Ben was taking Billy on an Oriental carpet on the deck of the captain's cabin in the
Black Falcon
. The position he was using was one that Billy knew was the Kamasutra position of the Reed, Billy's pelvis arched up to Ben's crotch from shoulders and feet on the floor, with Ben between his thighs and with a strong arm under Billy's waist, holding him up in an arch, as he was fucking him. Billy was sure that Ben would have no idea what the position was called—he would just do it as was natural—and because he knew this had been one of Billy's favorite positions.
Just as he wouldn't have known they were in the position of the Reed, Ben wouldn't know that he transitioned to a position known as the Stem, where he was on his knees but otherwise upright, and Billy was spread before him, weight on his shoulders, legs running up Ben's torso, and Billy pelvis lifted, with his buttocks resting on where Ben's thighs met his groin, while Ben mined his channel. This was a deep penetration position and Billy was panting hard and groaning deeply.
Ben had slapped Billy around a bit at the beginning of their lovemaking. Trying hard to remember, Billy wondered if Ben had been this physical with him two years earlier when they had sex in Boston. The more he thought about it, the more he thought that was so. This was when Billy wanted to feel controlled and punished for the guilt of having sex with men. That was so long ago. He no longer felt the guilt. He now was looking for more affection.
He wondered if he had felt the pain of the blows in the same way then that he felt them now. Somehow he didn't think so.
He also wondered if Ben would fall into the seven-position routine that Mahmud had thought was natural and right. It would have both amazed and amused Billy to have such a different lover from Mahmud vindicate Mahmud's beliefs in that regard. He wondered if he should tell Ben that his positions had names for them already.
This was the fourth position Billy could identify—and that Ben probably couldn't—that just came naturally to Ben as a dominating position. It had started with Ben close behind Billy as they stood, naked, in the center of the cabin—the black mastiff, Freedom, watching them warily from his bed in the far corner of the cabin. Ben had one arm slung across Billy's chest, with his hand cupping Billy's chin and pulling the young man's head painfully. The fingers of his other hand were roughly forcing themselves between Billy's buttocks cheeks, and nearly lifting Billy off of the deck with the strength of upward thrusts. Billy knew there was no art in this; this just was where Billy was standing when Ben could not control his desires and needs anymore. He had invited Billy to the bed, but had not let Billy take a step in that direction before he was upon him—and inside him.
Billy was groaning and whimpering. It had been some months since he'd been worked like this. Mahmud had been too sophisticated in his sexual techniques to be this rough. When he was sufficiently aroused, Ben released the chin hold and commanded that Billy bend over, while standing, at the waist and grab his ankles. With his hands locked on either side of Billy's waist where the buttocks dipped in the waist, Ben thrust inside him brutally and began the fuck.
As he did so, he had growled. "I know this is a way you like it."
Billy almost murmured that this was known to Mahmud as the position of the Wolf—although Mahmud took it at a more sedate pace—but Ben would not have understood, and this was not a moment for talk. This had transitioned into what Billy knew as the Greyhound, which was just a sophisticated word for what Ben also knew it to be: the doggy fuck.
Billy was not to know if Ben was headed for seven positions, or even knew of some of the more refined and athletic ones. During the fourth position, the Stem, Ben had arched over Billy's torso and his strong hands had taken a choke hold on Billy's throat. One, two, three chokes, in concert with three rhythmic short strokes inside Billy's ass with Ben's cock. Then a release on the throat, but a deep thrust of the cock. Repeated.
Billy gasped for air after the third release of the chokehold, only to find himself swallowing air and sputtering at the feel of the cock thrusting deep inside him.
After the third cycle, Billy coughed and rolled away from Ben. He lay there, gasping for several seconds, his hands going to his bruised throat. "I'm sorry, I can't," he mumbled, giving Ben a plaintive look.
Ben's own look was one of shock and disappointment. "You say you can't? You could before. You begged for punishment. You couldn't come without it. You've changed."
