This is a true story. The details are all pretty accurate.
I had been going through a rough break-up a few years ago. My girlfriend at the time was a pretty severe alcoholic who's drinking was only getting worse. She was extremely abusive and I got into a really depressed headspace thinking I was going to fix her and us only to consistently and constantly fail miserably. We were at that weird breakup stage where we'd breakup every week, and not talk for a week or two, then get back together for a day or so before repeating the entire process over again. This vicious cycle kept up for almost 2 years.
To cope, I started drinking alone at night. I now realize how unhealthy this was. Let's just say I'm in a much better place mentally now then I was then, but I got into some pretty crazy stuff in a desperate attempt to avoid feeling what I was definitely feeling.
I had been increasingly using porn while drinking alone and usually taking Benadryl as well. I found the combination of the two made me really horny and much more willing to engage in potentially risky behaviors without fear of the potential consequences. I do not however, recommend this particular combination of behaviors for literally anyone though.
I should say at this point, my relationship with sex isn't probably representative of what's typical for most of the population. As long as I can remember, I've been obsessed with sex. I've also been very successful in sex, sleeping with pretty much every woman I've ever wanted. I've been blessed with above average looks, and of all my bad habits, bodybuilding isn't one of them. I am 6'2", 245 lbs of lean muscle, great cock. Yes, it's chemically enhanced, but not year round. I know this sounds conceited as hell, and I'm not trying to be, but having a lot of muscle has opened a lot more doors than most people will ever know. I've slept with countless women. All types. I get hit on a lot and always have. It's been great for sex, my sex addiction and the sex toy industry, but it's definitely made me quite lazy and boring in many other aspects by virtue of me not having to try very hard. On the outside, I am very much an alpha male. I'm very lean, very muscular with a history in MMA. Basically, no one that knows me would ever suspect that my sexual kinks extend as far as they do.
I'd had a couple instances when I was younger where with friends, we like experimented playing truth or dare and I once even had a trans chick that blew me when I was 19, but I am grateful that I've never felt like I had to question whether or not I am gay. I definitely prefer women. So thankfully, I didn't have to struggle with any identity crisis type feelings when I started repeatedly getting the urge to suck some cock. In my head, I kind of break it down like this, I like Thai food. But I also don't want to eat Thai food for every meal, everyday.
Anyways, I digress. The point is, my quest for new and exciting kink was escalating. I like pretty much any type of extreme porn, anal, group stuff, fisting, watersports, and trans videos. I was big into gloryhole porn and really got off on the whole anonymous aspect of it. Somehow, one thing leads to another (alcohol plus Benadryl = questionable decisions) and I end up browsing Craigslist personals one night. F4M was about as active as a retirement home after 9 PM so I eventually started browsing T4M sections, before taking the plunge into the M4M. I was amazed at how easy it seemed to be to hookup with a guy. Women are for reals so high maintenance when it comes to hookup culture.
I wound up finding an ad for a guy that wanted his cock sucked anonymously. I had drank enough that evening and taken just enough Benadryl that I was ridiculously horny, and really felt like doing something IRL that was super whore-ish and slutty, like the whores and sluts I was watching in porn at the time. I thought why not? I mean, you only live once and the Simpson's was a re-run that night. I messaged him and found out he lived close, he too was straight, white, close to my age, 37 to my 33, and totally DL too. I cannot stress enough how important it was to me for the dude to be DL too. I remember that mattering to me so much. We exchanged a few messages. The guy was not super talkative. He told me he was home alone and ready to go.
Pulling up, the house was dark. It had all the set pieces in place for a fun sexual exploit, or a future Netflix documentary depending on the eventual outcome. I got out of the car, nervous as hell and couldn't really believe I was really going through with this. I approached the front door and the dude was waiting for me. He opened the door and let me in. He was like 5'9" about 185 lbs, with black hair and a black goatee, I was a lot bigger than him. He had the build like he used to workout a lot in his teens and 20's but fell off a bit the past several years.
He led me down the hallway in the dark to this bedroom that looked like a computer room. There were a lot of kids toys around. He obviously had kids but thankfully they were not home at the time. The only light in the room was the light from the computer monitor, which had the porn websites he had been watching loaded up. At this point it occurred to me that this could get super awkward really fast if someone didn't make a move pretty quick. I did not come over this late just to talk, so I took the initiative and just got down on my knees in front of him. He looked a little surprised to see me drop to my knees but he immediately stood up out of the chair and pulled his cock out of his pants.
After all my fantasizing, I finally had a bare cock in front of my face. All 7.5 inches just standing out there and I'm thinking about how I have actually somehow created a chain of events that has led to me being expected to suck this guy's cock like a fucking whore.
