Liv lets out a squeal-scream to show both her shock and excitement, and I flinch, my ears already ringing. I'd completely walk away from her if she wasn't latching onto both of my hands while she jumps up and down in place. "I knew it!" she cries. "I! Knew! It!"
"Can you please calm down?" I ask, gently trying to pull away.
She's not letting go, though. "I fucking knew it! Oh my God. Oh my God!" She looks positively giddy. It's laughable, but she's good-hearted, so I let her have her moment -- that is, until she lets go of my wrists. "Guys! *Guys*!" She turns away and before I can stop her, she rushes out of the kitchen and into the living room.
"Liv, wait a sec--"
"Guysguysguys!" she says, unable to stay still or keep her mouth shut. Bruce, Sasha, Corb, Trish, and the twins all look towards Liv in surprise. "Jackie and Gus are dating!"
I sigh, leaning in the entryway. I was hoping to tell everyone myself, but she's so quick to open her mouth. This is something Gus and I talked about, too. Just a few days ago, when it more or less dawned on us that we've been dating for a little over a month now, I asked him if he wanted to keep it a secret from the group. Liv was getting more and more curious about the nature of my relationship with Gus because, according to her, he and I were hanging out a "surprising" amount. I told Gus that if she sniffed it out, she'd tell everyone within earshot. "Do you want everyone to know?" Gus had asked me, and when I told him I didn't care, he smiled, appreciating that I valued his level of comfort. I just wanted to know how he felt.
It's a good thing he didn't mind, because it took Liv all of five seconds to tell all our friends. When she breaks the news, everyone turns to me, looking surprised, and a few of their eyes flicker towards Gus when he comes out of the kitchen to stand next to me.
"You couldn't wait two minutes?" I ask Liv.
"Oh, don't be like that," Liv says, playfully scowling. "You should have told everyone else before me."
"Then I would have never heard the end of it," I tell her. "You're selfish."
Liv is about to retort when Bruce gets his piece in. "Wait wait," he says, "you guys are seriously dating?"
I hold his gaze and nod. "Yep."
I'm trying to figure out what his expression says. He doesn't look angry, or irritated, or anything negative, I suppose. He just looks confused. "I thought you were straight?" he asks me.
I shrug. "So did I," I murmur -- and suddenly, everyone laughs, breaking the tension. A few of the girls are quick to mimic Liv's reaction but on a smaller scale, all looking particularly enthralled with this news once they get over the shock. The collective surprise makes me wonder if Liv was keeping her suspicions to herself. If so, I'm quite impressed. That's so unlike her.
The only person who doesn't seem to initially care one way or another is Kyle. Personally, I think it's because he and Liv got into a fight and now she's holding out on him. Kyle's lucky that Liv lets him anywhere near her body because he doesn't exactly have a line of eligible bachelorettes waiting at his beck and call. "That's so weird," Kyle says, squinting at me and Gus, as if not yet understanding the situation.
Liv is quick to snap at him. "Fuck off, Kyle," she says, clearly not wanting the good spirits soiled. Of course, this sparks some not-so-playful banter between the two of them that inevitably grows into an argument. Kyle spits back, and Liv approaches him with a threatening walk and a wagging finger.
In the meantime, Bruce approaches me. "Yo," he says before gesturing between me and Gus. "How long has this been going on?"
"Uhhh..." I'm not sure how to answer that, and when I look towards Gus, he just shrugs. "You could argue when we met," I finally say.
"Damn," Bruce says, surprised. "I had no idea."
"We keep things low key," I tell him, and Bruce nods approvingly.
"Respect," he says.
He seems to eye us weirdly, though. "All good?" I ask him.
"Totally, man," he says, meeting my eye and smiling finally -- and it feels genuine. "I'm honestly just super surprised, is all. You're happy, though?"
I grin back at him. "Yeah, I'm happy."
"That's what I wanna hear," he says, affectionately patting my chest.
It feels good to get that approval from my buddy -- not that I needed it, per se, but it's still nice to know that I can just openly be with Gus without any complications. Out of the group, Bruce's opinion is the one I care about most, so it would hurt if this had gone any other way.
