though it was past sundown now.
When he came back at last, he had not one but three tickets with him. In addition to reckless driving, he'd written me up for a busted tail light and a lapsed registration.
"Perfect," I said.
He handed me back my things, then paused as he was about to hand me the citations. "These are expensive," he said.
You think?
I bit my tongue and only said, "Yeah, I guess so."
"So I'm wondering now," he said, "if a warning might be enough for you."
I looked up at him, but couldn't read his expression behind the sunglasses. I've never in my life gotten off with a warning. "It would be, yes," I said. "I mean absolutely."
He nodded, and then leaned down toward me. "So here's the thing—it's Thomas, right?"
"Tommy," I said.
"Tommy. Here's the thing. I'm on the fence about giving you a warning. I think you're probably a good guy and you'll keep the speed down, but I don't know that."
"I am a good guy," I said.
He laughed, which I took as a good sign. "I hear you. But I guess I can't really know for sure. How seriously to take you, that is."
I said I didn't understand.
He stood up straight and looked up and down the side road we'd turned down, which was totally empty. Then he put his hand down over his groin and squeezed his cock—a big cock, I could tell from the size of the squeeze.