He kept working me with his mouth, not fast nor too slow. My arousal was increasing slowly but steadily. I couldn't see much of what he was doing so I lay back on the bed. I had been curious whether a man could bring me to an orgasm and now I knew the answer to that question. I wondered why I was letting him continue, even though it felt good, with my eyes closed it could have been a woman sucking me. I now knew that if he continued, I would have another orgasm but his masturbating me seemed more intriguing than what he was doing now. It seemed so strange watching him stroke me as I had never had a man touch me sexually. Watching myself ejaculate in front of him was really intense and then watching him rub my semen around my penis and using it as a lubricant was also intensely sexual. But his sucking me didn't seem so intense until I grew rather aroused.
When I felt that wet, warm feeling deep down inside me, I agian began to wonder if he would let me cum in his mouth. The thought of him eating my cum seemed to turn me on, somewhat like when a woman eats me. In a way it's a form of acceptance I guess. Wondering if he would just increased my arousal. He was gay but I'm sure not all gay men enjoy eating semen and I began to hope sincerely that he would.
Soon, I began to breath harder and although I noticed it, I no longer worried that he would notice. I did begin to worry that he would pull me out of his mouth and although I didn't really understand why, I feverently wanted him to drink my cum.
I remembered a technique my ex wife had used when she was performing oral sex on me. When I was about to go over the edge, she would grip me at the base of my penis with her hand and leave only the head of my penis in her mouth. If my instinct to thrust was too much, she could control it with her hand, pulling the foreskin taughtly against the base, causing a little pain but would keep me from thrusting. She didn't mind the taste of my semen, but if the head was too far in her mouth at the time of my ejaculation, it would cause her gag reflex to become active. Later on, we had read that the instinct for a man to thrust is very primal, trying to insure that the sperm get as close to the egg as possible to ensure the survival of the species.
With this knowledge, I prepared myself to resist the urge to thrust in the hopes that he would leave me in his mouth. Instead of trying to hide my excitement, I did just the oppisite to give him an idea of when I was about to go over the edge so that he wouldn't be surprised. I began to moan and wiggle my hips a little, but tried not to move too much. This became difficult as I neared orgasm.
I knew I was about to go over the edge, so I grabbed bunches of the bed sheets so as not to instinctively grab his head and force it down on me. I let out a 'I'm cumming' moan. He pulled down on my foreskin but kept me in his mouth. The orgasm was intense and my ejaculatory spurts came in rapid succession. I could feel the contractions on his lips. I was afraid I was cumming too hard, but there wasn't anything I could do about it. He kept me in his mouth though and kept me there until my orgasm subsided. I couldn't tell if he had swallowed my cum and I began to worry that he might spit it out for some reason. However, he began to work my cum around in his mouth for a while and then I could tell he was swallowing it in small swallows, like he was enjoying the taste of my cum.
I felt light headed and I lay on my back to catch my breath. I felt kind of elated, not in a dirty way, that he had eaten my cum. I tried to understand this but couldn't quite figure it out. In a way it was simular to a woman eating me and yet different in that it was a man. I knew it made me feel that my sexuality was accepted by him and that we shared the same sexual organs which somehow made it seem OK.
After a couple of minutes of catching my breath, I looked over at him. He too was lying on his back. I looked down at his penis. It was semi-erect. I wondered if by giving me a blow job, had it turned him on? I reached out and picked his penis up in my hand. How strange it felt to touch a man's penis as I had never done so before. It was warm and I just held it, amazed at seeing my hand holding it.
He told me that I ddin't have to reciprocate, but for some reason I wanted to even though it had been agreed upon that we would just see if I could get aroused by another man. I began to slowly masturbate him, slowly pulling his foreskin up and down his semi-erect shaft. It was somewhat of a stretch, so I scooted down further. Slowly he became hard and I enjoyed watching his erection grow. It seemed weird to be touching a man in such a sexual way, but at the same time it was intriguing. In a way it had nothing to do with him but more like masturbating myself but seeing it from a different perspective.