"I hadn't realized. But I think you're right—that I've changed. It's been some time since . . ."
"Two years. Can you have changed that much in two years?"
"I think when you're younger, you change more quickly . . . maybe?" Billy could tell that he wasn't saying something that Ben wanted to hear.
"I must always have been older then, because I haven't changed."
That statement was like a thunder clap in the cabin, the sensation of the closing of a heavy, oaken door.
After a few minutes, Ben rose from the floor and walked over to a stand with a flask of wine on it and a few crystal glasses. The top of the stand was configured to keep the glasses in place despite the rolling of the ship, which was sailing, Ben had said, west toward Algiers, where the foreign pirates were gathering until something was settled in Tripoli.
He poured two glasses of wine and walked over and handed one to Billy. Then he tossed off the wine in the other glass and returned to the stand for a refill. Without looking at Billy, he said, "You are probably very tired. You may rest on the bed."
It was spoken more as a command than a suggestion or indulgence, so Billy picked himself painfully off the Oriental carpet and went over to the bed, took a drink of the wine, put the wine glass down on the bedside table, and then laid down on the bed on his back. But he bent and opened his legs, giving Ben what he hoped was an enticing invitation to come to the bed too.
Meanwhile, Ben had walked to the door of the cabin, opened it, and said something to the pirate standing guard outside. He walked over to the table with the charts on it then and studied those—or pretended to—without looking at Billy. Nothing spoken transpired between them either, as the minutes ticked away, the tension building until it was broken by Freedom noisily farting and huffing in his sleep in the corner.
The danger in the room was that Ben still was hard. Rock hard. Billy knew something had to be done about that.
"Ben, please. Come to the bed. Do what you will with me. I am yours totally—still." Billy moved up on the bed, his shoulder blades elevated on the pillows, and opened his legs wide, dug his heels into the bedspread, and rolled his pelvis up. He moved his hand down and spread his entrance with two fingers. If Ben would just turn his head, he would see Billy's entrance, willingly open to him.
Ben wasn't given time to respond to that invitation, nor did he look to the bed. There was a knock on the door to the cabin, Ben spoke a gruff "Come," and standing in the doorway, trembling, was a beautiful blond young man. Younger by nearly three years than Billy's now nearly twenty-one years, and smaller and more delicate of build than Billy ever had been.
"Come, stand in the center of the room, Dieter. He looks young, doesn't he? As young as you were when you first came to me."
Billy's heart sank. That was probably more telling than his failure to respond to a punishing fuck as he once did. He no longer was as young as he once was.
Still trembling, long, thick, fluttering eyelashes cast at the deck, the young man shuffled into the room and stood in the center, on the Oriental carpet.
Ben circled him, a dagger in his hand. The young man was wearing silken knee britches, held up with a scarlet sash. It was obvious that he wasn't a sailor or a pirate. That only left captive from some conquest of a merchant vessel.
His skin was an alabaster hue—smooth, boyish, but well toned, pampered. He was sending mixed signals, which were more clear to Billy, who had had used several occasions to do this himself, than, Billy knew, to Ben, the arrogant self-possessed pirate chief. The innocent and boyish aspect Dieter was showing seemed false to Billy. He was overdoing it a bit. There were flashes of purpose in the eyes darting in snatches to take in the room, assess the atmosphere, and locating Ben as the man of power—the one able to give favor. Billy knew Ben would not be able to see this. Billy himself only was able to do so, because he had had to do this himself. Indeed, he had done so with Ben the first time, being brought to him as a disposable captive, knowing he wanted Ben's cock inside him, but knowing that Ben needed to see him as hesitant and vulnerable for his own pleasure. A pirate, like a general, needs to conquer, to take something from the other by force. Something told Billy Dieter was fully aware of this—and that Dieter was a survivor—and, Billy could tell, a user.
Billy held his breath. He felt like his life was being relived—that Ben was making him watch what they once had had but that now seemed to be lost to them.