The complication only comes from Kyle, who's still engaging in an argument with Liv. At first, I think it'll blow over. Quickly, though, it turns into a full-blown fight, with Liv's raised voice and heated emotions taking precedence. I wouldn't put it past her to lay hands on Kyle (and honestly, I wouldn't mind seeing that), but we all want to deescalate the situation. Corb, who towers over all of us, steps in between them and nudges Kyle away from Liv. Liv tries to keep shouting into Kyle's face, peeking around Corb's sides or under his arm, but I take her shoulders and pull her aside. I'm the only one of our friends who's not intimidated by Liv, so it makes sense for me to calm her down.
"Breathe, Liv," I say in a level voice, more or less holding her in the corner of the room like a chastised child.
"God, I fucking can't *stand* him," she says, red-faced and fiery.
"Stop thinking about him," I say, keeping my hands on her shoulders. "Come on. Breathe."
"Jackie, I--"
"Breathe, woman," I tease.
She gives me a frustrated glare but relents, inhaling deeply and then exhaling. I breathe with her, going through a few cycles until I finally notice that she has calmed down.
"You good?" I ask, trying not to laugh in her face.
"Yeah, I'm good," she says, brushing it off and sweeping her hair over her shoulder. Then, under her breath, she murmurs, "He's such an asshole."
I chuckle. "Yeah, he's an asshole now, but I'll give it two weeks before you're riding his dick again."
She looks scandalized, slapping my arm. "Why would you say that?"
"Uh, because it's true," I tell her. "You do this every time." She opens her mouth to retort but thinks better of it, and I grin, validated. "Why do you still fuck around with him anyway?"
"Because," she says, "he's really good at eating pussy." She says it with such a sadness in her eyes that I burst out laughing. "Don't make fun of me."
"I'm not, I promise," I say, stroking her arm to reassure her.
She just sighs before looking up at me and smiling slightly. "Thanks for telling me first, by the way."
"You would've been pissed if I hadn't," I remind her.
"And that's why I'm happy you told me first," she says before her eyes flicker towards Gus, who's watching everyone berate Kyle with amusement. "I really like him for you."
I laugh. "Thanks for the approval."
"I'm serious," she says. "He's sweet, and you two look good together." Then, she grins a bit. "What I'd give to be a fly on that wall."
"You wouldn't look at me the same," I say, smirking back at her.
Her mouth drops a bit. "Don't tell me..."
I know what she's wondering with that look: if I've bottomed. "Oh, no. I've been, uh, quite on top of things, lately," I say, and she snickers. "But I'm much more of a tender lover than you would have ever given me credit for."
"Guess I'll never know, Casanova," she says, playfully patting one of my pecs. "Should've taken you for a ride before you got a boyfriend."
I laugh. "You had plenty of time before."
"True," she says, tilting her head. "This really is, like, the first relationship you've had in *forever*."
I blink. She's right. I hadn't even thought of that. Things developed so easily with Gus that I didn't even think about the logistics of things. "Yeah, you're right," I say, my mind drifting a bit.
She drops the playful tone and looks concerned. "You okay?" she asks. "You look worried."
"No, yeah," I say, nodding. "I just... hadn't thought of it that way."
"It's not a big deal," she reminds me.
She's probably right, but I wonder if it *is* a big deal. Am I actually ready for a relationship? I haven't been in one for so long because I've always considered myself bad at them. I've been too inattentive or didn't feel connected enough to the person or refused to compromise. It got to a point where I figured relationships just weren't for me. Although things feel pretty simple with Gus, is it a risk? Are we just in our honeymoon phase? We've never even had this kind of conversation.
We all hang out for a while longer, making the most of our more frequent get-togethers. All of us realized that, even with our increasingly busy lives, we need our support systems -- so we've all made an effort to see each other more. However, I have tons of research to do and Gus has work, so we're the first to take our leave once the time is right.
Ever the gentleman, I decide to walk him home, so once we say our goodbyes to the group, the two of us head off towards his apartment. This works well, too, because I want to discuss a few things before I completely forget to bring them up.